The continuous realization of ultimate truth as an available choice for you

There are a lot of things that I puzzle over when I meditate and one of them is my working for and doing something in the present that prevents me from living fully here and now, for the purpose of someday being more aware and conscious in the future. It doesn’t make sense to me that this is a very effective way to achieve the state or condition of enlightenment.

Whatever habitual identity that we gravitate to each day as we move through our lives, we maintain, by connecting to who we were yesterday as the starting point for where we begin today. Where we begin today should be determined after we have reviewed what the infinite possibilities are for us today in this moment and then make an effective choice as who we manifest as and what our level of consciousness, awareness, compassion and love is in this life. 

If we truly wish to be the essence of divinity, the embodiment of God, the possibility of infinite intelligence embodied in each of us. If that is our absolute truth and yet our relative truth is far from that, then where do these realities bridge? Where does the divine merge with the “not yet sublime” bodies that we operate here? Where is our movement from where we are, into the sublime state of the embodiment of freedom?

With each person that you connect with consciously, physically, verbally, psychically, instead of responding automatically to where they are; first ascertain what their ultimate possibilities are in that moment, to what level are they willing to transcend who and what they are and experience themselves as the divine here. Consider that for yourself in this moment.

Whatever it is in you that prevents you from knowing yourself as the embodiment of the divine here, It is within yourself who you are located here as. Where does the choice of the embodiment of divinity resinate with all that has gone on before, reverberating through time and shifting the now divinely?

(my friend Keith calls and I continue to record my thoughts with him)

Could we take a moment and delve into some areas that we rarely go into and see if there is a way for us to have a shared understanding, in a meaningful way spiritually? 

Keith, We can talk about whatever you want to obviously.

Well, then here is what I want; indulge me as your friend and give a place within yourself to the possibility that I have from time to time actually awakened to my source consciousness; a cosmic consciousness and a knowing of myself as that. Sometime I am able to embody that truth and I find that looking at the traditions of striving and following a teacher to be a distraction to my realizing my truth in that moment. I find that when I look to the possibility of my selfrealization of the embodiment of God consciousness in a particular moment and I focus my awareness on that point; it opens up there and I come up out of the waters of density and unconsciousness and remember who I am. 

We have been having a shared respect for each other and the paths that we have each been on in our search for truth. I think that this is worthy of reflection back and forth, so that when each of us has a realization that we know that there is somebody else that is right there with and for us saying “well done”, I know what it is when you awaken because of the connection we have it affects me also. And so I would like to ask this question; is there a possibility that we can interact as realized beings rather than as a couple of guys that are so identified with our bodies and as our bodies, personalities and past experiences of these bodies? Is there a possibility that we can let go of these identifications enough that we can commune on the level of our realized truth? What a relief that it would be to experience somebody that is fully awakened. 

Keith, yes.

We tend to get so involved in the needs of our physical bodies, our relationships and all that stuff that it seems that at some point, some place, some time at a regular interval, we should be renewed, restored and reclaimed into knowing our truth while we are here, while we are embodied and while we are determining why we are continuing to stay on this earth and if in fact that there is some sort of purpose that we are interested in furthering that may be the reason why we are here? Because I don’t buy into the belief that I have to get out of here to be free. 

Keith, You cant be free by getting out of here, you can only be free by transcending. 

I am not quiet sure what transcendence means, but if it means that it is an experience that one can have in the body that is such a freeing event that you are able to be here as a super conscious and aware, kind, loving and yet effective in every way in living the life that you want for yourself and how you want it to go; being a master of the embodied reality, then where is that able to be realized in our lives? Is that a question that we can look at and not just look at, contemplate and decide that it is absurd, but to go from there and say; “oh yea, I forgot. Isn’t it interesting that I spend my time ridiculing somebody that even considers the possibility that they are actually supposed to be God consciousness right now.” Right now.

Keith, I certainly don’t ridicule you.

I ridicule everybody most of the time, I am considering them to be what my perceptions are of them as a body and a personality and that this is the totality of the truth of what they are. I buy into that all the time and it is a complete crock.

