Realization or a Delphic Knot?

We live in a world of utter confusion, our own eternal nature we don’t know at all. When we do glimpse it; we immediately forget it again and yet; there is love here, there is wonder here, there is wonder here, but it is packaged in a struggle for survival that is monumental, traumatic and real.

This is life and death here,
struggle and strife
and the pleasures in life,
serve only to distract us,
in realizing our truth.

Our pains however;
are our signposts to enlightenment. The ability to love our pain, to follow it like Hansel and Grettle down the path of enlightenment, crumb by crumb is what brings us to our destination. It is in your pain that you find your greatest blessing; for therein lies all self knowledge, all of the information necessary for you to fully know your truth. That is why enlightenment is a journey of a singular experience of self embracing the absolute. It is not one that can be taught, you can only be orientated and then walk that path yourself.

So here is the orientation;

Meditate on what it is to be able to be quiet, to be able to look and focus with precision on the actual sensation of discomfort that you have in your body. Feel it, look closer, embrace it, feel it more and dive into the unknown and yet knowingly painful realization that is available for you, in each of your embodied traumas. As you embrace them, as you open in your willingness to know what is there; you receive that which you wish to know. So focus on that which is most disturbing to you in yourself, in your body right now. That which is most disabling to you is shouting for your attention; allow it to reveal itself to you fully and completely and absolutely.

This is not a questioning proccedure, although that also has its place; this is just pure experience, pure openness, to feeling, to knowing, to embracing whatever it is. You do it without effort and the trick is to focus completely, in an effortless way; where all of your awareness is used to pierce that which you have protected yourself from knowing. What you don’t know is shouting for you to pay attention. This process doesn’t happen in an instant; it moves and moves and moves. Digs and digs and digs, until you come to a core realization, that life is not as it seems to be.

Don’t be distracted with the pleasures of life, embrace them fully, sure, but don’t let them fool you into thinking that they are your only purpose in your existence here. They can be sublime peace, joy and love in experiencing the wonders in life. At the same time, there can be wisdom, knowledge and understanding gained by embracing the dark side of life; the knowing of that which creates the structure of your existence here.

As you are going through the process, you may want to record each minor realization, because for you to get to your core disturbance, you can go through hundreds of minor ones and unless you write down those things that you have to do to free yourself from the entanglements that your life is in, you will remain entangled and your life will be owned by those entanglements.

The process of becoming spiritually free and physically free, is a step by step one. One that you are the conductor, the engineer and the articect of and the map for that journey, is the pain and discomforts that you experience. So write them down into a todo list as you realize what needs to be done.

One of the first realizations that you will have is to use the best tool that you have available to you to accomplish the job that you have at hand. Don’t use the right tool on the wrong job, each job requires a specific tool, don’t ask somebody to be something that they are not, even though they want to be that themselves and say that they can be. Observe for yourself that which they are an expert in and that which they love to do and if you need that which they are an expert in and that which they love to do; hire them for that only, not for something that they would like to do that they don’t know anything about. If they have not proven to others that they are able to succeed every time in producing what you need from them; don’t use them. Use experts in life; an expert is able to succeed every time in their chosen arena of expertise and delivers that result to others dependably.

So if you have to ask yourself a question in your path of awakening, it is; what clues have you left for yourself to find, that will result in your awakening into your self realization of your eternal nature?

Our realized potential

• Jackson You will never be other than what you are in each moment... And that's perfectly fine as unfolds it's organic potentials however they do. Its all perfect whichever way we turn... Relax...

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   What is is that much is apparent, what will be in another can be predicted with precision by almost any one no matter how dense, who takes a moment to observe the other. My question for you is; should you be content with a second rate existence, a limited awareness, or a diminished ability, if the fully realized perfection of consciousness is available to you?
  
  It seems to me that you are suggesting that the huddled masses of men, completely unaware of their potentials to be magnificent beings of wonder, are better served by saying; "what we are is great, even though we hate our brothers and serve only our vices."
  
  I suggest that yes we are perfectly what we are, however what we are in this moment is miraculously changeable, moment by moment, limited only by our willingness to change. We will change continuously anyway, why not change continuously for the better?
  
  For better or worse, our course is charted by our willingness or not to receive the world that we wish for. A predictable reality for me? No thank you, my freedom as I grant others theirs? Yes please.
  
  The perfection of the present, while it is certainally that, is not the perfection of our realized potential and it does not diminish us to streach for the potential in the realization of our oneness.

Reach for the Stars

• Jackson, We are only Consciousness... appearing as everything. You won't learn this in a book...

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  The trick of the Mystic is for the consciousness of everything to be revealed in you. You will read this on Face-book and won't learn it from a master, but a master you will be, when eternity i do see, in you.

Actually you and I also, are only consciousness, yes. Appearing as everything? No, appearing as some passing thing, a temporary mirage in the sea of infinity. Yes.

Nice to be happy with oneself in our roles here, I suppose. However, the vision for infinitely more possibilities is what moves the cosmos to create and continually increase the whole of our shared consciousness.

How can there be more possibilities for the whole of consciousness and for our limited selves, than for the infinite whole, to be clearly reflected within the expression and beingness of each one of us?

Reach for the stars my friend, look for the never ending story of you, to be told through you, in the observation of your life here by self or others. Then my brother, our mothers, fathers, sons and daughters will have their infinite freedom freely, at their choice, instead of the lives of quiet desperation that we have led till now.

Some how to me, it seems that we, have an obligation to self and others, to be what can be here; the possible you and the infinite me here, the "we" of eternity, temporally expressed here as a wonder to ourselves.

Can the perfect you improve

while the perfection of life can be observed in the whole and in the part. That does not make life here ideal. The ideal life is where all are consciousness enough to love each other always, not through effort but because they can not be otherwise. So be wise and know that together we sow, the seeds of our divinity or our insanity.

To bless life as it is, is necessary for life to release its grip on it being on the right side. Be open to questioning yourself if in fact that the perfection of what you are, is all that you can be. Can the perfect you improve and cause me to move, in a reflective, serene and delightful harmony?

Stillness is the key.

It is what it is and what it is doesn't matter, if it doesn't stand up to divine scrutiny.

If divine scrutiny is what it takes to save the world or at least yourself, then why would you try to change yourself from a level of consciousness that is less than transcendent?

If you can't look at yourself with unconditional love then it's not time for self action; it's time for self reflection until your reflection is the sun of god .

There is no need to communicate about truth when it is not your experience of yourself, instead commune with that which moves not, yet causes all that is to move.

