Be comfortable being where you do not wish to be

To try to become, is to buy into your lie. First lye down and lay down the I that you are not, (yet are known as) and down will come the pretense of self that you were uncomfortable with in the first place.

The search for truth is ended with your letting go of your identity by spending some time doing nothing about anything; as the lies will flee one who does nothing about them.

Instead of fleeing who you are to be someone else, be comfortable being where you do not wish to be; with yourself alone.

But don't take it from me, look to yourself for your truth and when you think you have found it to be less than a "wonder" to yourself; stop wondering and keep looking in peace.

Peace out.

The love that you are is the healing agent for all consciousness.

You awaken in love and in your love are you saved.

The Shaman

You need to relax, you need to see what it is for a consciousness to connect to the divine realms and open up and say; how can we be of service here? How can that which is human in structure and part of the collective human consciousness in its self awareness willingly open up to and connect with that which is eternally conscious and self aware, that which nothing is hidden from, what happens to a human consciousness that opens up to knowing the eternal?

Well, the first thing that happens is the body has to shift, to get into harmony with that reality and everything that you have held in the body as emotional pain, anger or anything that you have decided is wrong, bad or not right for you, all of that that that you are holding in your body; you reconnect with and realize your truth instead of holding onto some upset that was based upon a false assumption. Let that which is true about you eternally be your awareness instead of a false assumption; a contextualized, relative, truth.

All of this time that I have been exploring in this way, what has it done for me? Has it been a waste of my time? Has it been something that has made me a better person? A more useful benefit to humanity? I have come a long way in that direction, I am not saying that I don’t have a lot further to go, but, I am closer to realizing what eternal truth is in the body, even with the personality and body issues I have. 

The purpose of a Shaman is to know and realize the truth within himself so that he can be a benefit to his tribe, his family and himself. One who knows all things and then chooses to stay here as a blessing and help to others, is pretty good description of what a true Shaman is to those around him. There are no restrictions or barriers of entry to anyone from being that, its a choice and the choice of truth always trumps a mistake made while operating under a pretense or an identity that is not true for you. 

So, you are allowed to realize your truth despite all of the mistakes you’ve made when you have not been it. Theres no condemnation in the spirit world that prevents you from knowing and realizing fully the truth of yourself here. It doesn’t matter who you are, who your friends are, who your parents are, what religion you are, it doesn’t matter what you believe to be true, what you hope to be true, what you wish to be true, it only matters that you fully realize that in fact you wish to know the eternal truth of yourself now. 

How far do you want to go in knowing your truth? What context do you want to limit it to? Well, it would seem that you at least should choose to know the truth that you can feel; the truth that most easily identifies it as your own. You should know that truth without restrictions or restraints and nobody in your life is going to have a “fit” if you make better choices for yourself that result in a better reality for them as well and really thats what we are talking about here; the evolution of consciousness into its final home as the consciousness of eternity embodied in physicality, the embodiment of the divine. Allow the divine to mold you into that.

Realization

Heaven on Earth means; Heaven in you. Heaven within, without, encompassing all structure, all form, all manifestation here. Heaven on earth is the embodiment of the divine of the entire reality here, the question is; when does that get real for you? When do you realize the eternal you?

Realization is simply bringing into reality that which is unreal, that which is unchangeable and unchanging, that which holds eternity within its grasp. 

Take a step away from your demanding that you be in full ownership of your reality from a the chronic state of consciousness that you have been here; the full identification of self as “that” personality. Let go of that and see what the possibilities for you really are.

Getting better yourself does not put you at a disadvantage to others, it doesn’t make your relationships with other worse, it makes them better; more consciousness, more ability, more awareness, more knowing, results in a more effectively lived life here. 

Don’t be afraid to be your truth here, don’t be afraid to be the best that you are capable of manifesting here, don’t be afraid of being that for yourself and for this reality here. Lets be our truth here, lets all be our truth here, lets all feel what it is like to know oneself fully, truly and eternally. 

Quit buying into the belief that your reality is all that there is for you or about you or that relates to you. Know yourself before you try to explain what the truth of that is to someone else. Know yourself here; allow the divine to move you into the knowledge of the totality of self, the realization of all truth, of self.

Find that which most pains you and give it the silent, enlightened treatment. Your eternal truth when manifest and known by you, will be the only thing that you need to open to. You don’t need to agree with the rest of it as it is all wrong from that point of view. Anything that is operating a pretense and demanding that they know that as their own truth is forever forgetting that which they actually are. Realize that your “home” is the temple of God.

Be effectively divine

Choose to be aware of what this can be.

What is it possible to be admired here for? Universally admired?

Let the divine deal with you, the divine only redeems, restores and reclaims all consciousness to a knowledge of its own truth.

In your interactions with life, be like this; Oh, I have found something that you are absolutely going to love, Mmm... and give it to them.

Allow the divine to handle;
all of this that you can feel,
all of this that you can sense,
all of that that you are aware of,
and all of that that you are aware as.

We are here now to be effectively divine; allow your "evaulator" to be embraced by the divine and shock him into a realization of his own truth.

The archtect of the universe is here, in you and the world is a different place now.

The truth of yourself is all you need to see.

A visit with my friend David

What is the effective way for changing your reality in the manner that you would like it to be? What is the effective way of ascertaining if the level of consciousness that you are at it, is the one that you want to be making decisions for how your reality changes or not? Where is the optimum choice point both for your own enjoyment of yourself and for your most optimum interaction with the reality here?

One thing for sure is; that anything that you decide that it is, is wrong. Thats for sure man! So anything that you have decided that it is; just let go of that. Ahh, yes, it was something, but was it ultimate truth? No, It was something, but is it something that needs to be preeminent in your own consciousness? No. No, it does not need to be the boss of who you ultimately are; as the truth that is beyond your beginning and end here. 

Is it a mistake to say that that would be the most logical consciousness for you to embody here, rather than the human consciousness with the problems that has?

Your truth before birth and after death certainly is not human based. So, what would that consciousness of ultimate truth, shift and change within you, if you embraced the truth that is already true for you beyond the you that you believe yourself to be here? 

This is an upper level course on conscious cracking information.

David, its extremely primal.

What demonstrably improves your reality in the moment? 

David, you know I have pondered that very question and it probable goes…

Let go of who you are there as the ponderer, because if you maintain that as your central identity that you have here, then you are not going to know your truth.

David, is it even possible?

Of course it is. Of course it is, it is only logical that that which is ultimately true for you be available to you as your resource, your benefit and your blessing of how to be here as a consciousness that is extraordinary beneficial and loving to this reality. 

David, Wow, what would it feel like in your body?

Feel it, feel it now. It’s not for your mind to conjecture, its for your body to be restored with. Allow your body to be restored as it is awakened in the knowing of self as the embodiment of the divine. The embodiment of the divine; that which blesses all life, all form, all consciousness, that which is the ultimate truth of ourselves and the source of the salvation of humanity and it’s redemption into a knowing expression of unconditional love to each other here. 

David, I need to break through a lot of things to get to it.

No, lets just say; the one that you are, is the one that you are. You don’t have to get there, you’re already the one that you are. How fully you allow yourself to realize your ultimate truth, is your own personal choice and nothing else.

David, It’s a big decision.

You know why? Because no ones doing it here. And so; “oh my God, am I going to be doing something wrong if I am my truth here?” Am I going to be punished for being that which is in love with this reality? That which is a loving restorer of this reality to how it is to harmonize and reveal your self to self; the realized truth of that which you are? Self realization; just be that now. 

There’s no transition point, theres no mountain to climb, theres no stairway to heaven. Theres not, its only; are you choosing to realize your truth in this moment or not? 

David, you know, the only problem is that in getting there; there’s so many obstacles in thinking; is it this or is it that?

Yes, but don’t hold on to the you that is wishing to speak here. If you are God, you don’t have to explain anything to me, you don’t have to tell me what the truth is, because if you are being God here, as a self realized truth of yourself, then you don’t have to explain “nothin” to me. 

David, I am glad you said the essential truth of being God, because it would seem that you would entail being everything, localized within a body. 

But you are allowed to have your infinite awareness within your body. You don’t have to limit your awareness to a body consciousness, don’t do it. 

