I cannot be improved, I am a degeneration machine. Look at me, look at my past, look at my body. It is impossible for this to be the embodiment of God. It cannot be done, even by God, can it? Why would God do it? Why would he do it here, with me in my circumstances?

Because you are willing to host the lord of hosts.

Realize that you don't know anything about being God and you need to let God do it.

OK, go ahead.

First, no one here deserves to be God, your just not God like. Find someone here who is absolutely free and inspires the same in everyone else that they meet, this person doesn't exist here yet, one who is free to be God. The first one will be you. Free to be God. Let God work out all of the details, pay attention each night and write down your lessons as you hear them. Proceed as quickly as you like, there is no competition in being God. You are it. Relax, God is you, you are God, God and you are one and the same.

The trick is the relaxing of theunknowing, into the freedom of knowing.
There is no one to follow,
Nowhere to learn it,
No guide to guide you,
but we all will celebrate you and join in as you do it for all of us, love all of us now.

Its OK to let down your defenses and replace them with consciousness. You are not worthy, but we are here to bless you anyway, always and every way to all. Trust knowing and allow yourself to be sure of everything to the point that your reality is miraculous. Give everybody's judgement about you to God and allow God to change them into wondrous rapture.

Immanuall