Love can be experienced even in your trauma as long as you experience your trauma without resisting or reacting to it.

There is nothing to be done if the son is to shine. Do nothing until you shine forth, then do nothing some more.

The manifestation that you are is a direct reflection of the beingness that you have assumed yourself to be, so to change the man that you are here, you must look at the being that you have become, until it transmutes in your unwavering gaze.

So to be clear; don't change self, as self will change when “being” transcends and being will transcend when you continuously observe that self shifts, changes, transmutes and then transcends when you look at it. 

You see now that “self” is not eternal, not true and not you. “You” are your false self; your false self is you. 

You realize the truth of self by observing you until you have transcended duality. 

All of your trauma is a result of the assumption of a false identity and that will leave you when you stop identifying with and as yourself all that you have been in this life. So ruthlessly, with unconditional love; embrace yourself with your knowing that you are not you.

There is a beingness that you are, that is directly responsible for the manifestation of your life as it is. To change your life, you look at the being that you are without trying to change it, it will change as you no longer buy into to it being your truth by stopping all action as that being. 

The mask will fade when the actor refuses to wear it any more. Become the director of your life by not acting the roles life has given you. Your roles on life are all fine, just stop acting in them and be eternally present instead.

Feel the manifestation that you are clearly, then connect with the personality that causes it, then as you watch the being disappear; the manifestation will change to match.

Stillness is the key, stillness is the answer, stillness in consciousness observation is the way of salvation for you.

 Mindless I may be,
But, between you and me,
The love that I am,
Lies beyond the body I see.

Me and my body,
Are separate you see,
The love that I am,
Lies in eternity.

Timeless though I am,
In time I can’t be,
The free loving me,
That the angels do see.

To be free here and now,
Two minds you allow,
The one you are here,
And the one you are know where.

To know where each leaf falls,
Means you’ve entered heavens halls,
Knowing what is and what’s not,
Undo’s your earthy knots.

Look at yourself here from there,
And your enlightenment you will bear,
With the grace that transcends,
The minds here of men.

Mind no one.

I hesitate to say anything, because when I feel compelled to speak, it usually means that I have lost my self knowing. On the other hand; we do speak and we might as well throw a few words together in a manner that communicates on an interesting subject with understanding. I propose that even though each of us can experience universal consciousness where there is no self left, I do not consider that to mean that there is no self to speak and experience. I do know though that from a cosmic consciousness view of my embodied self, that there is nothing in myself that is true. To me it is apparent that there is a me that's universally true, I'm just not embodying that and the idea of bringing all that I am into my embodiment here brings up the question of what do I save of this being that I have been here and God bless me, I can’t find anything worth saving and maintaining if my transcendent truth is embodied. So what’s a guy to do?

Take off the shackles that bind you,

Listen to us and

We'll remind you,

That to mind yourself is to bind you. so,

Mind no one 

and unbound you will be,

If you do it in bliss 

and serenity.

My kind to the darkness,

Your kind to the light,

In kindness,

You will know your might,

And so, we regain our sight and light.

Your light is known, 

with your sight,

not your might. 

So look without moving,

See without owning,

Observe without being,

And you,

Will be freeing,

Your mind from the muck.

I don't give a f... for rightness,

In the eyes of those who's blindness,

Forever blocks their peace and knowing,

Of the wisdom that we're showing.

Now I'm off to bed you know,

Without owning my little show,

And tells, that ring with the truth,

Above, below, within and without;

Guile and being aloof. 

Mmm smile.

Knowing our way to yes.

What opportunity do we have here to truly benefit ourselves? What would it take for us to activate our consciousness at a level that would make the difficult things in our lives easy for us to do? Where is that activation available or where is that level of consciousness able to be embraced by ourselves so that we own that as ourselves? Lets just wait for that answer to come to us. There is so much that your body wants to communicate and when your moving quickly, its activating lots of different areas of your consciousness and so your not able to actually be in communication with much of it. So it you ask a question at a time that you are being inundated with input otherwise, then if the answer is coming in a subtle way it sometimes finds it impossible to move through whatever else that is going on that you haven't allowed to be resolved in your life yet. So the question is: where is ease, joy and abundance available to us? Can we use our body as a tuning fork? I am going to quit looking and just let my body answer that question, because my body already knows where ease is. 

The first answer that we have to look for is: is it even possible to significantly change who we are here?

The only way that we can answer that with any success is to know that answer in this moment. Not intellectually, but as our experience. Is it possible for me to be free here? 

An incredible No! A continuous no. It’s like a shouted No, no, no! No, no, ahh, so dive into that no. The fact that your not improving, is that there is a big fat no, continuously, rejecting all improvement for yourself. 

No, no, hmm, notice how your body instantly frees yourself when you know that no is that answer to the question of your own improvement. No, you’re not allowed. No, it is not possible, no, its not what you choose, no, no, no, no and the more that you know that your answer to your self improvement is no, the closer you get to a yes.

Jeff: ha, ha, ha.

No, no, no, no, knowing your truth to be a negative result, well, at least you know where you are starting from! OK, thats where we are starting from. No to self having what self desires. No to my personal desires being realized. No, no, no, no, no, no, no, know that simply allowing your knowing will give you the result that you wish, but in order for you to know, you have to know that which you don’t want to know: you have to know that the solution to your pain, unconsciousness, your trauma and your limitations here is in that insufferable, physical and emotional pain that is held in your body. 

Oh, no, not that, not the hard way to divinity! Why does it have to be so hard? Why can’t you just leave the horribleness of that which you are embodied as, behind you on your way up to stairway to heaven? 

Because you are here as that. You can’t leave that behind you, until you are done here. So, what is the process of the physical body ascending the stairway to heaven? Thats really your question. Does anybody know here? God hope so, god willingly, I hope so, but I’m not going to go look for them and alter my life in such a degree that I am handling my normal life even less effectively than I am now. Iv’e got to get better at handling my mortal life here. If I don’t get better, I am just going to be stressed all of the time because I’m not doing the things that I really want to do: I am not enjoying my children growing up, I’m not being successful in my business, I’m not providing the financial means for my future so that there is no question that I am going to be able to take care of the unexpected things that happen in life.

Know all of this pain and discomfort in your body, all of your trials and tribulations, are a big fat NO, to your being here wondrously. No, no, no, your body is shouting at you No! No, no, thats not out experience here. No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no. It’s really a tremendous realization that the more we say no and realize that thats our truth: the freer we get in the body. No, no, no and the more that the pain leaves. No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, thats not the way for you, thats not the way for you, thats not the way for you. Oh, come on: I like my way. Thats not the way for you!