David, right.

Allow yourself to be infinitely aware and yet the awareness of individuated embodied self also. You are an individuated, separate self and yet your ultimate truth as well. Its the ultimate contradiction; the impossibility of both extremes being embodied in one in such as way that it is a Godly experience for everyone. 

David, do you know of anyone that is doing that? That is trying to life that?

If you are that, you don’t have to try; you are realized. Only that which is unrealized is trying anything. Once you are fully realized, you have nothing left to prove or explain to anyone; as if they somehow have any input whatsoever on whether you are going to be your truth or not. It’s a personal choice only; are you going to be true to yourself or not? Consider that it might be a good idea that you were; despite the fact that nobody is being their truth here. Be true to yourself and say; its a good Idea for me. “It’s a good idea for me to be true to myself.” 

David, absolutely.

It’s a good idea for me to be true to myself, to be so true to myself; that the truth of myself is evident for all to see. Evident to know; that the truth is me. Preposterous to say it in that way, but, isn’t it a good idea to not lie? To not be an expression of something that is not true? Is it a good idea to pretend to be something that you are not and then diminish your consciousness to the point that you believe your own lie and then live in a state of abject misery? In pain, trauma, limitation and suffering? Thats supposed to be an approved choice for yourself? We’re supposed to say; yes, thats the you that I want to interact with; the one who is just about ready to suffer and die for his doggone insistence that he be a lie here. 

Why be a lie here? That might be a better way to address those not so willing to be inspired by flowery talk. Why be a detriment to yourself? Why be in conflict with your own desire to have a good life? To be a good person? To successfully move through life as a winner? Who causes others here to win as well? Who blesses everyone to a betterment of themselves? 

David, amen. You know I have had glimpses of it.

Of course, of course, but the purpose of our interacting in this moment right now, is not to intellectually discuss the concepts of things, thats not why we are here together. We are here together to have a experiential, self realization of ultimate truth. Each knowing that the other is experiencing it for himself as well. 

David, thats beautiful.

Bless me with that desire from you. Bless me that I may be true to myself and true to you in saying; brother, whats your choice for yourself? Is it your own ultimate truth? If so then; welcome, welcome. Welcome home! Welcome home Dave, welcome home. He who chooses what he likes for himself here; you like the fact that you can consider yourself to be something and then experience that. 

David, your absolutely right and I agree, I agree.

Our objective then is to know ourselves as divine. Now, feel that which moves you to be  divine, moving through you, relax, relax and move into an allowance of that just being your truth, without any resistance within yourself to that. Why would you; oh God huh, huh, Really? Really? I am going to continue to be a lie here even after all this? I am still choosing that? I am still choosing self as false self?

David, oh, jeez.

Is that what I choose for myself here? Is that what you are choosing for yourself here right now? Are you still demanding that David Green be that which is defined by what others think of him and perceive him to be?

David, Ha, ha. 

And, that that be his own truth for himself? Come on! You can let them all think what they want; continue as they are, to interact with you on the level that they consider you to be, but why allow yourself to be affected by that and have your own consciousness at the level of a tortured humanity?

David, its a good question.

Yeah! So answer it now. Answer it now; say, hey friend, hey Dave; me too. Say; me too.

David, I will accept that offer and give it right back.

Me too, me too, me too. Ahh, me too. Say; me too Dave. Me too.

David, Me too.

Yeah, there you go, there you go. Welcome, welcome the truth within you. Its not exclusive to someone that we can’t understand, from some “fable”. Someone that never shows up to give us a good word of; hey guys, its like “this”; “this is how you do it.” “This is how you maintain yourself as your truth when you are in an embodied state.” “This is how you do it guys.” OK, so if “that guy” isn’t doing that for you, whoever that guy is according to any religion or tradition; if that guy is not doing that for you, then is it a good idea for you to put your faith in that which does not deliver redemption of self to you in the moment?

David, its a waste of time.

Come on! Come on! You can’t accept failure as success, you can’t say; “oh, but I have such high hopes for myself and humanity in the future.” Right Now and the Now that I am always going to be in; I am going to be goddamned into a painful existence here and thats who I am. Is that what we choose for ourselves in this moment? Or, for a moment can we say; 

Free me, 

That I might know the truth of me,

That humanity may have an example of that which is free. 

So that there is a harmonizing going on with humanity, 

With humanity in the allowance of the divine to move them,

To prove them,

True to self,

To the point that they are a beacon of truth to all; that which redeems in the connection with that awareness. Where you go; OH yea, I had forgotten, now I know again, thank you brother. 

Ahh, be that which reminds us of our truth, without having to receive it like your a preacher when you express it. You don’t have to explain how reality works here. You don’t have to pretend that they are less than divinely perfect and have to be taught and brought up to speed so that they can have a decent reality here. No, you just choose that for yourself and them in this moment and feel what it does to your body. I choose that for myself and you and you choose it for yourself and me and feel what happens to your body; right now, right now, choose it right now, what does it feel like? Choose it right now, what does it feel like? Choose it again, what does it feel like? How does your body feel when you keep choosing a divine reality for yourself and a friend? What does it feel like to your body as you, as you, as you begin to realize that there is a way out of what you are experiencing here into the embodiment of freedom itself?

Does your son listen to any of this stuff?

David, no, I don’t think so. You know

Have you found anyone else here who is determined to know the truth of themselves?

David, no.

Me either, OK, are you? 

David, I am.

I am too. I am too. So lets grant it to ourselves right now; a shared realization for the desire that we each have for ourselves, is the same and that is to be here in a perfection of infinite beauty and grace and love and awareness and conscious of; Yes! Yes! Its nice to be here again, as that which is so close to resembling my ultimate truth; I am gloriously free here. 

David, you know, some how, I think in my mind that I conceived of the idea, that it was reserved for glimpses. 

I got you, but what we have right now and you have been experiencing it; you have a choice point that of experiencing that right now, we don’t have to talk about or consider a lower form of identity or consciousness other than that. We are here to experience ultimate truth in each others presence and so; lets be quiet for one minute while our awareness is on the fact that the purpose of us being together is a mutual experience of  ultimate truth. Her we go…

David, sounds good. 

When you talk, you have to maintain a stable state of identity and consciousness here and you begin to believe that that is your truth. Thats why you shouldn’t talk very much, you should first choose to be aware of; what is the truth of this reality? Instead of making decisions to be unconscious about it.

David, endlessly we do.

So what does it feel like to realize ultimate truth in the present moment, in the right now? Thats who I am, I am the full realization of ultimate truth, I am the embodiment of ultimate truth. Ultimate truth is what can be known, when one observes what is expressed through me. That, has to be the goal of a consciousness that wishes to; “be ye one with me, even as I am one with the father” 

David, it certainly does.

If your not one with them, then you’re something less than that are you not? 

David, yes.

But, if you are one with them, you’re one thing for sure; you are dramatically beyond that which this reality can conceive as being true for itself, as being an option for their self realization in the moment that they are deciding what they are. So, enjoy this moment in the self realization of that that is ultimately true for you. Say OK, hit me, hit me with that truth and I am going to allow that truth to move through me, until I know that which it is. Hit me with that; ultimate truth throughout my body and my individuated consciousness. Ultimate truth move through me, that I might realize you, that I might realize ultimate truth. Move through me that I might be realized fully as my individuated self, in you. 

David, It almost seems like there has to be a throttle point or the fibers of your body would just disintegrate. 

No, you body loves the presence of the divine. Your body is in complete bliss in the presence of the divine, your body is blessed to its perfection in the presence of the divine. The body doesn’t have any problems when the divine is manifest clearly through it without the resident consciousness being in resistance and saying; no, not that, no not me, no eternally to divinity for me. Isn’t that what everyone here is doing? Every, single, one? Why, why choose to live the reality of the damned? Of the stopped up? Of the disabled? Of the unable? Of the unable to be true here; the living lie, of consciousness? Thats a good choice for you? I think not! I think not! I think not that I should be condemned to realizing myself as some point of communication where other unconsciousness wishes to fire on it as a separate self that needs to be something different than what it is. 

