A long comment

Date: Wed, 27 Feb 2008 06:57:06 -0800

Immanuall,

Your writings are just fantastic. I send them on when you send them to me.
I don't prefer the words you use, but I feel their use in your inspiration.

It's more about poetry, though, in my case (and perhaps everyone else's??).
It's really beautiful. You are brighter and more precise than possibly anyone I know.
And, so far, I get to interact with you in musing what you are offering.

The ideas of letting go, accepting and holding no opinion, and the like...
I think, are not only impossible, I think they are not even what anyone, including you, really wants.
I can hear, for example, the part about simply using a new pen.
But the illusion, I am suggesting, is the continuity of a person
who is going to trade in an old car for a better one.

I know what YOU mean, I think,
but people, if given the chance to have a method or frequency offered them
in order to be substituted in their being for an "ultimate, superior being of Eternal proportions,"
they would take it in a heart beat as they have always done...

the sedative being the idea that a particular state or experience of absolute being can be maintained
through experience by letting go or whatever other higher, more absolute means...

again, what I'm suggesting here is that the way to the kingdom of heaven
is through the eye of a needle........ which is bullshit, too
but to use an analogy, THERE IS NO WAY OUT... to a better...

Confronted with that fact that the trying for the Highest ultimate aim is only another generalized offer
sounded in the prettiest of formulations....... through YOUR experience and guidance as simplicity...
When YOU don't have what you want Either...... although you are getting CLOSER???
to letting go completely???

THAT will never happen because the premise is already neither right nor wrong...
it's a game............. that LIFE (aliveness) doesn't HAPPEN or get better except in the obsession of that.
The ONLY answer to that riddle is to be COMPLETELY obsessed without waiting for that
to happen by proper, lofty or spiritual means, either in time OR above it.

Everything is just energy, an invitation to ALL-ness that cannot not be experienced as absolute abundance
since there IS only absolute abundance............
IT doesn't care who is experiencing it as less than abundance.
IT is LIFE as ONE without process or effort NOR effortlessness being what it cannot not be.
ITSELF............. already holding ALL contexts and frames of reference
without being bound by persons or ambitions of being.

If you want to be superman genius, and you ARE that since you have created the illusion of DETERMINATION,
then BE AS LIFE ALREADY being whatever it is experiencing through ANY context as indifference,
difference, opinionated or opinion-less..... there IS no real choice or determination of that,
and THEN it is not only Possible but already in its own inevitability
that you ARE doing all this, as you say, as limitation
securing ideas of possibility and determination
to BE EVERYTHING unnecessarily
but simply out of the necessity of BEING ITSELF... which is what you are!

We are all full of shit........... NO ONE is NOT full of shit, David!
I don't care how divine or divineless one determines one's self or another's experience of life to be.........
the utter failure in the search for the holy grail of absolute being
IS the joke........!
NO one has ever HAD or come CLOSE to absolute reality or Truth EVER........
except in movies and imagination through acting and spritual nobility and charm!!!!
If someone has anything to offer another, a goal of all light and truth, god, ALL OF IT...
then it is, like everything else, the divine arranging ideas of itself from itself to itself
and how one can earn or win that lottery..................... woo hoo!!!!!!!!!!

I WANT IT......... everyone wants it!!!!!!! NO QUESTION.... that's the addiction, the game,
and everyone really really believes they can ACQUIRE the experience of that redemption and justice of absolute being
either in time or BEYOND it in new age or otherwise heaven... permahappiness... superGod.....

I'm suggesting that a real friend will not elude another to lofty and generalized views attainment NOR undoing...
cause THESE are another trick of the game......
No one wants to be alone...... but no one IS alone except in the ideas of imposed possibilities, spiritual gains
that never ever were required nor can they be discovered....
nothing IS discovered already..... and NO ONE LIKE THAT... but it's what it is...........

The infinite will not be told what and how it should be
as its perfection is beyond ideas of perfection and attainment of its experience.

Life IS pointless, meaningless and purposeless because IT HAS NO ROOM for these.
IT is full of itself and has caused YOU and ME to BE... but without possibility of maturation or real hope.

Simply put..... something shifts in the clarity of this total givingness without room for conjecture.
It is a SHIFT that will never happen for YOU or ME....... but IS all-inclusive
and IS what gives rise to EVERY thought and experience that YOU and I ARE ALREADY.

The truth is that YOU and I are hopeless........ these ideas of being or becoming, realizing and the rest
ARE the obstacle.... but the obstacle to NOTHING.......... you can't have everything
because there IS only everything......... and I have put conditions on what that SHOULD BE..........
The requirement for freedom is... unfortunately absolutely NOTHING.........
and no one can GET that and no one WILL ever get that.....

We are the puppets of our own inevitable transformation that will never happen.....
and you MAY go alone on a path of seeming destitution for a while...
ten years....... WHO CARES.... LIFE doesn't care about what you want.
TRUTH is true.... and it is inevitable NOW while we are TALKING about it...
giving definitions and paths ABOUT it........ it could care less.
THIS is the illusion of being while there IS only being
but no one can know that................

everyone has delicately placed the reality of secure ideals before them in any fashion.
no one wants their version of reality taken from them.
all anyone can do, it seems, is not influence anyone again from or toward another ideal in any form.
THIS is a journey without distance to a place that will never be discovered
except as fantasy truth...... which is all anything is in the idea of observation/determination.

SOBERING UP is not about anything. it is a confrontation that will never have a resolution
or any guarantee of anything whatsoever...............................
but it is the insistence of a resolution and a guarantee and a process or way to something BETTER
that is the cause of delusion........ hope of god, eternal parenting or growing up.........
is at hand......... but NO ONE can show that to you......... NO ONE!
it's scary........ possibly.... but only in the face of the insistence that is projected already.
be glad it is nothing already being what everything is..........
don't take ANYONE'S word for it.......
no one knows- NO ONE!
it's yours to be seen somehow....
THE PRICE OF TRUTH IS EVERYTHING, BUT NO ONE KNOWS WHAT EVERYTHING MEANS UNTIL THEY ARE PAYING IT!

i'm not interested in baffling people......... except at first
but not as a goal....
there is only a baffling, and THAT BAFFLING is what life apparently IS.
Truth doesn't get discovered. It is nowhere being what everything seems to be.
No one can discover it. It isn't special amidst or beyond the quagmire and struggle of life.
It is PLAIN AS DAY...... and it is UNFORTUNATELY, like God, NOTHING SPECIAL!!

Gary