Your way, is not the way for you. If it were: you would be here divinely and your not, your not. So your way is not working, no to your way of life continuing from here on if improvement is what you want. No, no, no, no, no to any of those things that don;t directly benefit you the way that you want. No to those things that do not deliver the life that you want to live here. No, no, just stop it, stop it, stop it, stop it, no, no, no to your normal operating mode in your life: it’s not working for you, it’s not working, it’s not working, no, no, no, no, no, no. 

You know what? You don’t have to take it personally, you don’t have to own it, all you have to do is say No to what doesn’t work in delivering the purpose that you desire. Can’t you see that thats a positive thing for you to do to say no to that which does not serve you? No to that which does not deliver to you what you have chosen to receive? Hmm?

Jeff: um-hmm, Cal was saying: this, not this.

No, no, no, no, no, no, is there anyone in life that will say yes for you? No, no, no, no. Well, get some new friends then. No, no, no, no, no. Then get some new business deals then. No, no, ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh, no, no: THE CORE NO: the no that defines my existence here: no to that which is wished for, no to that which is wished for for self. No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, Mmnn… Ahh, the realization that your entire experience of life has virtually been one continuous no, oh my God, ahh, how do you bear that? Ahh, ahh, life is one big no to you. Wouldn’t it be ironic if it you were the one who realized his experience of life as being A UNIVERSAL YES for you? From no, to yes, wouldn’t that be funny? Wouldn’t that be cute? Wouldn’t that be ironic? Wouldn’t that be ironic Jeff, if the most unlikely to be that which you are going to be, was you and that you were that triumphantly realized as he who knows and is wise, honored and respected and lionized by all who know you? Hmm, Hmm, Hmm, wouldn’t that be an odd experience to have? Wouldn’t that be an odd experience to have? Wouldn’t that be an odd experience to have the respect of the world as being an honest, honorable, inspirational and wonderfully loving man?

The one who truly makes everyones day when the come in touch with you in any way? Wouldn’t that be ironic, if that were a possibility for you and you embraced it? Wouldn’t that be a shocker? Wouldn’t that just be odd? Wouldn’t that be odd? Wouldn’t that be odd? Hmm, Hmm, Hmm, Mmm, Mmm, Mmm, Mmm. Wouldn’t it be odd if you were transcendently wise? Mmm, I mean: just where you always did and said that which just delighted, inspired and awakened to at least a profound laughter, those who you interact with. Oh wow, wow oh, wow, Ouch, oh is there a lot of resistance to that being my reality. Wow, wow, boy is there… Boy, how is it possible to surmount the amount of resistance to us being universally loved? Boy there is sure a lot that we’re connected with Jeff that doesn’t want us to be universally loved. Wow, hmm, hmm, hmm, hmm.

How is it possible to move through our life from this moment on in such a way that we behave ourselves in a manner that we are worthy of universal love? Mmm, how is it possibly for us to behave tomorrow in a manner that is universally loving and thus worthy of universal love in return? Hmm, Mmm.

Jeff: It’s almost like taking a vacation to a place where we can believe in those good things about ourselves and then bring that back here and live it, but it is like the resistance here is really made here, built here and created here, but it is not who I am.

No, not at all.

Jeff: and the universe doesn’t support it. 

Yes, it does.

Jeff: the universe always say yes.

Yes, it does.

Jeff: and so if you truly desire in your heart to be something, the universe always says yes, it never says no.

I don’t know, it doesn’t look like that is the way that life is demonstrated here for people.

Jeff: Well sure, what you believe in though it says yes and if you believe in No it says No. 

I don’t know, I don’t know, lets see. Lets see, what does it take to change your mind about your life? I don’t know that I have ever seen anyone do it other than George Forman. Have you ever seen anyone else change like George Forman?

Jeff: tell me about George Forman. 

George Forman was the most mean, hateful, person that you might ever come across, worse than Mike Tyson. George was just like Mike and now George is one of the happiest, most loving, delightful people on earth and so I have got one example, I don’t know anyone else who has shifted like that. But dog gone it, George did, George did good man and he has maintained it ever since and so God bless us to be bless like George man, with that which makes a qualitative shift in our experience of our own reality here. One that blesses and inspires everyone else’s. That guy cannot have a bad thought for somebody. 

So, whenever you find those places within your body and you go: oh thats painful, oh thats horrible, oh thats traumatic, oh thats unconscious, how do I do it? Just feel what it is saying to you: Its just giving you a Big Fat No, so just dive in there and chant with it. No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no.

Jeff: thats been on my mind for the last several days now, I knew that you would bring this up. The opposite is always with the thing that your confronting and so when you are saying no, yes is its constant companion.

Of course, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, well done.

Jeff: you dive into the no and keep on chanting no and your uncovering yes like you digging up the truth, digging up the treasure.

No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, know your way to yes and that is no, no.

Jeff: ha, ha, its, true, so true.

No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, mains there a lot for me to say no too. No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no. Feel it in your own body.

Jeff, ha, ha, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no.

 No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no.

Jeff, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no.

No your way to yes. That is the secret of the secret that is still secret. 

Jeff, ha, ha.

Know your way to yes. No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no.

Jeff: it’s a plain as the nose on your face. 

Yea, a lot of the no’s have to end up right there. No, no, no, now you can just relax and feel the constant no now that has taken up residence in your body. Just relax. 

To all of those things that you know that you can’t do? Agree with your self: no, no, no, can’t do it, don’t want to do it. Isn’t that a relief? Your not bullshitting yourself any more: I’m not going to do that, nope, nope, nope, can’t and wont. No, no, no, no, no.

Jeff: agree with thine adversary while thou are in the way, lest he esteem you to be his enemy.

Yes a scriptural quote. 

Jeff: within the frequency of no most of our lives. We were told no as a child most of the time. 

You have been told no, by most everything that you have ever experienced. 

Jeff: which is false to the nature of heaven.

Who knows? Who knows, who knows what it is.

Jeff: you wouldn’t have freedom if the universe constantly told you no.

Why would the universe constantly tell you no, maybe that is the question to ask?

Jeff: I am just saying the universe has to say yes.

I don’t think that it does, cause it just said no over and over again.

Jeff: that was out own creation. 