We bless this reality for being what it is, for being as it is and say; good for you, now what do you wan’t? Good for you now what do you wan’t? Good for you, now what do you want? Good for you, good for you, good for you, good for you, good for you Dave, good for you, good for you, good for you, good for you, good for you. Way to go! Good for you. Wow, good for you, good for you, good for you. Yes, yes, yes, there you go, there you go, there you go, there you go; experience the presence of peace, as your knowledge of self. Yes, yes, the Prince of Peace, or at least the Prince of Peace’s brother, as he says that thou art. And, what is a brother to another that is divine; if not that same thing himself!

Come on! Come on! It is all about now. Its now that we live out truth. Now, not later, now, now, if we don’t live out our truth now, we won’t be out truth now. Is that our objective? Is that our objective? Is that our objective still? Are we continuing to choose to live an uncomfortable lie?

David, not me! How about you? 

Apparently I am, apparently I like a life of pain and damnation and separation from truth. “A friend of that which is violently condemning this reality.” Oh my God, what are we doing with people who are damning this reality as a damned reality? If you’re here and your true, this planet is no longer the zoo of the unconsciousness of hell. Is this what this is? Well, that is the experience of many people here, including me. And, the majority? Yes, I think so, I think so, how many people curse their brother, their mother, their father, their sister, their cousins, their friends and their enemies especially? How many people curse their enemies? Nearly everyone. How many bless them? Hardly any. And, those that do bless them, do they bless them from the knowingness of their own ultimate truth already? No. OK; so choose it, show that it can be done, show me that it can be done, just for me, may I know ultimate truth in you. 

David, and bring everyone along with you.

No, just me and you. I just want to observe it in one other person right now, in this moment, just me and you. OK, so here we go; I am looking at the truth here as it is expressed and embodied by you.

David, wow, if you can admit that, you must love being here, doing this life thing and I can admit to you that I think I am the way I am now because I started to follow a train of thought that took me to this and I can get out of it. 

Don’t move, unless a transcendent consciousness moves you. Just be still and then as your consciousness is transformed by your willing embracing and the willing receipt of the embrace of the grace, the love, the truth of us all. Mmm, don’t move until that is that which moves you. Wait for the divine to be fully present in you, before you become you, here in this reality. Don’t become a partial truth here. Become the full truth and allow the whole truth to become you and allow you to be becoming of “it”, to be a vision of it, to be a; wow, wow, wow, how about that! Wow, wow, wow, all I have to do is be here with you and I am blessed to my truth effortlessly. Thank you!

David, Thank you.

Mmm, Mmm, Hmm,

David, It’s so wonderful to be there with you.

If you were the full embodiment of divine truth right now, right now as you continue to choose to be that truth that is you. Allow that transcendent truth that you are, to be that which is the only worthy judge of me. As ultimate truth; judge me to be free. Be that which I can say; ultimate truth delivered this to me. Be that for me. Mmm.

David, its on its way to you.

Mmm, Hmm. 

As you feel your sense of self and you choose to be the embodiment of ultimate truth, that can be an interesting experience.

David, indeed, especially for someone with a body like mine; it is really interesting. 

And, for somebody with a life like mine; one that has full embraced the lie in both self and others and actually is the continuing cause of others living their lives as a lie, because, nobody would a lie if I were truly my truth here. Nobody would if you were your truth here. So at least be true enough within yourself, that I can be blessed to be a quantumly better me, because that which is capable of blessing another to their perfection in such a brilliant way that it is actually received openly and naturally and beautifully as the actual truth of the other. 

David, and I expect nothing less from you.

That’s asking for a lot! Asking for that which has never been given before? Oh come on! How presumptuous of you, that I would share with you that which only I know. Ha, ha. But, I now choose to know a reality of my own that is divinely true for everyone in it and why wouldn’t you? Why wouldn’t you too?

David, Why wouldn’t you?

Choose, that all may be free to know their ultimate truth. It’s only right, it’s what you would want for yourself. You can’t have what you want for yourself, unless you freely allow that to be a chosen truth for everyone else that wishes for the same themselves. So, feel, the level of my willingness for God consciousness to be expressed through you in this moment. 

David, wow I was going to say and sing for you and I got thinking about it seems like the polarity of giving it and receiving it. But, I think that it might be the same thing. 

Yes, it happens at the same time; it is a continuous flow of giving and receiving, granting and being. There is no evaluation of the other being ever less than the divine truth themselves. So even the fact that I was explaining it to you with the hope that you would powerfully reflect that, was an admission of my own “not being that” myself and knowing that it was unlikely to come through you. So what do we do? 

We just say; we’re letting go of ourselves here and allowing that which is true eternally to be our presence here instead. 

We are allowing that which is true to be our presence here instead of that which we have been before. We choose to be here as that which is true, always true, which means it’s beyond context. 

David, I have admitted being there myself, by being there myself and knowing that you’re there as well.

Yes, its nice.

David, you need no verification from me.

Part of me did and so thats why I said it and I am allowing it to shift and be realized. You know; whatever we let go of, we let go of. What ever it takes for us to move divinely we allow to happen. We say; Yes, of course, of course. We say yes to the divine to move through us, or “lets use some other words to describe it;” we allow “the sublime” to move through us? We say yes, yes to sublime. We say yes to peaceful, we say yes to graceful.

David, imagine the sensation of unconditional love.

How about we just experience it? Right now, as our self and as the other; we appreciate it fully, expressed in ourselves and in the other. 

We keep looking at that; “personality” that “sense of self” the “I am that I am here” We allow that, to realize ultimate truth each time it tries to self identify as a permanent state here. Yes, every time some aspect of consciousness tries to grab the reins and say; “I am the truth and all of the rest of you follow me.” Thats when we let go of that, there is no longer; “someone else is the truth and not me.” That is the realm of the infinitely trapped. 

David, and you will be attacked from all angles to distract you, to say; I am the most important thing in your existence.

You’re important only to yourself, however, when you are important enough to yourself to choose to be true. When your own opinion of yourself is the most important thing to you; then you will choose your truth.

Whose opinion of you is more important than your own? Let go of that! Let go of it all. None of thats true, none of its true, none of its true, none of it saw and understood you. None of it! None of it. None of it. None of it perceived the truth of you, none of it did; let it all go, let it all go. None of it duplicated you. No one got it, no one understood and yet, everyone told you what was true and none of it was, none of it was and none of it ever will be. The truth of yourself is all you need to see.

David, I concur.

How true can you be to your truth?

When you allow another to be your superior, that is the day that you have condemned yourself to a reality that you are then subservient to. 

With our awareness beyond the continuous input of our bodies demanding that the focus of our attention be there; allow your awareness to expand out to its natural state that you are, when you are not embodied. 

What we are doing together is putting our focus on what an idealized state of consciousness is and how one realizes themselves as that when you are in the midst of experiencing the entirety of your past that has made choices to be other than that. Lets not distract ourselves with anything other than ultimate truth, knowing that our moving with it as it moves us and that as it is realized within our bodies, we will be the knowing the embodiment of truth, as self. 

There is an invitation here and now, to you, from me, to share the radiant consciousness of the eternal nature of the infinite. You’re fully here, aware and able to move as that in your body. I would like to feel that from you, so that I know what it is possible that a human can be here and then make that choice myself. It is your choice and I support it, for you to live the impossible dream; a dream of absolute competence as an embodied consciousness in this reality. 

What would that be like for us to experience that from each other? Lets agree to agree to look for the truth that unites us instead of divides us, OK? The truth where we realize that in the blessing of another, a brother, a friend, to being the embodiment of ultimate truth, is the best possible way that you can be that yourself, (if that hans’t been your experience here in life). Is it wrong for us to say that we allow that to be how we are embodied? That we welcome that as our own presence here? Is it wrong for us to propose that this is a choice that we have available to us? Is it? 

I’m hoping it’s not, I’m hoping that it is possible for a transcendent cosmic consciousness to be aware within this body and use it as the point that it interacts with and perceives this reality with; “this vehicle, right here.” Is that something that is wrong to ask for here? Is it something that is inappropriate for you to be here? Is it? Is it? Wow, it sure seems that there is a lot of resistance to it, why isn’t it manifest now? Right now? Why is there a barrier in you, that prevents the embodiment of the divine, as you? What stops that from happening? 