Keith, Yes it is. My problem is I have a rudimentary grasp of the theory. I am a struggling aspirant. I don’t see you in quite the same way. You seem to have more ease in this life than I do. It may just be your physiological type, but I think also that your physiological type is a reflection of the type of Karma and the evolution of the consciousness that you had already when you came down here. The body that you get and the opportunities that it affords you to make strides towards enlightenment are a reflection of what you have done in the past when you take up the body and I think you in prior lifetimes have risen to a state of more freedom than I have. In my whole life I have always been aware that the state that I have been in is a very limited state. I have been on a seekers quest and indulge me, I am going to get to the point and so for me I found a way that I believe and I believe even more fully that it will get me free. So I have just looked at it as a job.

I understand and to the best that it is possible for me to do so, I perceive you exactly as you are and where you enjoy being and what it is that you are aspiring to and so the question that I have for you is; are you willing to step out of that occasionally and take that identity off like a halloween costume and realize that it is a manufactured, constructed identity that doesn’t need to be transcended, you just need to realize your truth; that that is what you did and what you chose to be but that you don’t need to improve out of that, you just need to awaken and remember what your truth is and then continue to operate as that. 

Keith, fortunately that is what has started to happen.

Yes, that is why we are able to have this conversation now.

Keith, I have waited 40 years for it and it is starting to happen; the silence is very persistent. It doesn’t go away. Today I went to see Michael, I went over to his house and  looked at his collection of guns and he has maybe 10-12 million dollars worth of guns in his place and I listened to how he relates to the world and it is all based upon shiny objects and money. 

And the symmetry of what is considered to be beautiful.

Keith, yes exactly. That is another version of a shiny object and I was thinking that I have been so unbelievably fortunate; I am sitting here in silence, just witnessing all of this chatter, all related to their activity. Thats what Maharishi used to say; you will start to have silence in your awareness, all of the time, you get a little, then a little more, and a little more. It’s been a really long path for me and the state that you describe that you have in meditation are not states that I have obtained to.

I get that and I understand that.

Keith, I speculate that different people come onto this planet with different parts of their consciousness and nervous system developed where they have holes that have to be filled in a manner of speaking, based upon the karma of what they haven’t done in their previous lives. Neither of us are there and both of us see the need to continue to get free of the things that we perceive as limitations. Its hard for me to say anything other to you that that I just continue every day to do what I do and what I probably should do is spend another 3 or 4 hours every day in meditation. I believe that if I did that right now that I would crack the egg.

I get all that, I appreciate all of that, I think that you should do that, but what I want to talk with you about is; what the conscious possibilities are in how you and I communicate, once in a while? Most of the time we can be our personalities, we can be men and we can be concerned about money, politics, women, money, sex and all of those other things, but once in a while, as a separate exercise for each of us apart from the struggle that we have with our bodies, our personalities and our progress in becoming silent and at peace in our bodies; can we occasionally choose to enter a space together of ultimate freedom?

Keith, the obvious place for that is for us to meditate together. 

Here is what I suggest; that we do something right now that is a new experience for both of us and have that experience of each other, tell us what the possibilities are to that question, rather than leaving that to our minds to contemplate and then create a theory or box about what those possibilities are. Lets suspend our minds and whether it is our higher selves of some aspect of ourselves that is already enlightened, eternally conscious and fully aware, whatever it is, but what if we just suspended our normal reality right now and opened up to the infinite? 

Keith, We could both do that to the extent that we can. 

What I am suggesting that the possibility is, as sensitive and aware as you are and of course it is more difficult for you since you are driving to pay attention to the energies and subtle bodies. If I cease to relate to you in the manner that I normally do where I say to myself; this is Keith, this is what his body looks like, this is how his mind works, this is the personality that he has, here is how he is moving in life, this is what he has done, this is where he is and there is where he is going, instead of interacting in that reality, I would like to say; I believe that there is a possibility that both of us can step outside of those roles that we have in how we have been moving in life and say lets take a break, return to our truth and commune in a reality of mutual support for the state of the embodiment of divinity and instead of thinking and conversing about that anymore, I am going to shut up and let go of my ideas and beliefs of who and what you are here and allow the truth to be shone to me instead and allow myself to harmonize with that truth, observe it, realize it and as a result of observing your truth; be able to enter the embodiment of my own and vise versa.