Well, the universe agreed with it, so it said yes to your creation of no, yes to agreeing that life is a no for us. So it always says yes, but what that means is the universe does nothing for us then, except agree with us So, do we need to focus on the universe as a solution if the universe is always going to agree with us? Do we have to figure out how to get the universe to bless us when the universe will always do that which we agree should be done to us? 

Jeff, we should focus on ourselves.

OK, lets do that then, because that’s the only logical thing. Why say no in such an emphatic manner that all the whole universe agrees with us? 

Jeff: because we are brainwashed with it. 

I don’t know if we were of not.

Jeff: of course we were. 

Well, lets just look and see what releases it instead of intellectualizing about it, lets find where the level of knowing is such that the truth of it handles itself, how about that?

Jeff: when you were chanting no, I became more and more uncomfortable with that and I could feel my spirit crying out for yes, in fact every no that you would say, I turned it into yes.

You should have chanted yes when you felt compelled to. 

Jeff, I should have.

But, you couldn’t say yes to yes, you were saying yes to no.

Jeff: every time I was saying no, I was really saying yes, because the spirit of me was saying my true nature is yes and the word yes, hearing the word yes is more agreeable to my spirit than anything else.

So if the universe gives us a yes, where do we choose our no?

Jeff: from our conditioning. 

I don’t know.

Jeff: or from doubt.

I don’t know. Thats certainly where we experience it, but is that where we choose it?  

Jeff: well yes.

Where is the control point of what creates out reality? Because were certainly not able to direct our reality here exactly the way that we want to receive it. Do you?

Jeff: I think you said it correctly when you said let the frequency of no resonate in side of you, now conversely, let the frequency of yes resonate within yourself. The vibration of yes, thats where the freedom is going to happen to change this mighty concept of know that is so well established.

But, we’ve always got a yes from the outside, so we have to figure out where the no is coming from on the inside. 

Jeff: you said earlier that it comes from everything that we have experienced in this life.

No, I am saying that everything that we have experienced in life has agreed with our no. That is the concise description of what has been communicated. Life is in agreement, with our no for ourselves.

Jeff: life is in agreement, with anything that we wish for ourselves.

Not necessarily, because I wish for things much better than what I experience, so where is the choice point? Where is the controlling choice point that creates the reality? 

Jeff: our belief, our belief.

No its not.

Jeff: your mind can think something and your heart can think differently.

So is the choice point in your heart?

Jeff: there is a spot in our will, when the will is weak…

Lets just look for it and see what comes up, lets just assume that we are going to know what the truth is of what we want to know here and the truth of what we want to know here is: where is the No that is destroying and disabling our lives? Where is that no? 

Jeff: it just has the advantage of being more established that the word yes. We need more vibration of yes, thats what I am feeling

Lets just look at it, where is the no? Where is it? Where is it? Because if you fully embrace it, you can make it a yes, so where is it? Where can you embrace that no with your knowing that yes is now what you want?

Jeff: well for anybody with any kind of hope, like as a little child when you want something and you are told no, you suffer a disappointment and that impacts on you psyche and if you are told yes then the jubilant feeling of having that small victory and having what you want can be euphoric and so you just have to paint it that way that you want.

I am just trying to figure out how things actually work and exist, not to find a way to hope that I can work through them. Because if I know simply “what is” then it will be obvious and instantaneous.

Jeff: I have been thinking lately that the mind has been schooled on earth, but the heart is schooled in heaven. The heart is more divine and the mind is more base, the conditioning part, the false personality, the ego, the things of humanity. 

I understand that you are talking about it, where are you feeling it in your body? Talk about your experience of it in the body in this moment, describe that.

Jeff: it feels like a lost child, like theres confusion, theres.

Well done, in addressing it directly instead of conceptually. 

Jeff: you feel lost because Ever time that you have been told no, there has been a..

You went back to concepts, describe what your feeling right now.

Jeff: a no feels…

What are you feeling right now in this moment? 

Jeff: if I think of the word no, I feel a lot of things. I feel lonely, I feel empty, I feel disconnected.

But what are you feeling in this moment?

Jeff: I so feel like I want to let my concept of no pass away.

Mmm, nicely said, feel it pass away. 

Jeff: yes.

Feel it pass away, don’t talk about it, feel it pass away.

Jeff: thats so nice, I just had a visualization of wearing a scarf and untying it and the scarf blowing away in the wind.

I’ve got you, but there is a lot of it here, feel it pass away, all of it.

Jeff: now my shirt goes, my pants, all of my clothing, I am just standing there. Its just me and I deserve a yes. All the covering is gone and the personna…

Your talking about it again, just feel, feel, feel it, just feel it. Feel the way of freedom being opened from within. Don’t feel the need to talk about the concept of how that might happen for you. Just feel it occur in this moment: the opening of the way that is within you to experiencing the perfection of self in this moment. Allow that opening to continuously expand within you. Jeff, I know thats its not fair, but I will know that you’ve chosen yes, when I see a physical transformation for you and you can look for the same for me. What is the possibility for instantaneous physical transformation by the way?

Jeff: lypo suction.

No, instantaneous is right now. Yes that, give into that, give into that right now. instantaneous transformation, transmutation, perfection of the body. Don’t hold onto anything that is in resistance to that. Anything that feels solid about that: just let it go and allow yourself to keep moving beyond that. Beyond anything that is solid and significant about reality here, just move beyond all of that. 

In short: embrace that density of that no, until it becomes a yes. Know that commands are manifestations here. Where is the no that commands our beingness to be as it is and not progress to that which it could be. Where is the no within us that defines our reality? No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, mine fees right in my throat. No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, hmm, hmm, Mmm. What turns that no into a yes? A yes that the entire universe will agree with? A yes to the very best that this universe has to offer being that which you are granted. Where is “that” yes realized for you? The no of suppression, becoming the yes of eternal enlightenment? 

Dad, I felt the no right where you said, in my throat and the yes is right up there about my third eye.

Allow your throat to know that which your third eye knows. Your third eye knows that you are ultimately free no matter what this realities experience is for you and so when you experience yourself as that, then this reality itself becomes easy for you, becomes a yes for you. 

Heaven on Earth is already here.

With Mom and Dad 

You can’t build upon a foundation of lies and end up with the truth, you can only destroy the foundation of lies by letting go of everything that you hold to. 

If in any moment you are less than you know that you can be, then you have to feel yourself and ask: what am I? What do I identify myself to be? What is the feeling of me that I resonate with? What is that? “Oh, it’s this” and what qualities does “this” have? And what characteristics  does this have? And what level of consciousness does this presence of me exist at? When you look clearly at this, then you can see what that is: this is a constructed mental image of a self that is a human being, operating according to a western philosophical, protestant, mormon group think consciousness and that’s what it is and if you are comfortable with the life that this creates for you, then God bless you.

