Shine the light of your eternal awareness on it

Part two of a visit with Phil

Allow your body to begin to move in the awareness of your own truth, so that the awareness of your own truth can be embodied as the consciousness of the body. As soon as you accept that which is eternally true about yourself, then you can just sit in the enjoyment of that realization and watch reality shift into harmony with that. Everything thats going on in your body, everything that has been thought about it, judged about it and directed to it from outside, all gets influenced by your knowing the truth of yourself eternally as your experience of yourself within the body. So there is no place to go for you to improve: you have embraced your eternal truth and your sitting in that awareness in your body. Just doing that alone is what will shift the entirety of your reality, your experience of yourself, your experience of your body, your experience of life here and how you cause a harmony to come into life and the lives of those around you. It’s OK to be that guy here, its OK to be a man, manly-enough to be that. Then you just say: thank you God and so it is.

Phil: Thank you God.

And so it is.

Phil: and so it is.

Thank you God and so it is, so it is. 

You’re thankful that God is fully conscious in your body and through that surrender to God consciousness within yourself: you are awakened in your own divine awareness, your own divine truth, and thats about the best thing that can happen to somebody here. 

Phil: our self potential is limitless and we can choose to be whatever we want to be here, every second of every minute of every day. No one chooses for us.

Thats right, you are where you are in this moment because of your choice to be here. There is no excuse that anything other than your own choice has resulted in your position in this moment. 

Phil: that is both a heavy responsibility and very freeing. 

Personal responsibility is an odd thing really, because you have to take full responsibility  yourself at the same time your letting go of the responsibility of having to fix it.

Phil: when there is no perfection: there is a better pursuit of perfection. When there is an understanding of imperfection you are freer to pursue. 

Well, you can’t possibly know what you want to be here until you allow whatever it is that is eternally true about you to be fully awakened in your consciousness and in your embodiment. Because any decision that is made from a level of consciousness that is less than that is going to take you in a different direction.

Phil: but what if there comes an eternally true idea?

You can’t self realize from a divine concept or idea. You can only self realize as an experience.

Phil: you have to believe eternally, because your on now.

What I know is that I change from deciding not to condemn myself and then surrendering to that which will not condemn me at the same time: where if my consciousness is there with that which does not condemn me, I’m awakened into a self realization of my own eternal truth. So that’s what works: taking self responsibility and then within that self responsibility, surrendering to that which is eternally true and letting that order your reality and nothing less.

Phil: cannot be less you said?

You let that which is eternally true of you order your reality, not a level of consciousness less than that. So when your not at that level of consciousness, you just keep saying: well thats not my job, I’m turning it over to divine truth.

Phil: so do you find what is eternally true for you just by letting the shackles go?

All you have to do is let go of the need to be right when your consciousness is less than eternal truth, because that is what sticks you.

Phil: let go of the need to be right.

If you are experiencing yourself at a level of consciousness less than God consciousness, or universal consciousness, or cosmic consciousness, or full enlightenment, or as an ascended master. If your experience of self is less than that, say: well this is a screwed up self to be, its not very true who I am being and who I am acting as and who I believe myself to be, so as this thing I have become, this “self image” this “identity” as the “me” that I am in this moment: I am surrendering to the miraculous and nothing less. 

Phil: what your saying is: you always know in terms of “you do know, don’t you?”

Of course, everyone does. 

Phil: you know don’t you? You know what you are trying to be and you know what your perception is and what others perceptions of you is and when you are not living up to “you know what.” Its an internal compass, it is. We have all been there, haven’t we?

Yes, but our internal compass that knows the divine hasn’t been given permission to be in control of our decision making processes.

Phil: because we have been schooled to be different. 

Anything that is less than the experience of Joyful Exuberance in your expression and experience of life, anything that is less than that was the result of a choice made in unconsciousness.

Phil: I see that we consciously decided to live unconsciously.

No, we didn’t. We were born and we had traumatic painful experiences of being jammed into a body and we don’t know how to deal with it, we don’t know how to react to it, we’re completely helpless and our survival is 100% dependent upon somebody that is 10 to 20 times our size: we can’t feed ourselves, we can’t wash ourselves, we can’t do anything. The point is you lose your consciousness in your initial experiences of the process of embodiment and being born, but there comes a time when you have had enough experiences of the transcendent that you open up to the possibilities that it might be the truth of you and as soon as you consider the possibility: “could that possibility be the truth of me?” Could it? Could it? Could it possibly be the truth of you? Consider the possibility: is it really true? Well, if you get lighter and lighter and more and more conscious as you consider it: what do you think the answer is? Its kind of leaning in that direction.

