And that is how you live a free life

One of the things about beginning to move into a realization of a miraculous reality (and I know that this may be a subject that is beyond what you are willing to contemplate.) but if as you say, you are open to it, then let's ask the most preposterous questions that we can ask. 

Why would you consider settling for something less than what you have observed other people enjoying here? What if there existed the possibility that something extraordinary, something that would shock your reality, were available for you to interact with?

Jim, I would love it.

I am not promising anything, but what I am suggesting is, that one of the things that I specialize in, is being open to and receiving answers from infinite consciousness and so the last few times that Jim and I have got together, Jim has been saying; let's look at some things and see if we can further understand them in such a way that you go: wow!

Phil. The Jim in this room? The James Huish that I grew up with?

Yes, it's another side of Jim. The part of Jim that likes this is the part that believes that his life can be extraordinary, that he can be king of the hill in a way that is nice for him and nice for everybody that he is with. And so, Jim does not wish bad for anybody. He doesn't necessarily wish to provide what everyone that he knows wants him to provide, but he wishes well for everybody and wishes that they would pay attention to what he wants out of life also, to see if there is a way that he can be fulfilled and theirs can be fulfilled and everybody can be in a harmonious exchange of positive emotions with each other because each is giving and receiving what they would like to be. 

Phil, can I play the devils advocate?

You can say what ever you want, and let me just preface it with this; "whatever you want" but consider in your making of that decision, that if in fact you looked, there are infinite possibilities you could access and choose from in order to enhance your reality here in the moment and so if you are open to that as a possibility, then extraordinary genus can come from you. Now I will shut up and listen and hope that that is what I hear.

Phil, I am going to have trouble with that, if your eyes are closed, even though you might be even more focused. Ok, you said "say what is on your mind" Jim admittedly on the point that you brought up, that he is extremely selfish and I find that refreshing and I think that we all are to a degree, but when Jim says; I'm selfish, on the level that you are talking about, is he saying "I want there to be a harmonious (and I like the way that you praised it; "exchanges of positive emotion") can that happen if we are all in our small ways being as selfish as we are? Because sometimes we don't want...

I got the question, what kind of interaction do you want here? What is the purpose of our exchange?

Phil, I think about these questions all of the time, quite honestly. 

What you are wanting to do is communicate with me so that I understand you and you're wanting to get something off of your chest.

Phil, I was being a little bit funny.

I am just saying; what's not occurring is a willing receipt or recognition that there is something possibly enlightening that we can share and I am not sure what to do with that. If you demand that i interact with you on something that you are interested in expressing right now, then that is the only level of consciousness that I can access and communicate on. But, if you are willing to be in a state of meditative peace and relax there, then I can go deeper.

Phil, how's this?

I would say; well done. 

Phil, its hard for me.

What is it that you want out of life, that demands that you be intense with it?

Phil, I want some answers about where we came from.

OK, will you allow me to tell you? Because I will give you the answer if you will just let me speak. The answer can only be given when you drop the identities that you insist that you are in the moment; the personality, the life experience has to cease being the total definition of who and what you are here.  Yes, your consciousness is configured towards those life experiences, but what about exactly what you asked; who are we? Where do we come from? What is the truth of our life experience here? Where are we going when this is all over and what's going to happen to me? What's going to happen to me? That's the question that all humanity has for itself; what's going to happen to me, because God knows that I don't know. 

Phil, does God even know yet? Is it crazy to keep asking the questions on this subject?

It's crazy to do this; to ask the question and then not sit, wait and expect the answer to come to you, that's what's crazy, that's what creates craziness, sustains craziness and perpetuates insanity in this world, is the assumption that the questions that we ask have no answer and will not be answered. You keep asking them so quickly, one after another, knowing that you're not going be answered on any of them, that your in a frenzy because you are asking questions that are not being answered. 

So here is how that happens for you; decide on one question and be Moses about it man; 40 days and 40nights in the wilderness if it takes it and say; what is there about me that is eternal? That moves into life, through life and beyond life? What is it of me that is constant and unchanging? That is where you will find your truth; in the eternal nature of yourself.

Now, if you demand that the truth of yourself be temporal, is “this body”, is “this mind”, is “this intellect” and “this presence as a human”, dealing with human issues and human problems, if you demand that that be the totality of the truth of who you are, then you have limited the ability that you have, to receive an expansive answer to your question. 

Phil, Jim, why do you love this?

Jim, because I get it, I listen to him for hours with Jennifer and others, but, “that“ I get; we’re here beyond what we are and what we think we are. 

Phil, my first thought was my love and understanding for people and a tolerance for differences and I think that's at my core.