If you’re uncomfortable with it, then let it go.

Dad: thats very confusing. 

Exactly, exactly, exactly, exactly, its confusing, its a complete confusion in every way and there is no coming out of that confusion by operating as that consciousness trying to figure it out! 

Dad: nope.

All you have to know is just one thing: all you have to hold onto one truth, “I am confused.” I am confused, I don’t get it, I don’t understand, this makes no sense to me, because I know from the experiences of my life that there is so much more to me than this.

Dad: right.

There is nobody that you know that can demonstrate to you that the path that they are on is even working for them, even though it is to some degree. There’s no example here  that is worthy of your emulation, there is no one here worthy of being your instructor. Believe me there’s not. So, forget all the rules, the rules are only… You’ve heard of the lesser law and the higher law right? There is the law of Moses that was then fulfilled in Christ, right? The law of harshness replaced by the law of life.

Well, everybody does the best that they can to figure out life and most people make the mistake of going beyond a general orientation with others. They don’t even take their instructions from those who are acknowledged as being the most expert on each subject in the world. Instead of going to the expert who is premier in the opinions of their fellows that know their subject better than anyone else, instead of going to that consciousness to find out what ever you wish to know about any particular subject, you go and listen to somebody else’s opinion about that subject or about the experts opinion on the subject. 

So, as nice as tai chi is and as effective as it is and irregardless of the benefit that you have already gotten from it and admitably there is a benefit from it, it was a step up for you.

Mom: it’s chi gong. 

Its all the same: it’s all practice, its not actuality. It’s preparation for life and action, not acting in life, not actuality. It’s preparation, it’s the lower law. Preparation is the law of orientation and when you take the process of orientation too far: then you stop your progress, because you keep believing that you need more than to be pointed in the right direction on a particular subject and when the subject is consciousness, transformation and if you are shooting for the height of that, you have to look around and say: who am I receiving information from on this subject? You don’t ask for their credentials, you look them in the eye and you say: who do you think you are? Who are you here? What is your purpose here in your communication to me? What is it that that you can deliver to me that will enhance my life? What is it that you can impart to me that will release my confusions about reality and open me into the experience of unlimited creativity, of abundance of love, of a supreme consciousness?

What ever it is that you are interested in, look and see if the person you are talking to you has it and if they don’t have it for themselves already, if they are not a master of that, don’t look to them for anything other than a basic orientation, because all you will get beyond that from them is further confusion in following a rote, intellectual, conceptual theory, that is useless other than to start you on a path with a lie.

Mom: I started on the path. 

Now I have not been trained in Chi Gong, but I am familiar with it and it has something to do with the movement of energy through the body. Does it make sense that a mind in a state of confusion should be put in charge of the movement of energy with the purpose of becoming serenely enlightened? (David is moving in Chi Gong like movements of allowing the body to move with the divine flow) Mom, your not supposed to be following my movements, you are to question yourself and then allow the movement automatically: in what direction will the body experience it’s freedom and the body answers that question as to goes through different levels. Right now it is going, ahh, right here, and now over here. In my body, I have now contacted that which limits it and as I feel it and choose to merge with it, choose to embrace it, choose to know it, into a ahh, ahh, ahh, understanding of what that limitation was. All it was, was a confusion held in the body.

Mom: where did you learn about Chi Gong? And why don’t you like it?

All I needed to know about Chi Gong was to watch a class doing it in the park. All I needed to know, was to see what level of consciousness they were operating from and to see if thats what I wanted to aspire to. I see the benefit of it, I get it, but, what I get is: everything, because I hold onto the importance of nothing, that anyone has ever said to me, because when I put someone else communication to me as superior to my own experience, then what possibilities does that open to me, or close to me? Can I experience myself as what Jesus said: be ye one with me even as I am one with God? If I am taking someone else’s instructions of how to do that, that isn’t that themselves, thats insanity. 

Who do you take instructions from? One who knows, or one who doesn’t? One who pretends to know or one who needs to know? Is there anyone here who is anything other than the pretense of knowing or the need of knowing? Really? Who? Who? There isn’t a book in your library that was written by somebody that was enlightened, not one. There is not a single reason to open up one of those books, except to say: if I want to be at a level of confusion that is looking for an answer and want to have something told me: it just isn’t the right venue for enlightenment. I’m Sorry, “to the rescue” it doesn’t work. I mean it does, it does work, but who does it work for and what is the result of what is achieved through that?

What is achieved through that is, a well ordered society.

Dad: right.

A well ordered existence, a golden rule of good behavior towards each other and thats admirable, that is admirable.

Mom: he talks about your long forgotten love, kindness, forgiveness, now those are good attributes.

Does he know why you forgive someone else? Do you know why you forgive someone else? 

Mom: Um Hmm, because Jesus said that you are supposed to forgive your enemies. 

And, if you do, what happens to you? 

Mom: you feel a lot better.

Yes, you do. Why?

Mom: because you want other people to forgive your mistakes.

No, you feel better, because if you believe that somebody else has unjustly trespassed against you and you are unable to forget about it, then you have bought into a trap, where your consciousness has been entrapped by a circumstance in your life where you have so identified with your circumstances that you are unable to move beyond a passing moment in time that should have existed for you in that moment only. 

Mom: forgive and forget.

And now that moment… You don;t have to forget, but if you don’t let that moment go into the past, if you carry that with you into the present, then you’re not present, you’re not conscious and you’re not free and if you forgive someone else, then you let the past go into the past, so that you can look around yourself in this moment and say where am I? Why am I here and what am I doing here? Is there a purpose for my presence here in this moment? Is there? Is there? What is it? What is it? Why am I here right now? Why am I talking to you? Why am I talking to you? No I can’t do that consciously if I am holding onto the past about anything and thats why those old people in church are so unaware: they are so far in the past that they don’t know that in the present they are blocking the doorway and stopping everyone from moving through. There not even aware of their current circumstances because they have not let the past go. There not even here more than 1% they can barely get to church.

Dad: we better watch out, we’re the oldest couple in church.

Yes, but guess what? Your conscious.

Dad: thats right.

And, its nice and your actually willing to be more conscious and thats why we are having this conversation. Thats the only reason that we are having this conversation is because your saying: what else is possible?

Dad: I know what else is possible, it’s getting me there.

Mom: David says, just let it happen.