Phil: a little bit.

So if the transcendent is actually the truth of you, then all you have to do is allow the truth of you to be realized by the consciousness that you are in this moment. 

Phil: David that seems so simple. 

Well just experience your being in allowance of that and feel how moment by moment you awaken to a greater and greater understanding and increased levels of consciousness. Just experience reality from the willingness to experience reality as the eternal truth of yourself. Be willing to experience reality here as the eternal truth of yourself: what is the experience of embodiment like if my natural divine and eternal consciousness, knowing and awareness is what I perceive myself as, as I experience reality through this body? How does that shift this body in this moment? The willingness to experience the body as an eternal consciousness and as an eternal awareness? How do you experience your body when you know yourself as that? 

Well, the body changes so fast that you can’t focus onto any one part of it. 

Phil: I was going to say: what if you are in pain physically?

Well, you don’t shy away from it. You just embrace it. Not as your victimhood, but as your truth: Oh, OK “thats there.” what do we know about that? Lets get in there a little tighter and shine a brighter light on it and see. Lets shine the light of our eternal awareness on it and see what happens, what we can know about it, what we can understand about it, what we can experience about it, what we can realize about our self as a result of it: oh, OK, thanks for the message, got it, got it, thanks for pointing it out to me. Is that what pain is? Is that what suffering is?  Thanks for pointing that out to me, got it, got it, I got it, I understand and: within that understanding the pain dissipates, the problem dissolves and your freed from it as a limiting issue for yourself. Sure it is there, sure you can experience it, sure it is intense, but is dissolves upon inspection, with the interest to understand.

Phil: I think we are driven as a result of making a conscious choice to be unconscious about who we are. 

Even though your are consciously aware when making that choice, its not what you could call a conscious choice, because the choice to go further unconscious is a choice of a consciousness that is lost and is trying to find a way to hang onto itself without being obliterated. 

End part 2 

Allow that which knows itself as love to be aware as you.

A visit wit Phil part three.

The problem when you ask a question, is you tend to validate a state of not knowing within yourself and when you enter into therapy of any kind, you accepting their judgement of you that you need it.

Phil: by walking into the door.

Yes, your making them the “ones who know” and you “the one who doesn’t.” 

Phil: and they don’t necessarily know anything. 

They certainly don’t know the truth of you more than you do. 

Phil: there is beauty in that and yet we want definitions from those around us.

If you want more than what you are and you know that, “more than what you are in this moment” is actually more true of you than what you are in this moment: then all you have to do is just let go of what it is you are in this moment, if favor of  that which is more true of you than this. 

Phil: anything less than that is some level of insanity.

You have that right.

Phil: it really is on some level.

The only way to truly change yourself dramatically for the better is to first quit judging yourself, then open to the truth of yourself, then enjoy the experience of the realization of yourself. That will shift the reality that exists outside you. Not just yours, but the reality of others around you.

Phil: Ok, so there. I was going to say: what if you find yourself in this same situation, but if you change your thinking, you will change your behavior and you won’t find yourself the same. 

No, as soon as you have enough of the taste of freedom, to realize that it is your choice and soon experience it after you make the conscious choice to be more free than what you are experiencing right now, then you will get excited about what the possibilities are for you and you will throw caution to the wind and all the “rules of life” out the window, in favor of that which is universally true and absolutely loving of you.

Phil: I guess that you can never find yourself on the same path again, even literally in geography and behavior, you might detour completely out of your life path.

At every juncture where you have a choice, you will make a good choice and it will be one that will change your life rapidly for the better and for those around you for the better. You will make choices that will result in people being more loving towards each other, more aware, more conscious.

Phil: when you were saying think of yourself as fulfilled, think of yourself as the best person you can be.

I would say it a little differently.

Phil: you did-actually, my point was: it made me think of when I put my head back and I close my eyes. Not necessarily to go to sleep, If at night I can’t sleep and I don’t want to take Ambien, I think of the very best place that I want to be and its geographic. It is climbing a mountain by a lake somewhere in Hawaii. The sun is on the westside and I think of myself as moving along the path and meeting people with pure love, with them happy to see me and me happy to see them as I move on that pathway in utopia.

Usually I get irritated at ugly, mean people. I was walking through the airport in Guadalajara and there was a short, fat, ugly woman, with a scowl on her face, stomping through the airport and as I looked at her, I involuntarily broke into a wide grin and said: this is funny, I know the truth of you. It was just a ridiculous act that she was putting on and pretending to be true.

Phil: I love racquetball, we should play in the morning. 

Are you willing to take a vacation for a moment?

