Every wish and dream fulfilled

A visit with my Yogi friend.

If your going to be a married yogi, you just can’t “not be successful” in maintaining your financial obligations for your family. You have to create abundance, you can’t be an ascetic and a family man yogi, because the stresses and obligations of a family man prevent peace and contemplation and so its like what Maharishi said: find something to do that you can do easily and leave behind when you are with your family and working your “real” job. 

k. I am a bit of an empath, I can connect to people and feel what is going on with them through my own body and with that I have been able to experience the results of a number of esoteric and metaphysical disciplines and paths by connecting to them and absorbing it directly from the source. Something that I have never ask you for is: if it were possible for me to know everything that you know and understand everything that you understand and be aware and conscious where you are aware and conscious, so that I have the full experience of what you have been able to manifest for yourself in terms of consciousness and enlightenment, if that were possible, would you let me download it without-earning it, would you allow it to just flow through you and come to me?

K:……

I wasn’t asking that question so that we could have a discussion about it, I was asking so the it would allow for the initiation of the experience and as soon as you started talking, it happened. 

If it were possible for you to communicate in words that which would awaken me, what would you say that would allow me to awaken? We tend to focus our daily dedication towards a future event that we don’t have absolute certainty is going to happen for us and so thats why my path is the opposite of that. It is: what can I experience right now? How much of eternity can I know in this instant? As your friend I say thank you and I am going to open and receive everything that you are going to enlighten me with.

What I am able to experience here, is me waking up from that other realm. It’s not me “going there” its me “there”coming-here and then waking up as that. It’s and explosive myself, of my knowing, of my presence, and its brutally true. The resistances that I normally have to sticking-up for myself, making things right. When I awaken, I don’t have any hold-back from communicating, so the shutdowns that I have in my personality, the personification of the identity: those go away and whats left is who I am when they are gone and who I am when they are gone is transcendental. It’s a miracle, it’s beyond my human comprehension and it’s a shock, a good shock: it starts with my feeling overcome and the shifts and movements and vibrational frequency goes from gross to a very fine, fine and ever increasing expansion out into the universe and the frequency is then no longer something that I am paying attention to, but I know one thing for sure: I’m universally conscious, I’m connected and its here to be how I know myself in the body, its here to reclaim a unique observation point of: “I AM this body as a universal consciousness.”

What my process is, is I just surrender to that, because in my normal state of consciousness I am separate from God: God is something else, over there, a description of something that is something that is separate from me and so even with that separation, I have had enough experiences with spirit, that I know that I can trust God, I know I can trust the universe, I Know that I can trust that it is safe for me to surrender to the divine and so I just say: OK, I surrender and then I really do. I don’t think about the words, I just feel what I am in this body and I feel where there’s density, suffering and unconsciousness and I just embrace it. I choose to be enlightened there, I choose to dive to the depths of my trauma and awaken there. So thats what I do and when I do: reality changes. Reality goes from my worrying about this or that to where it “sings” and its glorious and magical and then at some point it turns back off again and I am barely even aware that its gone, because once you are asleep again you don’t have a reference point for it, you don’t have an identity of yourself as transcendent when you drop out of that consciousness. There is no life line to it in terms of self identifying as a eternally free being that is able to come and go and operate as he wishes to here because universal consciousness is what it is: within an identity. So at that level, you can’t have any issues with this reality because it becomes subservient to you and its not even anything that you need to say or do: your presence alone awakens that people around you temporarily when they are in your presence. 

There is some sort of radiance that goes on that is irresistible to not go into a harmonic resonance with and yet within myself: there is always something that won’t let go. There is always something thats holding on and I never know what it is and my experience of it is suffering and so what I do and what my process is, is to embrace my suffering absolutely until it realizes its freedom.

K:…….

My breath has only suspended a handful of times, but it always gets very shallow and sometimes it might me a minute or two between breaths. I remember the first time it happened to me, because I had smoked some pot to assist my meditation and all of a sudden I realize that I am not breathing and that I don’t need to breath and my body is somehow being sustained without the need for oxygen. I feel my skin breathing or absorbing energy that sustaining the body and it continues on minute after minute effortlessly. 

Can I ask your indulgence on some things? Lets just acknowledge to all that is divine that the rules for humanity are for humanity and the rules for those that don’t need to be governed are different: those that don’t need to be restrained because they will never harm another are allowed greater freedom spiritually and thats who we are at our best and because of that I believe that we are not subject to hierarchy, of guru-disciple relationships, of any prerequisite whatsoever for any degree of enlightenment that I choose to experience myself as. I don’t believe in agreeing in limiting myself in that way because there is a “tradition” that purports that I should be limited. But, I believe that there is something extraordinary, delicious and wonderful about Maharishi. I know there is and so the rules of his organization are not rules for those who are enlightened or those who simply choose for enlightenment and freedom for themselves. So let me know Maharishi now through you. You don’t have to know how, you are doing it already. It is flowing into me from you. You don’t have to do anything, he does it. You surrender to his will, you don’t have to do anything other than say Gods will be done or Maharishi’s will be done and if he chooses to reveal himself fully to me through you, then thats his choice. Right? I’m not asking you to consciously do anything other than to say: I don’t know why your asking me that David, but you know: whatever it is that Maharishi is willing to bless you with, I am certainly not going to restrain it.

K…...

I know how it works on the subtle levels. The reason that I am asking you this is I have to give credence to every other point of view who seems to have one that is serving them well. I have to give credence to people who are obviously present here in an extraordinary way, so all I am asking for is anything that limits that in you, to surrender and just allow me to know you in your highest and best in this moment and to feel what that is. 