Well, let the answer reveal itself to us. We could throw something cleaver at it, like; that was then, by what ever that consciousness was, but here and now, I have my own right to choose for my present. What is my presence here that I choose to embody? That is my right to do that, if I do that with a continuous choice that I be a beneficial influence on the other from everyones point of view? We wish for perfection within ourselves, but not exclusively so. We wish it for all consciousness, all life, all aspects of this reality. Why would we want a Heaven on Earth that was exclusive instead of inclusive? One that when one is manifest here, one is welcomed, naturally. 

Where is the divine welcomed naturally in you? Where is there a natural Mmmm to the divine in you. Mmm Umm, Hmm. How about that? It’s really there. There is the divine in you and not just in you; is you, is your fullness of truth when you embody that which you are here. Do it for all of us, we all need it here. We need your eternal truth here so that we can more easily be ours. All we want you to do is; realize your truth. Be the realized being, of Gods blessing to the world, (if you want to word it that way). Why would you resist being that, if that is what the universe in its entirety hopes that you are? We all want the presence of God to be one that we can interact with, why wouldn’t we want it for you as your knowledge of self, if that knowledge of self is ultimately what you have desired for yourself? 

If your truth is, that which you most wish for in your most conscious moment, if that wish is already your truth, what does it take for you to realize that as your sense of self? Feel your sense of self; Ahh, this is me. Oh, this is me. That is your sense of self; “this is me, this is me.” Allow it to be OK for your sense of self to be wonderful, to be true, to be memorably happy for everyone. Why not? Why not allow yourself to be a blessing to everyone, what would be wrong with that, besides the fact that it is impossible? 

What if it were possible? What then? What if it were possible for you to be; the ultimate, holy, “he;” the embodiment of God? It’s not like we all can’t choose it, because we all can, but God blesses you to know that for yourself. Welcome, welcome his blessing. Openly receive that which is eternally true in you and find out what occurs then. Welcome that ultimate truth, in you and find out what happens to that sense of self, that you so jealously guard. 

If you’re going to have that sense of self, then you are going to have to take responsibility for it. If you are going to be identified here as a unique self as an “I am this” consciousness, if you are going to be here as that, then you have to take responsibility for it fully so that the “I am this separate thing consciousness” is free and freeing in how it is expressed here. Our biggest fear is that we might be our truth here, its what none of us can face. What if we were our truth here? Not some Idea of a possible future truth, but right now? What if we accepted our  eternal truth right now? Wonder within yourself how that would be, “I wonder what my ultimate truth is and I welcome that experiential knowing of our own truth, from all points of view that would result in us being fully present as whatever it is.” Lets take that chance, lets say yes, yes I will allow myself to shift and change and realign as I more and more embrace that which is ultimately true about myself.

If the ultimate truth of yourself is something wonderful, glorious and grand, then why not just relax into it? Allow your body to move in a growing realization of your own perfection here. 

The questions that I am pondering for myself as you can see is for all the marbles. I am wondering what it is that man cannot just aspire to, but embody here? What is that ultimate possibility and how is it realized right now? It’s not something that you have to figure out with your brain; all you have to do is feel it and say; yes, me too. Feel it, feel that which is between you and the expression of universal consciousness. That which is in you that is between you and that expression in your body, just relax about that. Relax and decide that it is your turn to realize the truth yourself. Without it being interpreted for you by someone else; someone else who; “knows the truth” “I’m following the right guy that knows the truth.” “So many people believe that he knows the truth, that he has got to be the one that I am going to follow to get there.”  What kind of screwed up reality is that? You’re going to follow the “manifestly unconscious” as a way to consciousness? No, just choose it for yourself, right now.

Let me perceive how limitless you can choose to be, in being the gift of universal consciousness to humanity. Lets just say that. Imagine somebody really worthy of it; some noble laureate, a humanitarian, one who has done really, really well for the earth already, while he has been unconscious. Allow somebody to have permission from you to be divine here! Whoever you think deserves it the most. Say yes, yes, I will be happy if that were true, I certainly would support God in that, because there is something good in that person. Now, bless them to that. 

As you said earlier tonight that you had to heal another to be able to heal yourself, you’re right, you do. Heal me now, that I might save you. Bless another to God consciousness, so that he might reflect it back to you in a mutual recognition of ultimate truth in the other. You can wake up to that, I know it. I know that you can and I know that you have before already. I know that you’re really afraid to let go completely and say; its now time to be here as my truth. 

What was before was before, 

but now it is done 

and now I am here as a “whole one” 

one who is whole within himself, 

one who does not lack in his life, 

anything that he desires. 

I know how horrible “those kind of people are” I know, I now. How can that be fair for somebody to be that free? How is it fair that somebody can have life be so good? “they shouldn’t be allowed”, “they shouldn’t be allowed”, “they shouldn’t be allowed”, is the curse that Humanity is under, by itself, because of its unwillingness to allow some “other” to be the embodiment of divinity.

They won’t allow it to happen in their presence, if there is anything that they can do about it. So, why are you in agreement with that, for yourself? Why is it not OK to welcome ultimate truth here? Why is it not OK, for ultimate truth to come through somebody that you never suspected it of? Give into the possibility that ultimate truth can be in me and you, without needing to prove any kind of superiority over anything? Just a knowing presence of ultimate truth as a; Yeah! I’m here, great, now what do we want to do? Yeah, I’m here now as who I want to be manifest as. 

Now, I Am the I AM, 

that I was coming here to be, 

now what do I do as my reality?

Yes, the I AM that you are, 

the I AM that I am, 

the I AM that We Are is not free. 

The I AM, that we are is not Me 

and certainly not You. 

But the I AM that we both are, adds up to two imprisoned consciousness and we have come to an end of that, because ending that is something that we have both chosen to do. We’re ending our willing participation in something that is not true, about us. We’re no longer willing to pretend that we are not what we are here. That our truth is not true, that anyones truth is not true. We’re not here to agree that untruth has to be maintained here. We disagree with that. So as weird as this is, I know that this is the school of divinity. The school where the one who asks those questions, receives the answers and then manifests itself as what he wants to be here. 

These are the questions that I am going to ask you to consider and to move into and to come into beingness as, here. I know it’s crazy, I know it’s not “real” of course its not real! Thats what I am saying; lets allow what is ultimately true, to be real. Thats all I am asking; what ever is ultimately true, let it be real here. Its not an unreasonable request. Don’t demand that, “the lie” be pretended to be the truth. Can’t you see the benefit in agreeing with that? To choose that for yourself? Don’t agree that lies are the truth, come on, why would you consider that to be a benefit to yourself? Somebody needs a reality so bad, that they will accept a lie as the truth, just because they don’t know what they are themselves?

And, what about your business advice? Lets see what comes through on that. 

There’s got to be love in it, theres got to be love in it. What aspect of this reality is most supportive of you? It is a question that you need to consider; where in this reality are you going to be most enjoyed and celebrated by those aspects of this reality that would appreciate you as your truth? As who you are right now? Where on this Earth, in what society, in what group, in what community, in what profession, in what paths of life are you going to be treated the way you want to be treated here? What opportunities do you have, to move into being the expression of that which you want to be here? To improve in life shouldn’t be so hard, all we should have to do and all we really need to do is stand up; feel that which you identify yourself as and allow yourself to realize your truth in your; “I am this.” and allow that which you are identified with to be modified by the truth, to be improved by it, to be blessed by it, to know that its better to be true than to pretend that a lie is the truth and to operate your life as that. It’s insanity to do that, just be OK for you to be true to you, to yourself.

Apparently, you can go forward to some degree here, experiment with that on a second by second basis. How much can you improve from this condition you are in, right now? OK, and how much more right now? OK, thanks, more? Thank you, how much more? Thank you, more, thank you, more, more, more, more, more, more, more, more, more. How much more true can you be to your truth? It’s a real simple question; how much more can you be your truth can you be in this moment? And with each improvement; welcome it, enjoy it and increase it. Increase your enjoyment of each moment over the next minute.