Here’s exactly what it is for you Dad: “I know whats possible, it’s just getting there, I can’t get there.”

Dad: thats the problem.

No, heres the problem: you believe that thats true and that thats you. You believe that you can’t get there and that your not there. You are already there, you have always been there and you will never not be there. Your focused on a series of those events from your past, those belief systems that were taught to you by your family, your school, your friends, your government, every experience in your life that has been at best, a very localized truth. Something that is close enough to being an accurate description of events, that you accepted it as being the absolute truth of you, of your reality, of other, of groups, of the state of the world, what ever it was, you accepted some body else’s description about an aspect of life as an unchanging truth and truth in this world is temporal, temp-or-ary. Truth here changes from moment to moment, its not static, its a flow. Whats true in this moment, was not true 10 seconds ago and if you cant move with the realization of truth from moment to moment, then you are stuck: “I can’t get there”, I don’t know how,” OK, so thats where you are, we have described the state: “I can’t get there” feel it, own that, know yourself as that, you’ve bought that as your Identity. You have bought “I can’t get there” as your identity. OK, now love it. Love it. You have manifest the perfect “I can’t get there” expression of yourself. 

Dad: what I see it as is the doubt that keeps creeping in. 

Good, good, well done, Clap, good for you.

Dad: now I need…

No you don’t, you did it perfectly! You perfectly created the doubt, you perfectly created “I can’t get there”

Dad: thats it exactly.

OK, its a completed state. You created the doubt, you created the identity of “I’m not there” and you created the identity of I can’t get there.” let’s just acknowledge it, quit feeling bad about it, because thats what keeps you there! You’re feeling bad about “I can’t get there” and “I’m not that” quit feeling bad about it. Love the fact that you can’t get there, love the fact that your confused, love the fact that you are limited and disabled in every way that you actually are. Just feel it and go: Mmm, yah, doubt, Mmm, oh yes, I can’t get there and this is what it feels like: Mmm, yum, yah, yah, Mmm. Dog gone it! Now its going away, because I just woke up, because I just loved the fact that “ I can’t get there” that it gave it a completed state and an amen to that creation. What happens when you give an amen to a creation? What happens when the circle of life is complete? What happens at the end? A new beginning! A new possibility for new expression and when is and end complete? When you go: ohh yes, this is it, I love this and you appreciate it with true celebration. Celebrate that limitation, embrace it with the love of God and feel it with a cherishing of the experience, regardless of how traumatic it is. Ha, Ha, Cherish the traumas you have and go: ohhhhhhhh…. Ahhhhhhh. Ahead. Ack, ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh, awe, awe, ha, ha, ha, now read that in a book, get somebody to teach you that, because what you saw, is a master that I have never seen exhibited by anyone else. I am not saying that egoicly, but, you never ever would have believed that I would be capable of doing that.

Dad: no.

And yet what happened? I actually gave you a demonstration of what it really takes to move through the veil of forgetfulness and to reclaim your remembrance of what you have always been and nobody knows how to do this here, and you know why? Because every master, every teacher, reads some words that inspire them and then they say: I have found the truth and it is the book of “______ place your own favorite here.” Ya ay and I have found the product that is going to cure everything. I have found… Come on, come on, the premise is “ye are Gods and he who hears the word do God are Gods” it says that in your scriptures and so if that is true, if you accept that as true, you’re already that. “How could that possibly be given my circumstances?”  “I can’t get there” “I’m not that” I cant get there, I’m not that, but it’s true, it’s me!

How could that be? I’ve had these wonderful experiences and I can’t maintain them, I can’t go there. Well, here is how it can be true, how is it possible for divinity, for God hood to be true for you? How is it possible? Given your circumstances where there is nothing divine about them at all? How is it possible for unmanifest divinity to realize itself as the divine? How is that possible? Well, if the truth is that you are divine and the manifestation is that you are not, how does one realize his truth? Because it is only in the unrealized nature of your truth that your trap is found, right? 

Dad: right.

OK, so you don’t have to get anywhere except for recognizing what truth is, by your own experience, not by somebody else’s word but by saying: OK, I get it, I can hold onto that stable datum. I can say: OK if in fact godhood, divine consciousness, a heavenly realm, a heavenly home is my true nature, then I don’t have to become that, it’s already me, it’s eternal, so if my true nature is eternally divine, then I would like to experience myself as that here. How is that done? Well it has to be possible if it is the truth doesn’t it?

Dad: right.

OK, so if it is the truth, how is it possible to experience your own divine nature? You have to realize that who you have been accepted by yourself as being true, everything that is not the manifestation of the divine in this moment is a lie, including your own sense of self. Including your own knowing of every truth and every lie that you have ever believe to be true here. How does one let go of that? You choose to say: I don’t need to be reverent about anything here, I don’t, not to my self. In my interactions with other people? Absolutely, absolutely, you have to honor where people are, its not your job to tell them. The only reason that we are having this conversation is because you are open to it. Otherwise I only do this work on myself and my friends that have asked me too. Do you get that part?

Dad: I understand that. 

So, this reality has to be respected and honored for being exactly what it is, despite the fact that there is no part of it whatsoever that is constructed of eternal truth, that communicates eternal truth, that gives anything other than a vague concept of what that might be. Because to have permanence here, the appearance of permanence, it has to be a lie. This has to be held in its past, this has to not be allowed to move forward by being “judged” to be “this” and then it can’t change and it will continue to be that. When you twist the truth into an unwindable structure, then that structure will maintain, until it realizes its confusion by saying: truth, truth, truth, truth beyond the world is what I choose to know.

When all that you know is your worldly experience, and your worldly experience is: “I can’t get there, I can’t be that, then lets experiment with this and see if we can find an answer for you. Where can you be comfortable? Try something like this: you’ve been trying to get your body to be different than the way that it is with your thoughts and your actions, try controlling your body by saying: thank God that you are doing such a good job, despite my every effort to control you, my unconsciousness in listening to you, my irreverence in abusing  you with things that I know are not good for you and then with my blind unconsciousness in putting things into you that I have been told are good for you, but I don’t know for sure, because I don’t listen to you at all and so thank you body for being such a good sport. I’m glad that I am not in your shoes and having you abuse me like I have been abusing you. Wow, well done, well done, its truly miraculous that you have been able to do what you have done despite my efforts to control you, my judgements of you, my lack of proper care and maintenance. I know that you would have done that by yourself if I just would have stopped trying to dictate to you what life is. 