OK, thank you. Now let's see what can come from this now.  If you keep pulling me out of the speaking of what it is, then I have to interact with you as my personality and when I come into the personality, it takes awhile for me to go back out again.

Jim, go back.

Just be silent so that I can surrender, because it is my act of surrendering to the infinite, to the divine, to that which knows only the truth of all things that opens the door to knowing. Why wouldn't anyone surrender to that? Surrender to that which knows the truth of all things. 

Phil, I would love to.

Surrender to that and see what happens to your questions; they will disappear like water in the desert. Surrender to that which knows all, that which is the truth of all creation, that which conceived creation and wished it into being. What is it that moves through form and brings consciousness to this plane? It is the truth that understands all realities, because it is the creator of those realities. And so, as a consciousness trapped in an identity, as a being In a particular reality, open up, open up to that which is eternal about yourself, that which is beyond time and space, that which exists before, during and after bodies. 

What is it that is eternally true, of you? Ahh, relax into that, relax into the experience of understanding of that which is eternally you, because there you will find, the understanding and the knowing of the answers, brilliant and divine answers, to all of those questions that you have. 

These is no confusion in your eternities, there is only confusion in your present and so allow that which is eternally you, to be conscious as yourself in the present.  Be a present to this reality here, by blessing this reality with a divinely true, eternal presence here; that which is eternally true of you, that which is the truth of us all (now, I am answering your original question here) the divine source that we are, that we enjoy and we fully let go of everything else. 

Now that we are coming here and being embodied, what are we doing here? Why are we this? Why are we feeling, doing and acting in these ways, and interacting with each other as we are here? Why it that the approved reality here? Why is that the common voice for us all and what other possibilities are there for us, is the question you have to ask.

What other possibilities are there here, for us, right now? What if we just dropped the pretense of our consciousnesses here, the pretense of our identities, the ego with which we defend our territory? Why don't we just relax and let that take a breath for a minute and see what it is possible for us to be in the present, without having to eternally progress to it at some time in some distant future? Where is it said that divinity is anywhere other than the present? The divine is only experienced in the present moment as yourself, if you are to know it.

You can't know the divine way, with out knowing it as yourself and it is yourself, it is your truth, it is your noble nature that you move through eternity with and now we are here as these men and we are saying; be our truth again, be here as a godly man, for the want of a better word. There's such an amount of negativity attached to the word God, what would be a better word than that? How about; that which moves creation into being here? Be that, be that, because that is the only thing about you that is not a lie or a pretense or a manufactured reality. That is the only truth about you that goes through time, is the eternal creator of realities and identities to experience them with. 

Why not pull the ultimate hat trick now, that no one has been able to do here effectively? Well, maybe they have, but even Jesus, Buddha, Krishna and Shiva and all those other guys, what did they have in their lives? A bunch of conflict, ok, so were they enlightened? I guess so, to some degree, were they divine? Well, what does that mean? If we are all divine, then yes they were divine, but were they operating from a divine all knowing state of consciousness? If you know everything, how can reality surprise you? How can you not be the master of your destiny if you know it all?

Phil, you can't.

You can't, the devil in his limitations, has no chance against God, why? Because God knows it all and doesn't  even have the possibility of having an enemy because there is nothing that can create a negative effect on him. What does limitation do, when limitation seeks to have an issue with that which is inconceivable, un-confrontable and unknowable from a state of limitation? The only way to know it is to be it and to experience an interaction with another point of view that shares that same level of divine consciousness.

Phil, if the higher power of God is omniscient, omnipotent and omnipresent, if you take a human being and you make them a certain way genetically and all these human beings over time, there has to be free agency, you can't predestined it because then it would just be robotic, right? But, if God made us...

Quit seeing God as separate from yourself, quit seeing God as something that you don't understand, that you don't know, because you know and understand God, believe you me; God is your past, your future and the destiny of your present.

Phil, but if he made us and put us here on earth...

He who? He you, get that in your head, he, you! God has no identity. Anything that has form, that has personality; is not the truth of God, no matter how Godly he is.

Phil, so I have to step out of my, pre formed  opinions and I judged it, you're right, I judged my existence by the precepts that I was taught and I have problems with them and so you are saying step out of it and stop looking at it as a hierarchy.

Yes of course, don't be a freaked out human, because that's not your truth. 

Jim, as weird as that was and always is, that brought me to tears. I don't know why but that brought me to tears.

Phil, you know what I am thinking right? If you are omnipotent and omnipresent and you made all of these human beings with weaknesses right? You still know where they are going to go.

Do we want to listen to anything else or are we done? 

Jim, more.