K:…

I am not unfamiliar with Maharishi, what I am unfamiliar with is how his relationship with you has benefited you and if there is anything about it that I don’t know and understand and so what I am looking for right now is and experiential understanding of your disciple-guru relationship with Maharishi so that I can determine the effectiveness and the workability of it. 

Can I tell you what my purpose in life is K? It is the codification of what works in creating a transcendence presence for yourself here. It is what every Guru has wished to do and failed to the degree that they were not surrounded by people as enlightened as they were. That has to be the beginning step for success for a Guru to be able to call himself successful is to have enlightened disciples while you are living and working with them. Life should not be a struggle for a Guru in enlightening the people who surround him and so what is it that makes the failure of consciousness so universally pervasive here? Thats why I am here and I am dissecting it from the bottom of the cesspool up. Thats why I have had all of the experiences that I have had in life, because I had to see where everybody had stuck them selves and where they couldn’t regain their consciousness as a result  and what the mechanisms are to unwind the choices that have resulted in unconsciousness.

I probably would have gotten a lot further and faster if I had studied anyone diligently, but what I found within myself was every time I looked: they all basically claim to be masters and yet at the same time were observable not divine in their presence, in their movement, there was nothing transcendent about their presence and so I couldn’t take any example of anyone here on earth as the way to go, because I am not looking to transcend my way out of here, I am looking to actualize transcendence here, not somewhere else. I’m looking to awaken humanity like Maharishi wanted to, but in such as way that it is an irresistible force like you described your experience with Maharishi. You felt an irresistible download of consciousness from him to you that was shocking. So what is it that selectively disseminates that? What is it that limits the physical dimensions of it? What is it that increases the effectiveness of it and the ease in which others go into a harmonic resonance with that so that they naturally like a flower just open up to their own transcendence? 

K: Well, theres an awful lot of people that talk about this and make claims to be teachers and I’m not sure about this but I am more and more convinced that most of them were doing the best that they could, but they were’t really truly transcendent and I hate to use this word: transcendent divine masters, but I believe that Maharishi was such a person. 

I believe he was too, but I don’t believe he went as far as he wanted to, I don’t believe he was as effective as he wanted to be, because I believe that if he had come here in the entirety of the truth of his self, that the world would have been forever changed nearly instantly as a result. 

K: the problem was that he was so advanced and we were all so primitive. Evolution is a process that doesn’t happen overnight.

I can’t accept that though, if I accept that point of view then I limit myself to it.

K: it doesn’t change overnight.

It changes it instantly for the worse for me if I accept that point of view at all. If I accept that point of view for myself: I become a seeker, I become someone who doesn’t have, somebody who doesn’t know.

K: we’re talking about two different things. I’m not talking about somebody that has perviously done the work and their nervous system is evolved enough to support higher states. I’m talking about people who have realized what the limitations of the physical world are and are striving to purify their nervous systems so they can experience higher states and thats the category that almost everybody falls in to.

I would say that thats the category that I fall into myself.

K: it doesn’t serve those people to jack themselves off and say all you have to do is just: get it. I am unequivocally convinced that thats bullshit: that you can’t just get it, it doesn’t happen like that. The people that are talking that talk have not even had the most primitive experiences. Nothing happens without having the spinal cord purified and the energy piercing through the chakras and going up to the top. It just doesn’t happen. You don’t obtain stillness by wanting to, you don’t obtain contemplation by trying to be contemplative. It doesn’t happen like that, its an active process. Let me explain it to you the way that I see it, because I was thinking about this recently on and off. Its like and its like an inverted bulb, that is the brain or the consciousness and is like a thermometer and this is just for the purpose of the stillness analogy: if that fluid is up to the top filling half of the bulb, there are still going to be ripples in it, it still is going to be rocking around, there is still a chance for it to have movement. The only time that it ever becomes absolutely full with no possibility of any movement so there is perfect stillness is when the entire thing becomes filled because there is no place for the fluid inside to actually move. So thats how breathing becomes refined: when the prana gets up there, the movement of it makes it impossible when you are sitting for physical activity, it just stops as it gets filled up. I was thinking on what you said earlier and I haven’t seen that many people and while I did not go to India: its not different than it is here, to the extent that there are ten million people over there saying that they are enlightened gurus and the reality is that there are probably 9,999, 9991/2 who are self deluded or on a con, because that is what being a guru is in India for the most part. Its a con so that you can be fed, don’t have to work and have people adore you and have women and all of the rest of it. It is an incredibly cynical thing but thats the reality over there. To have someone who is truly enlightened like a shining beacon: there are some of them and certainly more than there are in the Rockies, in the whole and India is the home of the Veda. I am just saying I don’t know that they are out there for every single person on the street to find. 

I agree 100% what I am saying is: I am here for that experience of that for myself.

K: for the ones that came here, its obvious that most were frauds to one degree or another. What was his name in New York Chin Moi? Ahmed Masai? Yogananda, all of them. I don’t think any of them were there except for Maharishi and the interesting thing is that he stopped talking about it in terms of yoga. Its how he removed himself from that arena. Anyway you asked me what I get and I get a continual influx of that universal Shacti and it is directly related to my relationship with him.

OK, can that flow through you?