I’m sorry, at this point, I grant you your own right of self determination like all consciousness has here, the right to determine how to perfect itself: I allow my body its pathway of perfection, I allow my body it’s perfect expression here, I allow my body to be worthy of the holy, whole, holding of the truth of eternity. If my body wishes to aspire to that, I’m not standing in the way. So, feel, feel the body, there is nothing in the body that is a barrier to divine consciousness, that you have not placed there, that you have not caused to be there. There is nothing, nothing, that has been caused by a food, chemical, by another person, be any aspect of this reality that did not originate from your own choice that that would be appropriate for you.

So, what is appropriate for you now for your experience? Because the body is your personal starship to experience earth in and what is the possibility for it here? What are the possibilities for your body here in this current circumstance? Not in the future, not in the past, but right now? What transformational transfiguration, what miraculous shifts and changes are possible for this body? Ahh, and relax, relax, relax and relax into not being a barrier to that, relax. Relax and know that the divine truth is known by not seeking for it, not looking for it, but allowing for it and noticing it. Stop saying that it’s not here, stop saying that it’s not you and just look! 

Just look and notice that the divine permeates everything, always has and always will and that the only thing that is lacking is your own recognition of that and as soon as you notice that: heaven on earth is already here. Heaven on earth is already here, it already happened, it already is and its always been here, its never not been here and yet: how great of an allowance can you have for that to be true for you? Allow your body to find its way in freedom from your inputs to it. Allow your body consciousness to free itself from your own self condemnation, caused by giving significance to anything, anything. 

Now, yes, you do have to do things in life. Yes you do have to communicate to people in the manner that they are used to you communicating to them and so go into your normal operation mode for that in an efficient and enlightened a way that you can. But when you are by yourself, looking to embody your truth: throw the baby out with the bath water man, don’t hold onto anything, because there is nothing in your closet except for you and God and there is one person to be in charge in that moment and that’s not you. 

All you can do is say: Gods will be done to me, right now, right now Gods will be done. What ever god wants: Gods will be done. 

What ever Gods wants for me? God bless me that I don’t stand in the way of it. 

God bless me that I may freely welcome Gods presence in my body. 

God bless me with that ability, please God. 

God grant me the freedom to welcome the freedom that you offer me. 

Grant me the willingness to receive the blessings that are available to me. 

Grant me the willingness to receive the gifts of God. 

Grant me the willingness to be what you would have me be here God. 

Grant me the willingness to be free. Grant me the willingness to not stop my progress here in this moment. 

Grant me the ability to say yes to God.

God bless me with the ability to say yes to you please, because I don’t know how. The words can’t come out of my mouth, so please, please, help me realize how to say yes to the divine, because, 

I don’t know how, 

I don’t know how. 

I don’t know how to say yes to the divine. 

How do I do it? 

How do it? 

How do I trust that surrendering to the divine will be good for me? 

How do I do that?

How do I experience that?

How do I find it within myself, the impossible dream of knowing my own nature? 

Ahh, ahh, ahh, nice choice Dad, oh yes, once choice Dad. Thank you, oh that makes it nicer for me, when you chose that for you. Yes, nice, nice, well done, thats all it takes, thats all it takes: the willingness to be responsible here for yourself and how can you be responsible here for yourself unless you know what the possibilities are here for yourself, the infinite possibilities? Open to those, open to knowing what they are: what are the infinite possibilities for me here? What are the infinite possibilities for me here and what would be good for this reality for me to embrace of those possibilities and how can I be a blessing to this reality by embracing what is ultimately true about myself beyond time and space? How can I serve all creation here in the best possible way? How can this reality shift for its own betterment by my own willingness to have myself change in the best possible way for everyone and every thing here? 

Forgive and forget. Let it go. If you saw the entire picture: you would have loved the experience of it. Love the experience of your past now, it was wonderful, it was glorious to be able to experience that type of reality. Wow, how extra ordinary to experience the depth of the traumas that we can create and experience for ourselves and cause for each others? 

OK Mom, It’s me, it is me here and this is what I do with my friends. I know that it is way beyond anything that you are familiar with. But you at least deserve to know that this is what I do and it has a purpose and that purpose is serving the divine and thats what I do here. Now, I’m not very good at it, but I am the best at it that I know and so I appreciate your support and Dads support, because there are parts of this reality that I haven’t figured out how to operate in successfully, in a divinely conscious manner. So, it’s nice for us to support each other and lend each other support in the manner that we can. So what is there here? What is there for you mom? How can I be a blessing to you in this moment? Let me just say this: stand up, thanks for being my mom, give me a hug and forgive me for having my life’s journey having been so far apart from you. 

Mom, you have become a wonderful person. 

You have the floor Dad, what are you experiencing? 

Dad: I don’t think I can explain it.

What does it feel like? 

Dad: an overwhelming feeling of something coming in.

You are coming in. There is not really such a thing as ascension, it’s the Dennison of the divine into the body. You can’t ascend as a broken consciousness, you open up to the transcendent divine consciousness that has always been you coming into the body and finally being here as yourself. Just know this: it’s safe to do what you are doing. You don’t lose yourself, you gain everything and it’s still you. It’s safe, it’s safe, it really is. It’s good for you.

Dad: kind of makes me want to cry at the same time.

Thats OK, its OK, it’s good, its the same for me. Skye is having some problems now, I don’t know what they are, but I have to go and see what is going on with him and part of it is that when he was ten years old I left and I have only seen him once a month or so. I missed him growing up. It is the biggest trauma in my life having made that choice to not stay there until he grew up. Mmm, ahh… 

Its funny to me what I do, I had nobody to learn this from, but you know: it is all there for you.

Dad: I realize that, I just did not know how to go about it. 

Well, thats why I keep coming back to see you, because I am good at this and it is not be rote or memorization, it is by: what’s here and what’s wanted and what is it possible for us to experience here in this moment? 

We have to assume that we have known each other for aeons.

Mom: right

Dad: a long time.