The question is; can we trust each other to be vulnerable in saying, theres a truth greater than what I have exhibited before in the past. There is a better me than the me that I pretend to be in this reality with the people that I interact with. There's a knowing and an awareness that is beyond what I have permitted myself to be here in the past. Is it OK for me to experiment with you, in what it is to download that which is true eternally about me when I am with you? 

Is it possible for one to realize the divine in your presence? Is it possible for you to surrender into your own truth; the truth that is true for us all? There is nothing unique or special about it whatsoever. It doesn't matter how good someone is and it doesn't matter how bad someone is, it is the truth that supersedes all things and that is; we are all divine, we are all godly, we are all omnipotent, omniscient and omnipresent, but, with each having a unique, individuated point of view, that has been implanted into a body that is using that body to perceive this reality through. 

Everything that moves through eternity is the same and it is true about us all. The question is, is this reality ready, willing and able to embrace its eternal truth? It's really a simple question, because when it is; we will all speak divinely, move divinely, act divinely and have a heaven on earth experience with ourselves and with all things here. An absolutely free and loving exchange with this reality, without any breaks, stops, limitations, fears and dangers about it to us and so the question is; can you be that with Jim once in a while? Can you let down your pretenses and say, hey brother, I know that you have my back, I know that I can count on you to be true to me, because you have been your whole life? 

Now, knowing that, can we say to each other; hey if you pull out something weird and say something stupid, I am not going to hold it against you, because I know that you are being brave enough to surrender into the experience of knowing what unlimited possibilities mean to an embodied being here and now?

So what does it feel like to open up to unconditional love? To feel as a body, to such an intense degree that the body knows that it is loved unconditionally, by you. 

Phil, vulnerable.

Oh yeah, you have go to be brave to share your truth with your best friend man. Even for yourself it is terrifying to relax into the possibilities of what might be true for you when your normal operating consciousness is heavily unconscious, unaware and full of doubts and questions and problems. Of course when you shine a light on that, the rats are going to be jumping off of the ship. 

Life has been exactly the way that it has been and as you said when I first walked in the door; "get it, life is suffering" and that's the way that it has been. Now, just because that has been the way that it has been, does that mean that that is how it has to be for us as we realize our divinity here? And realize that we're the creators and masters of our own realities, of our own world, our own playground of magic?  If that is true, what can I be here for you? What will we allow to be true in a reality that you experience now, with me? 

What will you allow to be true? How good will you allow it to get for you? How good can it get for you right now, limited by your own choice? Your own hand is on the throttle, are you going to give it a little gas and say; me too, me too? If divinity is able to be known fully and truly by self, then why not? Why not? Me too, me too. 

Phil, sometimes I wonder if we are afraid of how good it could be. 

Jim, we all want to know how good it can be. 

But, we fear what may happen to people that extraordinary good things happen to, because it freaks out everybody else and puts them on an attack mode because there are limits to how good it should be for someone.

Jim, that's right.

Look at the movie Michael, do you remember?

Jim, yes I loved it. 

What does it take? Oh, I get it, it's not diving into the unconsciousness of sensual experience and then being hit on the head by someone that is objecting,  to your sensuality; your sense of reality, your divine sense of sensuality. You don't have to communicate what that is to people who will object to it and misunderstand it. It's for your own enjoyment only and then to share with those who are interacting on that level. 

Jim, amen to that.

Yes, guess what? The black sheep rule man, who else will consider the questions that religion can't confront and that is; what's it like for God to be you? Right now? What happens to the consciousness that you believe yourself to be when you contemplate the question of the temple of God being you and you being that which the temple was created for?

Jim, that is truth, that's the absolute truth.

Paul, all is the absolute truth. 

Jim, we get too caught up in the world to realize all of that that you said. I get it, I accept it and tomorrow I will go about making sales. But I am open to what you said. 

Right back to normal.  But guess what Jim? If we get together every couple of months...

Jim, it better be sooner than that or I am going to sell your watch for four thousand bucks.

When we have a few hours, where we are open to reawaken to the truth, then that creates a series of anchor points where we are able to maintain our consciousness here on our own, when we know that we have been able to share a clear and wonderful state of consciousness with each other. 

Jim, and ground ourselves.

And know it was a shared experience. 

Jim, I agree.

Phil, do you think that we are able to maintain that kind of continuity?

I am just asking, how good can we experience it right now, in this second.

Jim, I agree.

Just feel, let's see if we can enter a peak state of shared consciousness here OK?

Jim, we have more in us?

Will you just listen?

I can listen to a lot more.

I appreciate your humoring me and helping me move though the limitations I have and being able to surrender into contemplating ridicules questions and receive answers that are cleaver or enlightening to some degree.