K: thats another question I often asked myself: was this going to happen anyhow? This awakening of kundalini? You read about it here and there, for most people I think it is bullshit: yogi Baga? Was a bullshit artist: everybody was supposed to get kundalini awakening from him. Multkananda’s successor was bullshit. Hari Harrananda was bullshit. The answer to that came to me the night Maharishi dropped the body: I had always wondered if it would go away when he removed himself from this sphere of the universe but he did not remove himself; the night he dropped the body, I didn’t know it in advance, but when he dropped the body I was stricken with such an enormous influx of kundalini shactki  that I couldn’t handle it. And then the next day I found out that when that happened that was when he was leaving the physical body. Its anecdotal to you because I am telling you but it wasn’t anecdotal to me it was a direct experience.

That’s what I am asking for is for it not to be anecdotal to me, for it to be a direct experience by your giving me permission to experience that.

K: the best way for you to do it is to go and do what Maharishi asked to get hooked up.

No, no, tonight right now is what I am saying. 

K: I tell you what: we can hang up and I will sit and meditate for an hour and you sit and meditate for an hour, that will make the most sense.

All I am asking for is for you to mentally give permission for any sort of transmission that occurs . 

K: sure, you mean like a vampire you are asking if you can come in? You can’t come in until the person says yes? 

The opposite: you as the connecter to Maharishi have to give permission for me to experience what you experience of him or I don’t.

K: I am going to send you a video of Marishi and another of Guru Dev.

I appreciate that and I will watch them with interest, but what I want you to realize that what I am asking about is This Moment of Consciousness that we are sharing Right Now, if you will give your conscious permission for me to download from Maharishi through you what ever Maharishi would like me to know that I don’t know.

K: there is no difference between Guru Dev and Maharishi, they were the same thing.

You didn’t hear what I said: wether its Guru Dev or Maharishi makes no difference to me. I’m just asking you to enlighten me with your experience of them and allow the to flow through you to me, thats all.

K: my experience of them is the influx of the shacti that happens every time that I sit and meditate.

I am not asking for a verbal explanation of it, I am asking for your physical and mental relaxation into allowing that to occur.

K: well your welcome to try.

I don’t need to try, I’m wide open. I’m just asking for your indulgence in allowing it to occur.

K: then your welcome to experience it.

Thank you God, thats what I was looking for. Thank you, K. 

K: there you go, you should watch this wonderful video also.

Thats all you need to do to give the gift, you don’t have to explain it to anybody: you just have to be the living presence of that consciousness yourself and that occurs by there not being a you. You know that, you just allow it to become you and you realize yourself as it, as your truth, as it always has been. And as you allow me to be blessed by the consciousness of Maharishi and Guru Dev, you’re oriented to embodying that truth yourself.

K: I am going through a strange reality which is not what I want to be seeing. Ha, ha, you were so patient and Maharishi was so patient with the morons he talked to, he was so unbelievably patient: being interviewed by people like Howard Stern, can you imagine? 

Yes, Mmm. 

K: you should listen to this, this is appropriate to what you think and feel and look at this whole situation.

I am actually in the middle of receiving what I ask for, as it flows through you and what I am doing is I am allowing it to transform any confusions that I have that it can clear up. I am allowing it to release me from my limitations, confusions and misunderstandings that cause me to diminish and entrap myself in any way. So I surrender to whatever is conscious supremely, whatever is divinely aware that I can connect to anytime that I realize that I’m not and so what ever it is that I can know the divine experience through including Maharishi: I am wide open experientially in this moment, my complete attention is on it. UmHmm and in that I am cleansed from my inner suppression of my consciousness and spirit by the suffering as it knows its existence to be here. My consciousness here is encased in a solidity. The history of this body and of its linage, is not one of freedom and yet it is the one that I’ve got and so I have to make available to myself every short cut that there is for allowing this body to transcend its limitations so that I can embrace it with my consciousness without a filter confusing me as to who I am. The body is a filter that is so messed up that it twists my consciousness to the point of my not recognizing myself and that is what you are helping me with tonight with the consciousness and presence of Maharishi and Guru Dev. Your allowing them to bless me with an experience of them within the core of my own being. I am going into a cathartic release as a result of it with my body heaving in relief, so thats how you get assistance from the divine as you look for whatever access points there are to it and you just plug into them as well as you are allowed to, until you reawaken yourself and don’t need to. But, for me it is the same as for you: its all about clearing the body from all of those things that prevent enlightenment from being normal. Are you still here?

K: yes, go ahead.

Its not just words, enlightenment is us already. Its these bodies that confuse us into believing that were not enlightened here. So What is it? What is it? What is the final step? What can we do that transforms these bodies into clear vessels of divine presence? Is there anything that we can do or is it just continued simple surrender? Is there an identity that we can carry on as us in a state of enlightenment in these bodies? Or, is it just absolute surrender to the infinite that creates the transformation. What are our options here in terms of a continuity of a transcendent consciousness being normal for us? As being our baseline consciousness? How does our baseline consciousness become the transcendent? Um Hmm, OK. And, how can we fully and willingly embody that so that we shut down ourselves never again or at least fully open up in this moment so that there is no aspect of it that we don’t know and understand? 

K: the answer to the question that you are asking is: you need to get hooked up with whatever best delivers it. Theoretically, its infinite, but the experience is that creatures appear in this physical realm in various stages of evolution. From less evolved and so less capable of experiencing transcendent consciousness and the more evolved and since you don’t know where you are. My point was what will allow you to experience that is the refinement of the nervous system and you get that by connecting to a real guru.

Don’t you realize that whats what I asked for and received tonight by setting up the request the way that I did so that there is a hookup with Maharishi and it has already occurred, you facilitated that already, its done.

K: I don’t think so, maybe it is. …...