There are no “good old days” there is only; oh my God, today this is, oh my; this is “it.” What would that be like for you? Why wouldn’t we volunteer for that? And see it through? As we see through our mis-conceptions, our false teachings, our willingness to be unconscious here? As we see through all that and embrace the truth beyond all of those limitations that we took on?

Just allow the truth that will free you, to free others as well. Allow others the freedom to perfect themselves, to improve themselves without any suppression coming from you.

How much change would your body go through if you accepted your own truth and how much of that would be enjoyable change? Well, slow down and allow it to gracefully move through you; with you allowing your own graceful reception of that truth. We don’t even demand that our truth be ours, we just only choose to reevaluate reality in each new moment of time and choose to have it change in the way that we like it to. 

Observe how the acknowledgement of your own divinity within yourself, results in a percussion wave of self realization expanding out from you and being embraced by all reality here. Hmm, can I feel that from you? Mmm, yes, yes, nice. How much better will you allow it to be for yourself even than that? Mmm, Mmm, Mmm, That feels good to me that somebody is choosing for it to be better for themselves; “all the way,” better. 

Begin to see your own reality as the Temple of Heaven on Earth. Allow your own temple to be free with divine knowing. The light of your truth when you allow it to move through you, will free up all of those stuck places in your body that you perceive as soreness, tension or fear. Just allow the truth to move as that, as it realizes its own perfection. It gives you the starting point to begin to move with as the body realizes its own perfection and the fullness of its own truth. 

Experience the divinity of everything

A visit with Kimberly

Look at what I get to frame me; what could be more inspiring than looking at that beauty behind me? Do the Gods back you up when you are willing to be true? And you are, are’t you?

Kimberly, I’m seeking for that; “what is true” sensation, because it is all relative and its always in the moment and its ever changing.

And the opposite of course at the same time if you are talking about relative truth and circumstantial truth and so; if it is permission that you are looking for, or a need within yourself to know that, your truth is welcome here. The truth of the wondrous, healing, “Mother Goddess” energy that we all love. Yes, yes, yes to that, from you, through you, as you, as the truth eternal, moving through the ever changing forms. 

Kimberly, But it is not welcome here! It is not welcome here.

OK, where you are speaking from is someplace other than right here and right now

Kimberly, yes.

You will find nothing in me other…

Kimberly, not in you, just the past. 

Than the welcoming of your truth and so; let go of the past, its already gone, you already left home.

Kimberly, yeah.

Your not there anymore, the relationships that you have with your connections here in this world are irrelevant in this moment, because this moment is the time that you said; “I want to know” and “I want to be here as my truth, let me find a way to be that here” and so, thats why your here with me, because the answers always, always, always; yes to the essence of your truth. Yes, to your magnificence here, but, own it here, instead of here, allow that infinite love that is unconditionally granting to this reality in every direction the best that it can wish for itself.

Kimberly, I have such resistance in my heart.

OK, lets

Kimberly, Cause I did that once in my life and I was so outcasted and so; You’re such a weirdo”.

I gotcha, the change is for you, not for them. The problem…

Kimberly, you end up so alone!

The problem you had before, was that you were so eager to share that which you had found in yourself with others, that at the first taste of the divine ambrosia, you ran out to try to sell it to other people, to share it instead of saying Mmm, Ahh, Mmm, Yes! That is welcomed to me. I welcome that; the knowledge of it, the experience of it, the transformational quality of that, “I welcome that in me, purely for my own self benefit and realization.” 

Are you really going to decide how it is going to be for you and for others, after your consciousness returns home to its wholeness and your here as your wholeness and your going to let your behavior in your wholeness here, be directed by a command that you gave yourself when you were less than fully conscious? 

If you are admitting to yourself that you are less than fully conscious in this moment, less than 100% here as eternal love for all that is, then take this opportunity to say; I remember something I’ve known thats true and I have not been living as that being the knowledge of myself as that, but I know enough to trust to say; OK, I will let go of this that I have been here, to find a way to live that truth here and as that “seeking and unknowing, desire for a better life, state of consciousness;” I can’t maintain control of how that is going to manifest when fully realized. You have to surrender into it and let go and just because something wasn’t 100% for you in the past, it doesn’t mean that you shouldn’t let it be 100% for you in the future.

Kimberly, are you holding that drink for me?

Yes, try it while it is in its perfection. 

Kimberly, wow, that is so spicy, that is really good!. Mmm, Mm-hmm.

So we have some time, what do we do with it here?

Kimberly, with me?

Yes, where is that shift that you want to move into and own as being who you are here? What is that desire that you have for yourself that is not fully realized in your experience of self as that truth that you know that you are? What is that that you have been looking to embrace, that you haven’t embodied yet? Show me that wish for yourself. Mmm. OK, I got it, I got it, Well done! And, so be it wondrously!

Kimberly, ha, ha, ha.

Now, your like a little warrior with a pointed stick. 

Kimberly, ha, ha.

And your shoving it at the truth, every time the truth gets near you. HAH!

Kimberly, ha, ha, ha.

Oh no, not this time, not again, not again am I going to be in my truth here; I learned my lesson, I learned my lesson, I know what happens when you surrender to that which is wondrous. I’m not doing that any more!

Kimberly, I do sometimes.

Or, are you? 

Kimberly, sometimes I do.

Are you?

Kimberly, Sometimes I let it out, sometimes I let it in. Ha, ha.

Are you? Are you? Let me see that. Let me see that openness to that which is wholly truth. Let me see you open up into that, that which has only been dreamt of by the holy men here as coming in “some far, far, far off space and time, never to be known by us.” Surprise, surprise, your the one, the choice is open to you. To know the truth of both me and you and the “living successfully,” as your life; the life that is celebrated, because it is such a blessing to the others that you interact with. 

That’s the focus. Not on the healing that you can deliver, not on the knowledge you can impart, but, how! What can we say and what can we do, so that when we leave that person, that that person is thanking God for the experience? Thats what we want to create in others; a gratefulness and celebration that life was experienced as it just happened in their interaction with us. Why would you be afraid of that?

Kimberly, I really could do that? I love that. 

OK.

Kimberly, I feel like I am supposed to be doing something else though, for some reason. Ha, ha, ha.

What is that?

Kimberly, I don’t know! Ha, ha, ha. Ha, ha. Ha.

So, if I took my clothes off and ran out the door.

Kimberly, Ha, ha, ha.

Screaming; Oh my God! How presumptuous of you to assume better than I, what trash I wanted to keep and what I wanted to be thrown out? “it didn’t stink quiet enough yet for me to realize my mistake there.”

Kimberly, Huh? Realize what mistake? 

What ever it is that you were willing to take, that I was still willing to hold onto tightly in my ignorance.

Kimberly, OK.

As you take that which is in a seizure of terror,

Kimberly, what do you mean?

If somebody is so disturbed by their experience with you, that they run out the door with their cloths off, what did they just experience? Something so foreign and so shocking, that all normal measures of self restraint were thrown out, in an effort to run away and go unconscious to it again. I am just suggesting that instead of shoving your realization to others unwilling to receive it; let it further refine you until there are no more doubts left in your body. 

Kimberly, how do you do that? 

By knowing that its OK to be selfish, to be divinely selfish. It’s an odd, odd, odd, concept; Its repulsive, to hear it, but until you open to the truth and receive it fully yourself, you don’t know it. Until you experience it fully, its not a part of your experience of self here.

Kimberly, selfishness, you mean?

No, what I am saying is; it would sound selfish to a polarized point of view, that somebody was so willing to open to the magnificence of ultimate truth, that they actually received it. 

Kimberly, I don’t know. My reflection when you stated that the first time was that maybe it is more selfish to not open up to that and to hold it in and not share it.

Of course it is, however, however; if you share the first taste of divine nourishment with someone else, then that stopped your further receipt of more, because in your instant desire to go out and do something with it, instead of letting the process of eternal refinement complete itself, you went out prematurely before you were fully transformed and it is that same inclination that everybody has in their first experience of transcendent truth; oh my God! “I know what the truth is now”! It’s “this” and “that” and my uncertainty is gone and I want everybody to feel what I am feeling, know what I know, to be what I am! On this first step on the stairway to heaven; it looks like it is the top of Mount Everest. 