 So the question at hand is; can we put a stop to the suffering that we have in this reality as our experience of ourselves? Is that something that is within the infinite possibilities that are available for us to choose from here? Which is an end to our suffering and a beginning of that which we would wish our reality to be. Is there a way that we can choose that for ourselves and experience it easily? How is that done? How does the divine manifest itself In this reality with ease and glory for self, as the experience of self? Where is the glorious experience of self done here? Where does it happen? Where is it possible to happen? And, if it is possible to happen anywhere, is it possible to happen, where we are always? Which is; with our bodies here? It is possible to happen to this body? To your body? Is it possible for a transcendent consciousness of divine love to be your truth, of your embodied consciousness, is it possible for that to be you?

Well, we will just throw that question out there while we feel who and what we are. Oh no, we're feeling who and what we are, at the same time that we are contemplating the ultimate truth and that is that that's us. That's us, we are this that we are and we're that too, merged into one, in me and in you. 

From the divine, we are taken into men, we have been made into nearly impossible forms to transcend the limitations of the embodied consciousness there. So what is our possibility here to share a common desire to experience ultimate truth? What can shift in our reality, in this moment, when we choose it all at the same time? Yes for me the experience of the ultimate truth in divinity (if that is a word that's ok to use) I like the word divinity, it's just lovely, it implies beauty, grace and a loving unconditional consciousness, with a consideration and understanding for all created forms whose consciousness is limited to those forms, limited to their genus and species and a loving understanding of that with a; I know, I understand, I know what its like, I've been there myself, but now I am this. 

I am this that chooses divine consciousness for myself, because I know that it is the origin and only eternal nature of my truth. I choose my own eternal nature as the consciousness of my body, because that is what's true and I don't have to maintain a falsehood to myself. I don't have to lie to myself about my truth. I don't have to reject my truth as a possibility for me here, I don't have to anymore and neither do you.

You don't have to be temporal here, you don't have to be temporary here, you can embody the divine. The divine can consciously occupy a body, it's allowed here, it's an available choice if you consider it and say; Yes! Now it is impossible today yes, I know, I know, I have been asking  the question for myself for a long, long time and I know that you can't say yes to it. 

But I know that you can consider it and you can keep asking yourself the question; am I willing to be my divine truth here? No, no, no, anything but that! No, no, no, but thanks for asking the question, ask it again! Am I willing to be my divine truth here? Ohh, it feels a little better this time, having contemplated it twice, but no I am not, thanks. Am I willing to be my divine truth here? Oh, God knows I wish I could, I wish I could say yes to that, but I can't, I can't, I just can't. I can't, I can't, I don't know how to say yes to that. How could I say yes to that? How could I know how to say yes to that? I've got no example of how to say yes to divine truth by looking at somebody else, so how do I do it? How do you do it?

You don't have to look to another for an example of how to exhibit your own truth here, it's just wether you are willing to allow yourself to know what it is, because it is only your choice to push it away that makes you live a lie here as to your own nature, as to your own identity.  

You don't have to be what this world says that you are, you don't have to be what the world says that you are, what the church says that you are, what your family says that you are, what your school says that you are, what your government says that you are, what your friends say that you are. You don't have to be that, just because they say that, "that's" you. They don't know and you were right in telling me that I don't know, because only you know and experience your divine truth. But one thing that I can tell you is that when you do that, it becomes irresistible for me to know mine also, so God bless you to that realization, because when you do, you will be a blessing to us all when you do. 

And that is how you live a free life; you allow that which is eternal, to move you, mold you, shape you, guide you, educate you and remind you of your truth of your self and reawaken you into being that here; the truth of yourself beyond time, beyond space, beyond all limitations, the truth of you that encompasses all eternity and beyond, that which is and that which is not, that which is time and that which is timeless. Embrace the ultimate truth of you and me too and you too will know that it is all the same. The ultimate truth of each of us, is the ultimate truth of us all and just because I am saying the words doesn't make me any more special than you, cause I am not, I am not special at all and neither are you and our truth will come through that. Because our truth is universal and if your truth is universal and it is universally true; then it really is not that unique is it? It's really not that special. 

When you encompass it all, it's pretty hard to be special, because to be special is the singular, not the whole. Unless, your specialness is in your being able to realize the nature of the eternal as yourself, then I guess that you could create a specialness out of that, but as soon as you do, then it is available to everyone, so I guess that it's not really that special after all to be the embodiment of God consciousness here. 