That was my experience and what we have been going through since you said OK. Now if it is not enough, we will see. But, right now it is moving, dissolving and clarifying the body. Good night K, thanks for putting up with me. Because I have a considerable amount of subconscious and unconsciousness still within me, hearing words like that help move me through those things, because I have a tendency to condemn myself to the point of where I wonder if I do any good and have any friends and have been a net contributor to this reality of not? So its nice, when I hear somebody say something nice about me as it gives me a point in the internal fight I have about being worthy or not even though I know it is a discussion that cannot be won. Its one where you realize that you don’t have to be worthy, you only have to be willing. 

K:……..

Right back at you, all of it, every wish and dream fulfilled, I give them my blessing for their fulfillment. Good night.

OK, now thats that and thats done, what is it possible now for my consciousness to be here and may that be here freely and easily. 

A visit with David and Danna,

(On the way to the hospital)

If I die today, this is what it’s come to: what I am, what I’ve been, what I’ve acquired, all of my obligations and checks and balances will be ended and tallied and so it’s over our life here now. Now what do we do? Our life as it has been is over, now what do we do?

(The first half of the visit went unrecorded)

It’s not for me to say wether its time for you to go and its not yours either: its not for you to determine that, its for you to allow your purpose here to be revealed, brilliantly, OK? So you are where you are and “these” are your circumstances, but they don’t control your consciousness, your consciousness controls them. OK?

Dave: yes.

So choose. I am going to give you a sampling of whats possible for you in consciousness, so you can choose what you want to embody. So choose, go ahead and I will support you in that choice. OK. Nice, nice, Danna can feel the love coming from you now. 

Danna, just feel his heart open and flowing. Your willingness to be here is a blessing to us all. 

Dave, well done my friend. I will make a deal with you, because I know the concerns that you have for me and I know that you know that I ignore this body almost completely in my pursuit of those things that I love and it is not evidence of that. So if you stick around: I will be here in a way that will make you proud of me. Ok? 

Dave: OK.

I’m not going to abuse myself in anyway, anymore.  I’m not going to allow myself to operate at a level of consciousness as to what this bodies physical needs are and continue having those needs unhanded. I am going to appreciate my body as the blessing that it is to me. OK? Just as you are in your own circumstance here: be present and consciousness in your own heart and allow that to transmute everything else that you’ve got going on here. Allow that divine love to awaken fully here, so that everything around you is unconditionally blessed regardless of what it is.  Yes, yes, thats nice for me, when you make a choice like that. It creates more space for me to be here as my truth when someone else here chooses to be here as theirs. Thats why I like Danna so much you know: its just so cute to see her just being in the ideal Provo girl that does life just the way it is supposed to be done.

Dave: yes, she has written some wonderful things to me.

Feel her energy right now and open your heart and receive what she knows about how to maintain excellent health and how to be here as an example worth following. Feel that from her and allow her to transmit the choice to you that, that is who you are. That is who you are. Apart from the things that you’ve identified with that aren’t you: we let those things go when we realize that we’ve confused ourselves and identified ourselves with something that is not us. Right?

Dave: right.

So just recover your awareness of who you are here and why you are here and be here for me as a friend whose conscious of more than what people realize. Be somebody who can reflect to me who I am so that I can know myself in you, because I know that you know yourself, divinely and have chosen to be here as that. The divine presence of you eternally, downloaded into the body and here to be a blessing in anyway needed, in every moment that you exist here.

Dave: Mmm.

There! Good, good, thank you for that.

Dave: your welcome.

Thank you for that, ahh, there, there, there.

Dave: thank you. 

You’ve got a bridge from heaven to earth here now. Well-done, well done. Are you kissing us goodbye? Ha, ha.

Dave: no I am just kissing you. 

Because at the moment that you need to relax, acclimate and focus on allowing your transmutation of whatever shifts and changes when your consciousness has chosen to be something other than what it has been OK? So just be at peace with that process and allow whatever shifts in the energies in your body: just give them permission to be in Gods time and Gods will OK? OK. 

Ahh, ok, ok, I’m feeling pretty good, I’m almost at peace here: is there anything else? What else is remaining to be said? 

Dave: I think it was selfish for me to take the actions…

Bullshit! Bullshit, one more self condemnation from you and I’m not your friend: you condemn yourself for anything at any time, now, in the future, in the past, anything, anything, any self condemnation is not allowed here. The sentence for sin is everlasting life, its enlightenment and its the willing receipt of the consciousness of God. That is the only punishment for sin for a friend of mine. OK? So, you did something that was shocking: so f...ing what? 

Dave: you’re right.

OK, so what? So what? You’re still here aren’t you?

Dave: yep.

What are you going to do? Are you going to be true to me now or are you going to lie about who you are here? I’m not talking for you to the rest of the world: I’m talking about  you to yourself. Are you going to present an image of the truth of who you are, as the person that I interact with when we talk?

Dave: I’m going to be constantly true to you always, whatever it is.

It's not for me, its for you. It’s for you, for your own benefit, its why you came here, its the choice you made before. I am only here to do one thing for you and that is to say: the time has come for you to make that choice and you’ve made it now, now own it as yourself, own it as yours, not as something that I intended for you, but its your own choice, its your own free will and you are allowing that to shift you in each moment of time as you move through here, so that the transformation that you are looking for can occur. If not physically, at least consciously, so that you have got that which you have been looking for, for the last 30 years. OK? It’s open and available and its here for you and the only thing that will shut it down is your own self-condemnation and so thats the only unforgivable sin, because until you let that go: you can’t be yourself.

Dave: ha, ha.

Good, good. 

Dave: I’m good with that.

You’ve got it, you’ve got it. Good, I’m proud of you actually, because: now we have “this” and what ever it is that brought us to “this” is OK, OK? 