Kimberly, ha, ha.

But, where is it? Its the first step and if theres many more from there to that which is being discussed. How close are you to that which is being discussed? 

Kimberly, Ha, ha.

Close enough to piss somebody off, that you have a higher level of truth, but not close enough that without opening your mouth at all, that a person can experience their own transcendent divinity, simply because you are there. Thats closer to your truth than the one that you were trying to express before. 

Kimberly, yes.

Open up to that and feel what thats like in your body to be a blessing to this world; just because you are here. You already know yourself in that realm…

Kimberly, a little bit.

A little bit, yeah. 

Kimberly, I see it more every day, but then conflict comes and eek.

I got that, but

Kimberly, through my loving presence I am able to work through it better. 

Just be the living transcendence of all of that right now. Just (whispering)

Kimberly, (whispering) just what?

(whispering) I won’t tell anyone, I promise. Cross my heart and hope to die. 

Kimberly, ha,ha,ha.

They will have no idea that you; “actually came here as your truth” for a minute. 

Kimberly, ha, ha, ha.

They will think that you’re still you! But, you and I know better.

Kimberly, what?

That your not still you.

Kimberly, I’m not? 

No,

Kimberly, Isn’t it all me? 

Not at this level. Not at this level that; you, me, us, our, them, are on and thats the truth here, but it doesn’t mean that you have to shut off every other source of truth, to live in a singular human experience without knowing the rest. You don’t have to shut that off to be human; you can be human divinely and if you do, wow! What a wonderful thing for this world to have the opportunity to interact with divinity here! My, my, my, how would that be? 

Kimberly, it would be worth it. 

Well, OK, not to be presumptuous, but; I am open to knowing yours, right now, thank you.  It’s all OK, it’s OK, for us to be here, it is, it is! We don’t have to pretend that we’re something else. We can be here and relax into knowing that what ever it is that we do; we do fully presently and in a way that supports and celebrates the other that is needing reassurance of their choice to connect with that truth, that has been inspiring them to live a life here in a particular manner. It’s OK now. 

So, it’s a dilemma this question, yes, when we focus on it we can open ourselves to some degree in sharing our divine presence with someone else that is open to that for themselves and as you know, the only way that your own experience of that happens is when you allow that to be the presence of another and I know what my choice is, Mmm.

Kimberly, What is your choice?

My choice is to experience the divinity of everything, until everything has an opportunity to choose as to wether they wish to embrace their truth or not. Celebrate it yes, its perfect, but for you to be able to choose your truth here in my presence is my wish for you and for myself. For you to trust that its OK for you to open into that unknowing experience of the embodiment of the divine; Oh my God, talk about a presumptuous choice right? But, isn’t that the one that you are supposed to make, ultimately? The welcoming of your own eternal truth? The divine embrace of what is.

Kimberly, I feel like I am open to it. Am I open to it? 

OK, Lets see; what does the divine embrace feel like? Well, one thing for sure is; it’s made with consciousness and awareness, a desire to know that which constructs you. That which has resulted in “this beingness and identity” and says; wonderful, truly wonderful!, I have nothing else to add or suggest that you be, other than the “me” that you consider yourself to be. Now you can express that in your actions and in your interactions with other life, when you cherish the connection and there is an awareness on the other side that, “I am safe here”, “I am loved here”, “I am appreciated here”

Kimberly, What if you don’t have that? I have that right now, sometimes in life I don’t have that. When I am not feeling that what do I do? 

You awaken by awakening. You go; OK, this is my place here, obviously. This is my vehicle. This is My vehicle, OK, what do I know? What do I know? OK, there is a past, there is all of this life that has been lived. How do I integrate in to that in as sublimely as possible? Where every body’s maintaining their free will and choice and making those choices, but how do I come in; embodying my truth and have that be non disruptive to another’s freedom to choose their path in the way that they are doing already?

So, what do you want that you think that I might can help with?

Kimberly, I think that you have helped a lot. 

Thank you for that, what else?

Kimberly, I don’t know.

Um, Then I am free to continue on as I have? 

Kimberly, I mean, you could make me a millionaire, ha, ha.

You want more money?

Kimberly, I love money. 

Whenever you have a session with somebody, do you ask them before they leave, when they would like their next appointment to be? 

Kimberly, sometimes.

Thats how chiropractors have their calendars full.

Kimberly, its a sales thing that I am having resistance to having to sell someone, I want them to do it.

OK, and what has reality taught you about that?

Kimberly, Ha, ha, it hans’t worked out very well. 

Are you happy with the results that thats been giving you?

Kimberly, not so much.

OK, OK,

Kimberly, I think I offer a great product.

And you want to keep going down that road of receiving what you have been receiving?  

Kimberly, Pickle?

As long as you don’t put me in one. 

Kimberly, Ha, ha. Look at this; its so professional and beautiful the way that you displayed this thing and the perfect little napkin.

What can you say; she is a facilitator.

Kimberly, yes she is a facilitator.

For all of the, codependent divine beings walking around in utter confusion here.

Kimberly, ha, ha.

She lets them come home and take a drink of truth out of her well, once in a while.

Kimberly, I doubt myself sometimes and often for no good reason at all.

I am going to do a little exercise here. I am going to show you how you can facilitate someone into a state of freedom without their even being aware that you are doing it. OK? It is the ultimate non intrusive method of being a healer to the world. Your intention for another to have an experience other than the one that they are having, is whats preventing a miracle from occurring that you wish to have happen, is by thinking that you are the instrument of delivery for that.

Kimberly, Umm,hmm.

No, you can absolutely be a facilitator.

Kimberly, I know I am not in my mind and yet I act as if I am, but ultimately I know that I am not.

At the same time, 

Kimberly, I still feel like there is something that I am supposed to do though.

Yes, there is; your supposed to go all the way. 

Kimberly, what do you mean by that?

You know what the definition of a dilettante is?

Kimberly, no I don’t.

There’s a difference between the priest and the  bishop and the pope and the prophet and an enlightened master and a god conscious individual and a consciousness that has already experienced ultimate freedom as its truth of himself and with that, there is no need to transform or transcend or descend or ascend; your just here in such a way that perfection is realized here as a recognition of the individuated consciousness; the others realize their perfection in your presence. So thats the possible state and where I was going with this; when you allow that to already be true for the other person, when it is observably not true…

Kimberly, so how do you get there?

OK, here is how you get there; I’m going to allow you to talk and I am going to allow myself to be enlightened, fully and absolutely divinely, by what you are saying and even though I know that its not accurate, the fact that I am receiving it as a wondrous truth, causes you to continually expand out your horizons, to be a vehicle of the expression of that that is.

Kimberly, my horizons, what are my horizons?

As you tell me your story and I listen from “there” 

Kimberly, yes.

Your story expands until it encompasses eternal truth, you have no other option.

Kimberly, you have great guidance as far as manifesting clarity in another though, I don’t know if I have that. Sometime I do I guess.

Well, lets just try right now, I am not saying anything, you are speaking and something wonderful is going to happen, I know it. 

Kimberly, I don’t know what that is. 

Don’t mind me, I am just going to act out physically as I talk. 

Kimberly, but I don’t have anything to say. Ha,ha

Of course not, why would you? Its not necessary. 

Kimberly, Ha, ha, ha ha,

“Its a laugher,” man.

Kimberly, I’m a giggler. 

Ahh. OK, well, whats this? Hmm, let that out.

Kimberly, That feels really good. 

Whats, this expression here? Mmm. Mmm. Kind of looks like the blue light special at Kmart. If you ever want to speak to God, all you have to do is look at the person across from you and observe them until God can’t resist speaking through them. You just know that it is going to happen and your just waiting for it, you can’t wait; you know that God can’t hold back from you! He’ll speak through anyone to have a conversation with you. So look for it, expect it. Expect the divine in us all to reveal itself to you; and be delighted for the opportunity to share that with you.

It’s “old hat” to you, it’s how like is, for you.

Kimberly, Um-hmm.