There have been many stories about people that were and God knows that I wish that they were true, hopefully there are. But, I do know that there are beings that answer to those names and they truly are divine and so the stories must have been true. But, wouldn't it be nice for there to be a story about you, a story that is true; that the nature of the divine is known by one such as you? The divine in me and the divine in you, fully realized, embodied, expressed and embraced, yeah, why not? Me too, me too.

Phil, is that the end? 

It is if you want it to be the end.

Jim, I liked it, I liked it. Best ever, I don't care what he thinks, loved it! 

Nice.

Phil, how do I transform my fears, pains and traumas?

Get into embracing yourself divinely and say; oh how horribly, painfully lovely this is, Mmm, Mmm. Get into loving that pain and that pain will dissipate so quickly, you'll be an angel of light in no time, love it until death do you part, if you get my little joke. What a gift to have the experience of this suffering! I just love it! I love this suffering that i am in! I love it! I love it, to death. Mmm, oh, I can't get enough of this! I love it, Mmm, ahh, oh yea, that's what you do to your  suffering man! That's it, that's it, just feel it and suffer in love, Mmm, ahh, oh, yea, it's just torturously good man, ah yea, wow, what wonderful pain! It's truly extraordinary and exquisite at the same time. Mmm, ahh, wow and we are just full of it and it's just wonderful! It's wonderful, the exquisite nature of the suffering that we create for ourselves, wow, wow! This is truly extraordinary, just look at you, I just want to love it up it's such exquisite suffering. Yum, what a wonderful experience, ahh, oh, why would you consider the concept of it when you can just love it up right now? Feel, the tension man, wow, it's just ahh, I'm just all tied up in steel cables, wow, wow, wow! How are you going to be divine, unless you experience the extraordinary nature of reality in this body? Come on. Come on! 

Phil, just because we harness ourselves with the doubt of the divine.

Jim, well said, fning well said. We harness ourselves in limitations of not being divine. 

Phil, I sometimes believe that it's that easy. 

Yes, say some more, you are on a roll, it's coming out of you now.  Why do you want to maintain your consciousness in a state of unknowing? Let it out. 

Phil, we accept the fact that we don't know everything.

Why would you want to accept that? Why would you choose that as a reality for yourself? Are you demanding that you continue a reality of not knowing so that you can continue to be right about your premiss that it is impossible to know?

Phil, say that again.

In the face of an example of someone who is determined to show you that that's not the case. I don’t agree with the diminishment of the truth of you, of your reality. The one that I know is your truth, don't ask me to buy into the bs that the men that we walk around as from day to day is my truth. 

Phil, let's de-shackle ourselves. 

Good, from your words, to a current experience please. Unshackle yourself, feel that which shackles you, feel it right now. Feel it to the point that you know that you are fully embracing it. You are fully embracing your shackles; oh yeah, so that's what limits me, oh yeah, I get it! I understand that! I am fully embracing my limitations, Mmm oh yeah. So that's what they are, that's how they are constructed, that's how they are maintained, that's how they are created and that's how they are destroyed!  I get it, I understand that, I embrace my limitations, so that I know them and understand them and then choose whether to continue to maintain them, or to just let them go, because I know. 

What are you willing to let go of? Let's just play a little game; from 1 to 100 with yourself being at the starting point; the stairway to heaven is ready for you to put your foot onto the first step and there are a hundred of them. Where are you on the stairway to heaven? On the divine pathway? In the flow of ultimate truth moving through your body? If you are not even on the first step and you are demanding that your reality as it is, be the totality of your truth, then where are you going to stay? Ok, so what is it to put your foot on the stairway to heaven and then put your weight on it and then bring your other foot up to join that on the first step on the stairway to heaven. The step can be a red couch in a hotel suite that you embrace simply by laying down on it; oh yeah, I got that, oh yeah, I remember, I remember, I know, I know that it is possible for me to know. 

That is the first step on the stairway to heaven. I know that it is possible for me to know and when you know that, then you can ask yourself; do I really want to know? I know that it is possible, do I really want it? 

I guess that I will have to sit and put the focus of my consciousness on that question until I realize for myself what the answer is, so I can then choose. Choose whether or not I am willing to move as my truth here or wether I am going to move as a lie. Am I going to move as truth? Or, a lie? Truth? 

Truth is freeing man, I wish I could choose that. I wish I could and God bless me with what ever he needs to bless me with that I might open to knowing how I can do that; to walk in truth here, to breathe in truth here, to see truth here and to be truth here. God bless me to that please and God always does, always has and always will. 

The only limitation for you, is your own self condemnation, so don't look to God and don't look to man and don't look to books and gurus and groups. Certainly not to any person. When you are ready to realize your truth, just sit down and focus your awareness on that choice; 

I'm here to realize my truth now, thank you.