OK, lets drop the last 53 years as being a significant part of that OK? And open up to knowing what’s beyond that and realizing that here and now. Because if you are going to look back as a guide to the present: look all of the way back. Until it encompasses all eternity: past, present and future. Now that feels better doesn’t it? Yes, hmm, hmm and when ever there is a part of you that is a little stuck, just go ahh, and relax out of that and remember you don’t hold onto an identification of self as confusion, just let it go and you turn it over to your body and say: oh, I was feel ing that, I was embodying that, now where’s my freedom found? Where’s my freedom found? Where is the embodiment of enlightenment found, true enlightenment? Where is the embodiment of divine truth? Where is it? Where is it? Where is the embodiment of divinity for me? Where is it? Where is it? Where is it? Ahh, ahh, well every place that it is not in you, has to be contacted, has to be felt and has to be: ahhhh, isn’t it interesting that every name of God has ahh… in it? Awe… Ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh, Mmm, the positions will come naturally and sometimes it will look like an epileptic fit and sometimes it looks like this and sometimes it looks like chi gong or tai chi, ahh, but that which is not divinely free in your body has to be felt and embraced as you are going through and receiving the answers to those questions. It just happens and you just go with it. You make sure that you are in a safe place where your not going to be Judged by the people here for going through what ever is necessary for you to be a temple of God, ha, ha, right?

Dad: sometimes when I am in meditation, I do some movements like this because it just has to come out.

Yes! Of course you do, because what ever it is, it is something that you allowed to be there and so, you know, you invited it into your home one way or another. So just go back there and say: is the experience of the embodiment of the divine? Is it? Is it? And as you feel it and you ask it that question, then… ahh, ahh, since you have chosen to experience your divinity, ahh, you can’t experience any infirmity without the awesome experience of loving that which you were unable to confront before in yourself. 

Oh, my goodness: love is the answer, love is the way and you can’t love someone else until you can love your body. 

Dad: tell your mom.

You can’t love someone else until you can love your body, because unless your the em-body-ment of love. It’s just social niceties.

Dad: thats what I keep trying to tell myself all the time.

It’s nice that someone is nice enough to wan’t to be social and pleasant. Is that where you want to maintain yourself?

Mom: David, do you love yourself?

Better than I ever have,

Mom: good.

Enough to be able to do what I am doing right now and I love myself more than I did an hour ago, but there is a lot here, there is a lot…

Mom: you are supposed to love yourself.

Mom, Ok, so here is a part that Dad needs to understand, because Dad is actually interested in doing this. Your body has been alive for billions of years.

Dad: yes.

It is an uninterrupted continuation of life, from every ancestor that you have ever had. From the first single cell amoeba, if thats what it was. Now your body does not have the experience of the death of any of those bodies, but it has within itself, the trauma of every body that was born in a nearly endless series and you c=are carrying that with you as your embodied identity. So it is not just this lifetime that you are dealing with, I’m dealing with your lifetime and you grandfathers lifetime and a million before them. Ok?

Dad: OK.

So for me to be free, I have to embrace the trauma of everyone that has ever been before me and what is that experience like? There’s a story that you like to give reverence to of somebody that did that: he took upon himself the sins of the world? Thats what this is, you already have them man! You already have them.

Dad: you already have them.

You have the “sins” (what ever that word means) lets just call it the continuation of life, from the very beginning, in this body. None of it is yours, you’re just coming here to be present in an embodied state. So as you feel… oh my goodness, what is that? And you look for it and you go: oh yes, oh yes, oh yes, Mmm, ahh, oOo, ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh, and level after level layer after layer, you free yourself from that which you have been holding onto and none of it is your truth. 

Dad: right, I realize that.

OK, so, do you realize how to get rid of it? Do you wan’t me to give you some more lessons of how? 

Dad: ha,ha, ha.

Do you want me to give you a recording of this? A video tape would be better, because how do you capture “that?” I have been told for years to video tape this and I even bought a camera to do it, but do I do it? No, I’m too afraid that somebody might see it.

Dad: and then they would know that your crazy. Ha, ha.

Right. 

Dad: ha, ha, ha.

How could anyone that is not utterly nuts do something like that? 

Mom: I like this as well as your reading to us.

Mom, my reading to you, is the words from these sessions, now the difference is and your going to have a bunch of judgement on this and obviously i don’t need it, but I looked and looked and looked, and looked at what has worked for holy men in the past and in almost every instance whether it be a prophet, a saint, a shaman, somebody who knows, there has been a sacrament involved and a sacrament that actually works, thats not representational, but actually is experiential. So I have tried magic mushrooms, hash, peyote,  hiawaska, everything that has traditionally been used to connect to the spirit world as a doorway to consciousness and enlightenment. Not everything, but lots and lots of things and they are good and they work, but… No buts, they speed things up tremendously and the fact that they could work for everyone in a truly transformational way and they are so, judged by society as being bad and  detrimental and evil and “against, against, against, against, man, look at the consciousness that is against it. Because, if you are looking for truth and you don’t know where it is, why not look for it in the ways that it has actually been found before and try them? 

So I have sampled philosophies, plants and drugs, people and then I finally really found that all that only takes you so far, a really really long ways and then all you have to do when you can get to the point where you can trust to let go in every way, then you just: surrender to what ever it is, that knows it all. And any one or anything that knows it all, has no agenda for you that would be in your detriment, because it doesn’t need anything form you. It doesn’t need your love, it doesn’t need your obedience, it doesn’t need your worship, because it lacks nothing in itself, because there is nothing separate from it. Thats why God will know every leaf on every tree that is falling as it is falling, because there is nothing separate from the consciousness of God. Mmm, and so when you surrender to that which is limitless and endless and eternal, Mmm, now you are just carried away, Mmm, Mmm, Mmm, and then you can’t help but be grateful and give your gratitude and be thankful. Then, when you fully surrender to that and allow God to embrace you fully, to the extent that you know God fully: then you are awake and you go: oh yes, oh yes, oh yes, oh yes, that has always been my truth: the truth that never changes. There are temporal truths, but my eternal truth never changes: it is the same truth that I surrender to and so you awaken into your own truth and you re-al-ize: you bring into reality, the realization of the eternal, that which is true for all consciousness. There is no consciousness thats not God consciousness. There are individualized points of view, but its all God consciousness and all of us are Gods.

Dad: you will have a hard time convincing some people of that.

I have no desire to convince anyone of that other than somebody who already knows that but says to me: “I can’t get there” “Oh no” Ha, ha, 

Dad: ha, ha.

I wan’t it but how? How? Well, it’s like this… and so as I share that with you: look what I went through man. What a blessing for me to do this with you, how much greater is my love, appreciation, awareness and knowledge of self and life as a result. Thats why I do this; for myself. 

Dad: Ha, ha.

Mostly.

Dad: not for yourself, not just for yourself.  I have been closer to you tonight than I have ever been before. 

Well good.

Dad: thats really true.

Of course, this is a pretty intimate experience. Yes and its nice, its what friends and family should do for each other. 

Dad: I feel that love that you are talking about now.