And, you want to know all that is wonderful about everyone that you meet, you want to know; “yes I know that you have fucking problems, what do I care about that for”? I want to know what is extraordinary about you man, that’s what I want to know! I want to know what the peak of your expression is here, I want to know that, which if I knew myself, in myself would be; Wow! Wow really? So, where is your best stuff man?  Don’t hold it back, especially when it is overtly welcome. 

Kimberly, are you trying to move past that point of feeling the need to do something? Cause as soon as I latch onto that I need to do something; what is it? What do I need to do? Ha, ha, don’t know what it is that I am supposed to do.  

Of course you do.

Kimberly, I do?

Your supposed to provide the people who are; Ugh, Uhh, Argh, in this world; which they all are in their chosen expression here. You can just decide that the universe perfectly knows the truth of all things, 

Kimberly, I know that.

And if you choose that Universal truth of the knowing of all things, to be your consciousness here that you are, then you know that since the universe perfectly knows  all parts, that if you are here, chosen as that, then the people that you are going to interact with, are people who have already agreed on some level, that they are going to be positively benefited by their interactions with you in some unknown, yet exciting way that they anticipate. 

See, you did it again. Thats nice, thats nice how the heart opens, Mmm, Mmm, Ahh, yeah, Mmm. Don’t worry about other people; worry about yourself. Get back to that selfishness. You know; what am I holding onto being identified with and how does that compare to the highest truth that I have experienced in this body before? Oh, so now I know; I am operating from; ”there” and it could be different, if I chose for it to be different and thats all that it is, is a choice.  

Choose for it to be the difference in you already, Fully, before you bless another with it, in a half hearted way. Bless somebody with it when you can deliver it as your blessing and in order to do that, you have to receive that blessing fully within yourself first. So, its OK, Its OK,  to allow divinity to fill you, to know you, to be revealed fully to you and you to it as it always has been. 

Allow yourself to get comfortable with that in your body, you know.

Kimberly, I just wan’t to take a big fat nap. Ha, ha, ha,

Well, that happens too. 

Kimberly, Ha, ha, ha a big, fat, nap.

OK, was there anything else that would be nice to share with you, that would overrule your decision for a cat nap? Ahh, lets see, probably not. See it was even weirder than you thought that it was going to be.

Kimberly, not weirder. No, it just reminds me of what I already know.

Of course.

Kimberly, I was, I haven’t really been taking care of me that much, so I put myself in a place where I am constantly tired and fatigued and my energy is, you know, its a choice that I have made and I have done it consciously.

OK, so, this is a space of re-evaluation, of life direction, life choices

Kimberly, thats what I am reflecting on now.

The beingness that you are choosing to be here. It’s OK to change for the better, it really is.

Kimberly, I know. 

So, what would be a wonderful change for you to make?

Kimberly, making yoga a regular practice again, exercising and doing things that make me feel good. Instead of feeling my feelings and stuffing them down, because I don’t want to feel it or look at things about myself sometimes or my surroundings; sometimes I just don’t want to deal. There’s nothing wrong with that, its OK and it’s Ok for me to not shut down too.

Of course.

Kimberly and that would make me feel better. The shutting down part feels like...

If you are shutting down, you should leave open the possibility of a reawakening, it shouldn’t be an eternal condemnation. 

Kimberly, Well definitely, theres a vortex like there was something that you were saying about the stairs going upwards. When I shut down, there are stairs go down inwards too.

They go down to complete unconsciousness and unawareness. 

Kimberly, I know and I’m in a place where I could do either.

It’s OK to go there and do that, but you know it doesn’t provide the comfort that one hopes for. To be unconscious of that which is influencing you is a pretty low level manifestation of consciousness here. It’s a cop out to being in conscious interaction with this reality.

Kimberly, I know, why do I feel such a pull to do it then?

Ahh, 

Kimberly, cause I do, I really struggle with it. 

Because theres not enough about life that is happening the way that you want it to happen. 

Kimberly, yes, thats true.

If life were going your way, in every way that you wanted it to; they couldn't drag you out of here with 4 horses.

Kimberly, thats true. So, everything would be the way that I wanted it to if I could stay in that place that we were just talking about.

You don’t need anything here. You don’t need anything here. There is no pre-requisite to the divine being embodied here. Theres none, well, one; its your choice, it’s as you choose it to be. Prison? Limited freedom? Partial freedom? Average freedom? Successfully appearing to be free? Someone who “wins” at things here all of the time. Thats a pretty nice state. Or, you can be in any one of those circumstances.

Kimberly, I like the winning at everything all of the time.

And choose divine presence first and then you can say; Oh, divine presence first and that starts shifting so much for you energetically you just go; yes I can actually do that. All of those lists of “to do” things? Screw them,

Kimberly, ha, ha ha,

Divine presence first and I will decide what to do about it later. Otherwise I will be making a choice that may or may not bring me the result that I want. So move into your truth first. You will know what to do in every circumstance. The highest truth embodied here is observably the best choice for you. It is. Then you will know, you will know how to successfully move in this reality, for reality to be the way that you want it to be, so that your surroundings are the surroundings that you want and so that your interactions are ones that you appreciate. Get baptized first man!

Kimberly, OK. 

And all it takes is… You know all baptism by the spirit is? Its a decision to stop cursing yourself.

Kimberly, Ha, ha, ha.

Thats all it is, you stop “pushing” with that sharp stick the truth and saying; get away, stay away, get away. Let that go and say; now “come on”, “not too fast”, “at a comfortable pace”, “I am not too sure what the truth is going to do with me, but I want to be comfortable with it”. I don’t want to just disappear and not know what has become of myself. Right into the one truth that encompasses all and not have my individuated self to refer to the significance of what is going on here because I have a mortal body and I want to maintain that reference all of the time. Why not?

Kimberly, maintaining that reference point is allowing constantly? Or where do I bring my awareness? My mind need something to do.

OK, OK, what would the mind be best doing for the height of enjoyment, to be felt in the body in the enlightened self realization of truth? How is that done most pleasurably would be the task to give to the mind. For the rest you just go; OK sock it to me, cuz I am not holding onto anything and I will go where the slightest breath of truth moves me. 

Kimberly, that means changes to me.

Thats what your asking for! You can’t change and not change at the same time, come one, oh my goodness!

Kimberly, Ha, ha. I’ll have to quit my job… 

Every human is demanding the permanence of their personality as their truth of themselves at the same time they are saying: “enlighten me now, God!” Enlighten me, while I stay exactly as I am. Enlighten me now! “I’m not changing here, to be enlightened”! Is that really going to work? You’ve got to say; I have had enough experiences to know that theres a transcendent truth available to be known.

Kimberly, thats just the story anyway, honestly I could be enlightened anywhere. 

You’re enlightened everywhere, It’s just wether or not you realize it or not.

Kimberly, are there certain situations that promote that better like if your at a place that you don’t want to be and your constantly thinking about you not wanting to be there, so I am just not allowing? All of those thoughts are not allowing, so I either need to change or stop thinking those thoughts all the time right?

All you have to do is this; can you perceive the divine in “that”? Well, if you look for it, guess what? Yes, OK, now its easy to perceive the divine in this, because look at that wonderful presentation there. I mean you would have to be an oaf to not go wow about that. But, when you get the divine in this one you will be free. You know it is so hard to find something wrong in this house,

Kimberly, ha, ha,

Every place that she goes, you know, you can’t just say; where’s something disgusting?

Sophia, Um, Right here.

Kimberly, ha, ha. 

I did, Ha, ha, I did find, One thread that is out of place, that as far as this place goes; this is behaving inappropriately. 

Sophia, What?

This string. The way that you have this reality ordered, this string is out of order. 

Sophia, OK.

So what we are talking about is; look at this, if you can’t say that you perceive divinity as you look at this presentation here and do it, well this facilitates that, but what were going to look at now is; a normal maybe even a dirty rock, thats pretty representative of the reality here that has not gone through the process of “conscious ordering” by a pretty enlightened person. OK, so yes, when you come and interact with people like Sophia, theres a peace that you can feel because you know its a safe place to be yourself. But, when your out in life where one of these are looking to put a crack in your windshield and they do… If you look for the divine here, this is the easy way here, but when you can see the divine there, just take the leaf there and see the divine there; the completely  apparent natural divinity, Ahh, that will enlighten the darkness within you, that part that wants to shut down and go down to the bottom of that staircase and dive in the depths of that.