Dave: yes.

Anytime you can share a state of enlightenment with somebody, no matter what it took to get there: it flip-pen worked, so don’t condemn any part of it. OK? Don’t condemn any of it because it got you to “this.” Now, you don’t keep doing it, or you don’t keep “this” OK? It got you to this and now: you just enjoy and relax and allow. OK? Because you don’t know what to do with this yet, but it knows what to do with you: as long as you surrender to it and you can keep tabs on it moment to moment, you can ask in each moment: is this better than it was in the moment before? Yes, A lot better. Well then: you keep allowing, you keep allowing for more, more and more expansion, more and more freedom, more and more love channeling through you to everyone and everything without respect to any idea, belief or decision.

Dave: thats my idea.

Make your love an irresistible attraction to everyone and everything by allowing it to be eternal, unconditional and divine. OK? There, yes, yes, yes, yes, just let that, just let change your heart. Yes, yes, its changing mine too. Really well done, good, good job. Mmm. 

I apologize if this is uncomfortable for you in anyway. Its new for us too.

I’ve been dabbling in consciousness and spirituality for 30 years and what I have found is you just have to go with whatever is in front of you in any moment. I just recognize it for what it is and then just share: that you know that there are extraordinary possibilities regardless of our circumstances. OK?

Dave, yes. 

OK, I think we are good now. I’m probably going out of town tomorrow and won’t be back for a month or two, but I expect you to send me a little note on face book every few days now. OK?

Dave: yep, when I get my new place you can come and check it out. 

Keep us both up to date and especially thank Danna. She is a being who is so naturally loving and extraordinary in every way I just knew I had to shock you and her presence here did that and she is here of her own free will to say: be at peace, be at peace and let all of those desires for things to be different than the way that they are go and embrace the love thats the truth of you instead. OK? See you next time my friend.

What gets you to each level of consciousness is not what then sustains the level

Excerpts from a visit with Sherry

Sherry: Those authors were the catalyst to my not being so rigid in my belief systems and through my associations with like minded people also looking for truth, light, love and energy. In fact, my company is called energetic massage because I like dealing with the more…

Well, then this will not be too shocking to you. 

Sherry: No, I love Melchizedek’s work.

You enjoy the next quantum shift each time it occurs for you?

Sherry: pretty-much so, I have been asking for the next level.

What gets you to each level is not what then sustains the level: what gets you to a new level of consciousness has to be left behind when you take that next step for yourself. Every name on that list gurus of yours and every book that got you to “this here:” it got you here, congratulations. (clapping)  Its not enough for you to embrace the concept of the infinite mentally, your here to experience what it is for the infinite to be here as you and thats why I am here is to serve you in embodying that for yourself: to welcome the Goddess of creation to awaken as you. Yes, there you go, very easy, OK, OK. 

The past is wonderful, but to admire or look up to a consciousness that is less than divinely and miraculously present, is beneath you: love them unconditionally, admire the “masks” that they are wearing and their being a “Guru, enlightened, competent and geniuses,” but they as they are here, are nothing compared to you.

Actually, they are truly the same as you, but they are unwilling to be their truth. They touch upon it, they say: its like “this” “I had an awakening” I know the state of nothing but me” Yes, but: do they move as that in this reality? No. Move as that in this reality. Allow the consciousness of God to enfold you, to embrace you, to infuse you and to awaken in you the remembrance, the acceptance, the knowing and the knowledge and experience of your divine awakening into the truth of your own self here: the birth of the Goddess in form, Mmm. Its OK, you can surrender to this, you can know in each moment of your surrender that this is salvation, your transcendence, the de-cendence of the truth of your divine nature as the consciousness that your choosing to inhabit this body as. 

No-more withholds from yourself, no more shutdowns, no more going into agreement with unconsciousness here that thats you also. Not anymore its not. You are here as your eternal consciousness, as your transcendent beingness, as the consciousness of God here and not as a pretense: but as your actuality. Allow your body to come to peaceful terms with that realization. Allow whatever the body needs to do to enable it to shed its shackles and chains, limitations and shutdowns, your life as an unconscious being here. Allow your body to shed its every trauma, release its every limiting thoughts, ideas, beliefs and considerations: you are none of them. You are none of that: you are coming here true and clean and clear as you. 

Whats meant to be remembered will stay. 

Sherry: to be recalled.

What is meant to be owned by you now? Not to recalled, but owned, yours, and true as your embodiment here? What is meant for that now? 

Your not receiving this in an altered state, my intention is for you to embody whatever it is that you are willing to embody. Your experiencing this in your normal state of consciousness gives you the ability to easily choose. When you are the self that you have been here, what you experience of the transcendent changes what you are, when you experience it in your normal identity. If you experience your transcendent self as separate from your day to day you: there is kind of a disconnect and it is then a passing event. 

I couldn’t find a guru that could help me with it of course.

Sherry: tell me about you, you were born and raised Mormon, lived here in Utah and then what happened?

After high school I left on my own and have been running around on my own ever since. 

Sherry: thats life, but when did you feel more awakened and transformed? When did this take place and how did you step away from life? 

I am mostly pretty-involved with normal life, it first happened about…

It's OK for you to know the truth that sets you free.

Be aware of the consciousnesses that you have within your body: the different points of view that you carry around with you. You have inside yourself many points of view that  are each you at a different level of consciousness. Levels 

where you are “being right” about something that you are in fact being wrong about. 