Phil: Isn’t that what we have been doing?

No, right now you are trying to reassert the you that you traditionally are here as being the truth of you. 

Phil: I was just thinking about a workout.

I understand, are you willing to be aware of all of the possibilities that exist for you and are you willing to take a moment and allow that awareness to seep into you so that you know what your possibilities are? 

Phil: I think so.

OK, sit down. 

Phil: this is how Wyatt would sit.

Not what I am interested in right now. I understand.

Phil: You want Phil or anyone else but me?

I just want you to not demand to continue to be who you are currently pretending to be, while at the same time pretending that you are allowing yourself to be more than that.

Phil: touche. Excuse me for one second.

OK.

Phil: I meant 10, OK, go ahead. I am willing.

I will know that is true when I hear the silence of bliss, because bliss is an aspect, a wonderful aspect of that which is absolutely true of you. When you are in a state of bliss, you can just surrender to more and more and more of it and lose yourself in the enjoyment of it without the need to communicate at all, because your “in bliss” and what needs to be said more than the experience of that? So surrender to bliss, allow yourself to be filled up with it. That couldn’t possibly be wrong, at least for an evening, could it? Experiencing the bliss that comes from knowing eternal truths as your own, of that being your primary reality of who you are eternally. How does your body react to that level of presence of you? Your experience of eternal truth of self as your embodied consciousness, how does that affect the body? Allow yourself to experience that truth while you observe your opening into that truth and how that frees the body from everything that has limited and restricted it in any way. 

Eery time that you feel the need to express something: realize that it is your consciousness demanding to be unconscious and just let it go and surrender to the bliss instead. The need to communicate with others is based upon the need to become more aware, knowing that you are operating from a level of not knowing. Once you know the truth, you don’t have to convince anyone else that you do, because there is no longer any need to convince anyone else that you are right, because you see where they are and you know where you are and you no longer need that validation from them that you are something better, or superior, or expert, or unique, or important, or special in any way. The need to be recognized as that is indicative of a disabled consciousness, one that has lost its way and embraced the truths of somebody else who didn’t know what truth was. Let go of that you, that accepted the stated, postulated and imagined truths of others as a definition of what is true of you, and for you, and about you, and about this reality. None of them knew, none of the cared to know, all of them were content with judging themselves to be right at the same time they were condemning themselves to a level of conscious insanity. 

Its insane to live life poorly here. Its insane to not find a way to celebrate in a joyful way… everything that you experience everyday and to experience an overwhelming gratitude for the opportunity to be you. Try that one on as the truth of you and see what your life becomes. 

Allow that which knows itself as love to be aware as you. You as a self aware, loving, individuated consciousness. An example of what is humanly possible when a human allows the infinite to be that which moves him. 

Divine truth is the truth of everything and everyone

part 3 of a visit with Phil

Phil: its hard Dave, its very hard. When you first started to talk I tried to physically let myself go. Breathe and let go of all the pretenses and  literally say: bliss.

Look at the you that is having difficulty with that and realize…

Phil: but I don’t think that there are to many people who can even scratch the surface of that argument, not even an argument, just that understanding and tell you they have gotten there without discarding all of the bullshit.

Do you think that you can carry around bullshit and the truth at the same time? 

Phil: no, you have to discard it, you must and for a fluid moment I thought of my childhood, my teenage years, working at the hospital, the diseases I saw and the gratefulness I had for being where I am right now, right now, halfway through life. The bliss is there.

Excellent then.

Phil: but to grab it and hold on.

No, don’t hold onto it, just surrender to it.

Phil: even to surrender to it is not easy.

Just let bliss have its way with you. Be blisses bitch. Ha ha.

Phi: that is deep. It is shallow but it is deep. Hows that? Its right there, it is shallow, but it is also very deep,because we have cluttered it: we can’t carry bullshit and bliss at the same time, you are right. You have to choose one or the other. You are saying: just choose it and shut up. I get it.

Quit arguing about it, every word that comes out of your mouth is a defense against your surrender to your bliss.

Phil: you know why? I don’t fee entitled.

Yes of course you don’t feel entitled, you’ve judged yourself as unworthy. You are unworthy, nobody is worthy, no one is entitled, no one is worthy of the truth and yet: the truth is true for everyone. That which is true of everyone doesn't care about what you pretend.

Phil: you are entitled, that’s the beauty of it. 

There is no prerequisite for heaven, except surrender to being heavenly.

Phil: to being heavenly.

“Yes, OK, but don’t make fun of me if I do it.” “Oh well, you know… could that really be true, because I know I don’t deserve it.”  There is no deserving of it! There is no deserving of it! Why do you think that Jesus hung out with the prostitutes and criminals? They were more real about knowing who they were than the pretentious socialites and religious leaders. 