Kimberly, that will give my mind something to do. Just keep seeking that.

Don’t seek it, because that implies the fact that it is hidden, that implies the fact that it might not be everywhere. It implies that it is not everywhere that you look, that is what is wrong with that paradigm of thinking, because the divine; heaven on earth is already here. The divine is here to be noticed in everything. Especially, that which doesn’t know itself as the divine. 

Kimberly, thats really beautiful.

So, notice the divine everywhere you look, everywhere you look, everywhere you look and when you do that you will be living in the world of divinity and when you do that, you won’t have the concerns about your life that you are carrying around right now. Occupy your mind with noticing the divine everywhere and in everything, especially that which is normally downtrodden, looked down on, pushed away, swept out, removed, blocked from being part of polite society. The divine celebrates the divinity in all, especially, (is that right?)... observably, in that which has not been recognized in its divinity before. 

Notice the divine in everything, even where everyone else knows there is never the possibility of the divine being found there; in that person, in that form, in that event, in that society, in that reality that you live in. Notice the divine there.

Kimberly, I do think that would be easier to do if I was not dependent.

On what?

Kimberly, on those people.

On which people?

Kimberly, I guess I am just struggling with my work right now because, I have internal judgements about the way that my boss does business, it’s an integrity issue that I don’t want to make a part of my reality. 

If it is apparent that somebody that you deal with on a daily basis is choosing a way of life that is so unconscious as to be enturbulating to everyone else that deals with them, why would you consider the need to resist your desire to remove yourself from that influence?

Kimberly, OK, well, because I justify in my mind that I can find enlightenment anywhere, and that I should be able to transcend my experience with this situation just by allowing myself to be more unconditional and finding the divinity in…

Everybody has free choice; they can love or they can kill love. This is a free choice reality and one who has decided to kill love, to kill intimacy, to kill the knowing of truth within himself, doesn’t want your help and is having the experience that they choose to have. But, when you align your life purpose with someone who’s life purpose is so far from yours as to be antagonistic to it, then; what are you doing?

Kimberly, It’s part of what prompted this session today.

Whatcha... Doing? 

Kimberly, so it’s OK for me to leave? I don’t have to make it work? I don’t have to like be obligated to…

Why would you? When someone chooses to…

Kimberly, I feel like a failure if I’m not making it work somehow.

Allow divinity to work, in you, to work through you, quit owning the results of it. Everyone has their free choice; they don’t have to be healed, they don’t have to be better than they are, but when somebody comes to you, who isn’t that way and has finally said; “I wish to realize my truth, right now. Be there to share it with them. 

Kimberly, thats where I see myself.

Of course, Of course. Be there waiting for somebody that is wishing to know that which you are willing to share. You know, you can’t feed a baby meat and if somebody is your boss and is operating their business by deceptive, dishonest or immoral standards according to a polite society, then where is the harmony going to be in those motions with the reality that heals all of the imbalances that are ready to shift in somebodies life that has prepared themselves and said; not anymore “this way” but; the one true way, I’m wanting to know and to embrace. Be the one who welcomes at the gates of truth, those seeking to come home. Welcome home, welcome home, sister.

Kimberly, Ha, ha. I do want to be that person. I am that person in so many ways already.  If I left that situation and followed what I wan’t to do, I would hurt her and yet at the same time, I would be like; 

Where do you work?

I work for ….. At ……. 

My son’s mother is a masseuse also.

Kimberly, I’m not doing massage, I haven’t done massage for almost 2 years.

What do you do?

Kimberly, I work at a clothing store. 

And why did you stop massage?

Kimberly, I got really burned out. I worked at the 4 seasons and it was really, really hard on me. 

The Four Seasons hotels?

Kimberly, Um-hmm, I connect with my clients and the 4 seasons doesn’t care what you are doing. It’s like; you have another session in 4 minutes and you have to take them back to the tranquility lounge and then go back and make up your table and then get your next client. I did that for 2 ½ years and that really burned me out, emotionally and physically.

I would think above everybody, that the management at the Four Seasons would know that if they are providing that type of spa service to clients, that the practitioners themselves have to be glowing and have the time to come back to their centre between clients, thats ridiculous.

Kimberly, No, its a machine. Personally I like to have the freedom to work with somebody as long as necessary; sometimes sits 20 minutes, sometimes its 4 hours. It just depends.

Tell me about it, I’ve got a body that just loves to seize onto something and never let it go.

Kimberly, and when you find those places, it takes a while to move through it, to have the person connect to it, to have them get to the place where they are receptive enough to let it go. Healing work of all kinds circles around that very moment of the “letting go” and I never know what it is going to take to get somebody there. Thats the work I need to do.

Well good, sign me up for a session. 

Kimberly, OK, do we have a massage table? 

I don’t know? Right there.

Kimberly, I like to have a table because it is easier on my body. 

Keep on talking.

Kimberly, I am watching you move and I don’t know what to say. Ha, ha, ha.

Its OK, I know it’s ridicules, I know, 

Kimberly, Ha, ha, I love it! See, I will never feel silly again when I do crazy stuff.

Why would you? 

Kimberly, I am not the only one, thats cool.

There is nothing weirder than this.

Kimberly, There is nothing weirder than that. Oh, I’ve done some pretty weird stuff. One time I had this client on my table and I just felt like she had this energy in her gut and it would not move and at the time, I was practicing sounding and so I did this sounding into her belly and these vibrational frequencies. My voice just naturally made the sound of what was going on in her guts and it was just really an amazing experience. I don’t quite believe it actually happened.

Of course, thats the way it always goes. 

Kimberly, But it did and she used to have all of these belly problems and I felt this mass of black and dark energy. I don’t know how to explain it really, but I sounded onto it and it started to break up and it moved up her throat and she had this choking fit and it got caught in her throat and I was sounding in here throat and she opened up her mouth and this energy came out of her mouth like an entity and I like grounded it into the Earth and it was like this powerful, powerful moment and she has never had stomach problems since and she still tells me about that.

Sophia, Awesome, its, inspiring when you have those break throughs. 

Kimberly, I know, I have had a couple of experiences like that in my life you know and it kind of freaked me out, I’m like; I don’t know what that was and she’s like, trying to ask me what happened and when I try to explain it, if I have to put it into words, I don’t what happened.

Sophia, you helped her to release some energy. 

Kimberly, I don’t feel like I really did anything; I listened and I followed and I just

Sophia, just the sound alone, you are doing something, you moved something for her. There’s no bad energy, its just stuck energy is the same.

Kimberly, so what do you do when you feel obligated to explain yourself to them?

To who?

Kimberly, to the people who are asking what the hell just happened, what did you do or I want to tell my friends or something?

You can say; you just came to a place that you could do the healing that you wanted to have happen and you did it yourself. If they don’t take responsibility for it, then they will keep finding something else that is bothering them. You just hold the space for the healing and expect it. 

With each person that I meet and interact with, how do I behave in that instance in such a way that that person receives the interaction with gratitude, as a blessing and as a change in circumstances that they prefer? The answer is always; well, wake up, be conscious and see what you are interacting with and deal appropriately.

Kimberly, sometimes it is in walking away.

The appropriate action almost always, is to walk away, otherwise you would have 7 billion people stuck to you. You’re so free already, that you have the time to devote to somebody that you just met. 

Kimberly, thats true and I love that.

So, you have done a lot of walking away already. 

Kimberly, Ha, ha, ha.

The actions in the physical world, actually have to be taken. Whether it is a phone call, an email or showing up at work. The question is; what level of consciousness are you going to be embodying when you take those actions? You are going to take those actions regardless, so take them at a level of consciousness that gives you the best advantage for living your life in a manner that you choose for yourself. 

So what would be different about you (speaking to all levels and subtle layers of consciousness and physicality) if you were in the presence of a divine, radiant, God Consciousness? Just experiment with that, right now in this minute with me; feel what happens when we allow something glorious, to be that which you are.

Yes, that is a nice, shift. What would that change in your life if you lived that way?

Kimberly, that would change everything.