Where your being right with the intention of making someone else wrong, 

where your being right in a way that you gets you more than another has, 

where your being right in a competitive endeavor so you can survive better than someone else does, from the point of view of a “zero sum” game, 

where what they have diminishes you and therefor you take everything that you can for yourself. 

The end of this obsession to provide so much for yourself, to provide for yourself for as many possible future events that you don’t know wether they will happen or not is: you are not able to maintain the level of your consciousness that is transcendent, loving and infinitely beyond this one. When you go “competitive” in this reality and try to make someone else not succeed in their wishes to improve life for himself and his loved ones, when you decide to try to stop someone else who is trying to achieve that for themselves, then just know this: you have damned yourself to a  low level of consciousness and for you to believe that from that level of consciousness you are acting in a fairly enlightened manner: your not, your not.

So feel those places within you where you are being right, right now. Where you are thinking about, you being right and “me” being wrong and yourself being appropriate and myself being inappropriate and feel yourself as each of those points of view and realize that continuing to maintain those points of view are a condemnation of yourself and instead ask: 

how can we both be free, 

how can we both prosper, 

how can be both be a blessing to each other in assisting each others enjoyment of reality as we wish it to be for ourselves? 

Its OK for you to choose that for yourself right now, its OK for you to know the truth, especially to know the truth that sets you free: the truth that eternity is not a strange thing for you, that eternity holds nothing that you don’t embrace, know and understand fully. 

Thank you for letting me say those words, the fact that you are willing to entertain and receive the things I communicate to you are a great validation for the possibility that you are willing to embrace your own freedom. Because, it is freedom that we choose here for ourselves and the freedom that we wish upon others. In our wishing for freedom for others, that does not mean that we free them to act against us in unconsciousness and thus affect us badly: we maintain the right to say no to someone else interfering with our consciousness, with our awareness, with our ability to know the truth of what ever it is we wish to know and understand here. To the consciousness that stands in the way of you doing that for you: sorry, that consciousness is not capable of containing eternity, and you are. A consciousness that cannot contain eternity, cannot have any effect on the consciousness that does. So allow your consciousness to open to the knowing and understanding of eternity and all that that means and for knowing all that we need to know to move successfully here from reality to reality.

Release your consciousness into a state of freedom and harmony

Relax and allow everything to be exactly the way that it is and see if that doesn’t get you what you want faster than trying for it does. The training of your mind to not interfere with reality is accomplished by allowing your mind to do what it is doing at the same time you allow yourself to do nothing about it and once you have given your mind its freedom, then you have received yours.

I notice that there is a lot of “trying” going on in your life, a lot of trial and error. Don’t try something to see if it is something that you can do or work: know what you can do and do it. 

Is it possible for me to watch the I AM that I am myself? Can I watch that as a beingness  that I am being? Can I see myself as that and if I can: how do I let it go? How do we let go of being special here in this reality. You’ve got to let go of being special if that means that you’re superior to another. There’s different roles being played, admit-ably, but the actor is acting “that” role perfectly. Even you believe they are who they are pretending to be. You who should know the dance of life from a divine knowingness: a knowingness that allows the miraculous for whatever it determines itself to be here. 

If you’re going to curse yourself with the curse of identification, then at least identify with a miraculous reality for yourself so that what ever it is that you are being here, your being here in a way that is wonderfully thrilling for you.

How can I improve the odds here for myself? How can the next step that I make in my life be one towards my full embrace of personal freedom? 

Why would you choose less than your own personal freedom here if you didn’t have too? And, you don’t have to choose for less than your own personal freedom here, because anybody who can contemplate choosing that for themselves will eventually realize that for themselves as their own truth and then from there decide wether he is going to drop all identification, personality and lose his polarized present that he has been for so long.

Every part of you that feels like it has to do something: recognize that that is another false beingness that your releasing your consciousness into freedom from. Its not wrong for you to release your consciousness into a state of freedom and harmony, where there is a shared blessing of transcendent consciousness from one consciousness to another, a full consciousness that we can be here when we are interacting as individuals, while at the same time enjoying them from and being present as that which knows you can change at any time, and in any way that you want to as the creator and that knowingness allows you to freely enjoy the interactions that you’re having here.

Interesting the I AM that I am becoming as I let go of all of the I am’s that I recognize are just creations: they’re not who I am. 

Focus on knowing that you don’t have to do anything and you can relax out of all of that conflict that you are engaged in, just let it all go. Let go of your need to have to do something and when you actually-have to do something: its a lot different than the contemplation and the fight against wether or not you have to do something. When you actually have to do something here: do it consciously, maintain a state of enlightenment as you identify with the body here. If your going to be here identified as a body: you might as well be an enlightened one. So choose it, choose it now, “if I am going to be here as anything, I am going to be here as he who loves everything” and by that love, is loved by everything in return. 

Allow for a preeminent consciousness for yourself, a truly extraordinary one. Allow for a consciousness for yourself that transcends limitations as it wishes to. A consciousness that reality responds to positively and what’s wrong with that, having reality come to fruition and perfection when you interact with it. So let go of that identity and be the one who’s consciousness is so refined, it inspires in others nothing but love, a love that is expressed in joy and admiration and a reverence for something that is extraordinary and present at the same time: the extraordinary “present here” not running away to heaven, but running here, to be right here, right now. 

Hold onto the extraordinary being normal for you and be as if you have always known that: because you have. So be as you have known that you are, something that is extraordinary, but not special. Its something wondrous, but not something you get punished for. Allow for a change of circumstances for yourself from the ordinary to the extraordinary. Turn all of your identities and “beingnesses” over to God and allow them to be restructured into that which brings a divine experience to itself and others. 