My choice is to observe you in your ultimate truth of infinite freedom, awareness, consciousness and ability and then see how that affects my level of consciousness in the moment, so that I can make some quantum leaps myself to have that same experience. What I am doing right now is letting go of who I hold you to be, so that whatever the ultimate truth of you is, I can see and know that as my perception of you instead and have that be my point of reference when I think of Keith. 

Keith, you know, what your asking me to do is what I should be doing anyway.

It is incumbent upon us if we are to know our truth, to live our lives operating as our truth here. 

Keith, its analgous to a part of my life when I said that I don’t believe in fragile enlightenment, which was a very arrogant and stupid thing to say. It was a reflection of my experience of people who were pretending to be refined and more subtle and as years went by I realized that they were not pretending anything. The more I meditated, the more everything changed, my physiology changed, it became more subtle, but I still have fear that is carried from a previous lifetime.

Can I tell you how I broke through that for myself?

Keith, I just would like to say that that aspect can be fairly onerous and I appreciate from my friends that they are still my friends knowing that I still have so much of that cloud with me. 

My proposition is that the ultimate truth of each one of us is the ultimate truth of the whole of all of us. So with that being the basis; if you open to that truth moving through you in this moment by letting go of what you just said is the truth of you; which is not. It’s only true as long as you hold onto it; as soon as you let that go of that being your eternal truth, it’s not your eternal truth, its a temporal, transitional, based in time, truth. It’s something that you are experiencing because you are agreeing that that is the case for you and thats all. 

As soon as you step back through the door of your eternal home; then you are home eternally, regardless of whether you are embodied or disembodied. So consider that you get all of the benefits that you really do doing the things that you do and you can continue to improve, continue to refine, continue to become that which you are wishing for. But, in all of that movement and intention for the manifestation of what you are and the mind and soul that you consider yourself to be, every now and then access prior to your choosing who you are today; access what the infinite possibilities are for you. How different can today be for you than yesterday was, simply by asking what the possibility is for you and then choosing to realize it. 

As soon as you can consider, conceive, sample and download some of that into your body, then you know that it is the truth. The truth of what you are willing to allow yourself, is the best that reality can be for you. So every now and then look and see if there is a quantum shift available for you instead of a gradual improvement. Can you actually take a quantum step of instantaneous realization simply by saying; I am going to take a station break from my reality, turn off all imput from reality and ask; am I ultimately free here if I choose to be? Can I actually exist as the identity for myself, as myself, as the infinite eternities that I have lived as and bring all of that awareness, knowledge and understanding into who I am here?

If that indeed is your truth and is actually possible as an available choice to you. Then every now and then, if we can take a look at that, we may be able to surprise ourselves and make a quantum shift that would impress every guru that we have ever had through out time and wouldn’t that be cool? 

Hmm, is it a possibility; the continuous realization of ultimate truth as an available choice for you, as the consciousness that you choose to be self aware as? 

If you are divinely aware; you are aware of the endless ways that embodied beings find their way to freedom and success here and are able to realize all of those ways as your own. Realize all success in life and consciousness as your own. You’re good at embodying the failures in life, so you don’t need to worry about that. Allow yourself to embody the successes, the infinite successes that life has here. Allow yourself to know them, to be them and to be the embodiment of them, it’s OK.

See my success as your success and I will see your success as my success. Mutually supportive of each one being successful, prosperous and magnificent in their own singular reality. Allow all that is to be truly in it’s magnificence, without any suppression from you. Allow life to be free for others, so free that they transcend all of their polarized responses to life and embody universal truth and love instead. 

As you consider this, you can’t help but realize that it is true and that the manner in which you choose to see another restrained, confined and failing, is the reality that you have condemned yourself to sharing. You share the failures of others when you wish to see them fail. You share the torment of others when you wish to see them be tormented. You’re tortured within yourself when you wish someone else was. You have no choice but to experience that which you wish for others as that which is true for you.

So your wishes for others is that which governs your experience of self being enlightened, or as a seeker being successful or failing. Bless others, God bless them, please. God bless them all please, especially the ones I have problems with.