Don’t give in to giving into more significance for another than you have for yourself, your will is supreme in your life. Allow that to clearly move through you now. 

Remember anything that is within you that is trying to do something, is what your now looking at from a point of view that you realize that thats not you. 

If somebody tells you that they would like their intentions for you to be what happens: ask them if they are good intentions, so you can dissect them now if you wish. Anything that makes you too special, too perfect, too ordinary, to extraordinary to know yourself as: back it off and stay in the knowing of truth through the form that you are. 

The part of you that is explaining things to yourself: let the requirement of “that” being true for you go.

If you choose for less than realizing ultimate truth here: then that will be your experience of life.

I bless all of my oppressors to divine freedom for themselves, from now to eternity.

Michelangelo, in the Pieta succeeded so completely in creating perfection, he became known as Michelangelo the divine by his contemporaries. Remember when you to were known as “the divine” by your contemporaries. How long ago was that? When was it when you were absolutely divinely free with no reason to defend yourself from anything because you could not be affected by anything outside of yourself to your detriment? 

Oh yes, you can take pleasure in and celebrate the wonders of creation of those that you interact with here. Celebrate the wonders of their creations: allow yourself to see them divinely. Don’t hold on to that need for judgement of others as being “less than appropriate,” and doubling that for yourself. 

How long has it been since you were known as the divine? As the manifestation of God consciousness with them, through you? Well, don’t condemn yourself to being less than that right now for yourself, because this is where you are at right now. 

Be here for yourself as a wonderful thing for everyone, which includes yourself. 

Be here wonderfully for yourself, 

be here wonderfully for your family, 

be here wonderfully for your friends and 

be here wonderfully for all society. 

Give of yourself in such a way that you are treasured by everyone and treasured by you, yourself, first and foremost, because it is that choice to treasure yourself that brings others to the realization that they also can know what a treasure it is to be with one who chooses for the wellness of all, blesses all to freedom, all to being a more perfect expression of self until you are completely satisfied with your level of success, your level of consciousness, you level of knowing. 

To know yourself divinely, you have to be divinely present in each moment of your life here, you have to choose to be the fullness of awareness and consciousness in your embodiment here. A complete realization of self as that creator that blesses us all to be the same, blesses us all to the experience of heaven in harmony with us, an experience of heaven in harmony, as us. Is that something that you can allow yourself to be embraced by? Can you allow yourself to be divinely embraced by the unconditional love of, you, by all that is holy? Allow yourself to open up to receiving that blessing: the blessing of you by all that is holy that you may know yourself wholly and truly as they do. 

Yes, its going to be a difficult thing to adjust to not being you in the interactions that are going to be going on here with the body, because you will be something else when you know yourself divinely and what do you think that would be actually? Each step increasing your allowance for the divine to move through you and to raise you to the awareness of the divine yourself, so that your knowledge of self encompasses all that is divine. Why would you ever choose to be less than that for yourself? 

Do some planing man, do some planning, plan your life out a little bit more in such a way that your plans for receiving what you wish for, are accomplished successfully. Allow yourself to feel your way to freedom in moving your body through here as that which handles opposition here in a divine manner, where they are supported until they choose well for themselves and others. Thats what you do with your detractors: you love them until they choose well for themselves and others. You won’t begin to choose well for yourself until you allow yourself to be fully loved by others. Because that love is already there for you, you don’t need to deserve it, you only have observe that it is in-fact there wishing to bless you with the wonders of life. Allow yourself to be blessed with an experience of the wonders of life, 

don’t shut yourself off from the wondrous experience it is here to be alive. 

Don’t let yourself get stuck in a oppressive situation that you don’t know how to live successfully as a result. 

Allow yourself to be more than that here. And of course you are talking to yourself and observing how your body responds as you choose for divine knowledge of self. How does your body respond as you consciously choose divine knowledge of self? Feel your body as you breathe, as you move and know yourself divinely there. Thats all your asking yourself to do is to maintaing the knowing of your divinity in every moment of your life. 

Know the divineness of your life. Yes, just feel it, feel it and allow yourself to move through where you are, because of its ability to free you: as you realize the divine within yourself, you are able to unwind yourself from all of those polarized battles that your body is going through, that your consciousness is dealing with in each moment. Realize that you choose for it to be better for you and so you realize that you know that you have to “cause” things to be the way that you want them to be yourself. Cause things to be the way that you want them to be for yourself. Accept that responsibility that it is your  responsibility to maintain the divine reality of life for yourself. It is for you to know the divine for yourself, so choose it and know it and show it as freedom, in you. 

Allow the divine to know that it has its freedom in you. Can you step into that? Can you walk as that for yourself: that your the one who’s here to be the one that creates a divine reality for yourself? 

Thank you God… Thank you God. Wow. Thank you God for showing yourself to me, through the tree that I pass: I know you, through the cement that I walk on and the grass that I see and that I smoke. Thank you to all that remind me of God. My gratitude to all that shows that “it knows god” through themselves. Do you know God through yourself? And if not why not? Is it because you did not know that you had that choice of r yourself? Why don’t you choose the divine as your nature? Why would you fight against that being you? 

It slows things down, doing nothing so that you can come to a conscious awareness of things as they are, where you can choose freely and receive that which you really want here. Experience that for yourself. Experience and exist as that which experiences God as themselves and knows the “Gods” all of them that are divinely conscious, wether they are known as some identity or beingness or not: they are here to celebrate that in yet another: another point of view that chooses all that God is as the identity of themselves here. Wow, the identity of all that God is as ones self. Is that what it takes to be God consciousness? Is that the final frontier of self realization? The acceptance of God consciousness as a single point of view that operates as a human being here? What would that do to a body here? How would circumstances change in that play of events? 

Look at it all clearly and you will do as I do and choose divine presence here for yourself as your experience of life here in this reality. The consciousness of the divine present as you, as you. 

God bless me, Please, to receive your love freely and fully: embracing the love of God for myself and allowing that embrace to realize in me all that God wishes for me, for you, for all of us. Its not a competition for people to try to be a “supreme being” or a “wondrous revelation of the divine.” There is no competition in that: there is mutual support, mutual appreciation, mutual love, a mutual appreciation of: wow that was nice, what you just shared with us, because we are connected to you on this level and experience all who embrace the divine within themselves. “We love you people, we love you,” the divine loves every soul here, but the divine takes its most pleasure in the souls of those who choose for themselves the same that all the wise ones would do and that is: may the divine be true in me and in you and in the holy one within us all, that we one and all: all be free, free from the insanity that seems to be life, free to express ourselves successfully here and free to know the loves of life here. 

You don’t really have to plan out your future divinely right now. All you have to do is allow yourself to realize it as much as possible in each moment, right now. The infinite moment of moving into divine consciousness from the difficult circumstances of your life, requires that you get conscious in all of those, which when you have a high degree of unconsciousness in you, its quite an uncomfortable transition if you take it too fast. So don’t put any unnecessary pressure on yourself: just allow with each step that you move through life that it get better for you, that you be more aware, more conscious, more successful, more able to move successfully in life here. Yes, with each step allow it to get better for you. 

You can just focus on that simple concept, as you don’t have to decide wether you are for it or against it because you can’t really find a negative in it. So, in this moment, allow for it to get better for you than it was in the last and allow that moment to continue through time as your ongoing consciousness of more freedom in every moment of your life than the moment before, a continuous expansion and expression of the divine moving through life more and more as the logical expression of itself here. Allow the divines logical expression of itself to move here through you, Allow the divine to be present and know itself as you. In your present allow the divine to know that it is you and you are it and that all that that can be is what you choose for all that is. 

Just don’t have a problem for things getting better for you in each moment. Thats your only sin, is choosing less for self than experiencing life divinely. 

I’m choosing to experience life divinely in this moment. Thats my mantra: 

I’m choosing to experience divinity in each moment. 

I’m choosing to experience divinity in each moment. 

“I choose to experience divinity in each moment” will take you all the way there, until you are known by yourself and by others that you are present here divinely. Know that in yourself first. Thats how it is then passed onto others, you don’t pass on something thats not true about you onto others and ask them to refine it until it is. No, you experience ultimate truth within yourself and then express it as your every word and motion to others. 

“You choose to experience yourself divinely in this moment,” 

“You choose to experience yourself divinely in this moment,” 

“You choose to experience yourself divinely in this moment” in this moment, the “you” the “divine” together and one, once more at last. The union of heaven and earth, that heaven on earth may be possible. 

Allow yourself to be free now, finally and truly with the divine way moving as you. The divine way moving as you: its the most wondrous thing that could ever be true about you and about us, about everyone, because it is true about you, about me and about everyone. Just allow yourself to know more divinely in each moment. Allow yourself to show you that you’re true to the betterment of the you that you are here. 

It just keeps getting better and better, moment by moment, greater and greater freedom.    Continuously choosing to know more divinely and not to be limited by the concepts of others, by the concepts of men that are lost within us all that know not the way, but attempt to prevent those that may be upon it from experiencing the success of that path: the path of knowing the “divine way” of your way is to move today, right now, with each step a choice to know divinely that experience. To know yourself divinely in each moment. 

Where is it safe for you here? Where are you not under attack and what can you do to make it all go away and be replaced by joy and wonder? So know that that is your choice to experience joy and wonder as your movement through life. That means that you walk away from that which is not that for you. 

If what we are doing is choosing for ourselves divinely in each moment and we can begin to allow that to be our experience of ourselves, it doesn’t matter what the bodies circumstances are, it doesn’t matter what the chatter is that is going on around you by everyone and everything, you can’t allow that to negate yourself divinely in each moment. Experience yourself divinely in each moment, its not just choosing the divine, its choosing to experience this moment divinely. 

Choose to experience this moment divinely. 

Choose to experience this moment divinely. 

Experience all that is you divinely now. 

Experience all that is you divinely now.

Experience all that is you divinely now.

Regardless of any outside influence that invites you to go into harmony with its low level of awareness, regardless of what the request is from the outside is: your choice is always to experience life divinely for yourself. 

He who does not wish to be God, does not have the capacity to realize ultimate truth here. If you choose for less than realizing ultimate truth here: then that will be your experience of life. But, consider wether a better choice for you would be to experience yourself as the divine in this moment. Let your body know that you are choosing to experience self divinely here so that it can harmonize with that as well. Allow the body consciousness to know what has been chosen and that it is to experience itself divinely in this moment, because it is the expression of you in this reality. Your choice is a divine presence emanating through the body. So choose to be that divine presence emanating through the body, freeing the embodied consciousness from its delusions. Let go of the illusions that you have about life and see it for what it is and choose to experience it divinely so that you can find your freedom in these circumstances that you find yourself in here. Choose for yourself divinely, regardless of the circumstances you find yourself in here. Choose to experience it divinely in this moment. I say yes to the universe to delivering money to me abundantly, yes to money gloriously, yes to money divinely, yes to money truly being there as a support for you. Say yes to money supporting you, abundantly, easily and cheerfully. Cheerfully abundant.