Phil: he got tired of the fakes, he just wanted to be with the people who had accepted who they were.

What ever his reasons were, interesting that he preferred them to the establishment, but the consideration of concepts like that as being a step on your way to enlightenment is ridiculous. 

Phil: say that again.

There is a condemnation within the attitude of giving undue reverence to a story about a divine being. A story is a human concept and description that you don’t know is true or not and so you’re giving your “awe” or reverence to a story instead of to life and consciousness. Whats awesome is that you are here and you are alive and you know it. Not what somebody did in some other life time, that is a story coming from somebody that didn’t know what their own truth was. 

The books written by followers and disciples are not books of knowing, they are not books of understanding, they are books of PR and bullshit, because if they knew the truth them selves: they would be enjoying the bliss of it instead of trying to build an organization to honor it in someone else. 

Phil: they should write the books about themselves, each one.

Each one would say: woah, wow, awesome. 

What you experience yourself as in each moment is what you have chosen to experience yourself as. If you choose the eternal truth of yourself, then the reality of your experience of self will begin to change rapidly. It will evolve until your experience of self is eternal truth and then when you are able to experience yourself as that, the reality around you is able to experience you as that as well. When reality perceives you divinely, it cant help but go into harmony with that itself, because divine truth is the truth of everything and everyone and once manifest it is duplicated by all who experience it. 

Allow them all to be winners

Attainment isn’t knowing that you must do what you must do in order to survive here.

Allow God to bless you - its in your best interest to receive gifts from the divine, for those gifts are always divine and divinely beneficial to you. When you can allow yourself to have things be divinely beneficial for you, you will have realized fully your return home. 

God allows everyone to be winners here and actually encourages you to go for that result in your experience of life. Be a winner, be the one who blesses himself and everyone else and has that blessing effectively given and willingly received. 

Look at all those people who have thrown their hopes in with you: allow them all to be winners by allowing yourself to win. Because it is only a winner who can pass it on to others, not he who has lost himself and doesn’t know the truth. So allow yourself to be the winner, allow yourself to be the truth.

You need to be open to the possibility that I will be a blessing in your life or we really shouldn't be dealing with each other. As far as blessings go: its not appropriate to demand them, but it is appropriate to open your arms and receive them for what they are and what they are are gifts from the heart.

How aware can we become?

When you start to drift off in a trance state, a drum helps keep you presence so that the trance is something that is brought into the body instead of leaving or going away from it. 

This globe of light is here because we believe we are separate from it so it has to appear here as a separation from us, but something that loves us and an enjoys us very much. In our delusion that we are separate from that in our separate unique identities here that has no room for others: open up to knowing your truth, where the light of all knowing is what you carry in your hands and what you have embraced with your arms and your mind. 

The decision is: whats possible in consciousness? 

How aware and how conscious can you be and how free can you exist as compared to who you have been? 

How much can you open up into the infinite possibilities that this universe has for you? How free can you be in embracing that which is possible for you? Until you know all there is to know about it and you have full knowledge to decide what experience it is you want to have here of yourself. The message is simply: look at and then consider the possibilities for you here. 

How aware can we become? 

How far can we get away from what we think is right and what we think is true and what we believe because someone told us what to believe is true. 

How far can we get away from that and instead be in a state of pure knowing?  

We’re not someone who takes what we see as our experience of reality and replaces it with ideas and concepts that are of a very low order. Thats what group membership does here: it removes all possibility of a transcendent consciousness being you. There is no group here that will allow that to be true, not for you, but it is not bestowed by groups: it is considered and then welcomed by self...OK : ). “It’s ok by me to live a wonderful life here that is a blessing to you and everyone else. 

So, is it OK to shift into that? 

To shift from the way that it has been into what is possible? 

How much allowance of an improved reality for someone else do you have? 

Where do you say: stop, no, I can’t have that be true about him. Wherever that comfort level is for you to allow for things to get infinitely better for other people: embrace that and you will begin to know your own truth. Embrace the infinite possibilities that other people have to have a wonderful life here. Find that to be your continuous blessing to everyone that you meet: that they have a wonderful life, everything that they desire. You will have no part in holding them back from any decision that they make for themselves and you will support it in such a way that they will choose wisely for themselves. 

That is what is available and its not you giving up anything, its you becoming more of who you are, its the next state of the growth of your beingness and presence here: your authentic self that you naturally are, that you already are. What ever it is that exists beyond this lifetime that is individuated as you: allow yourself to know all there is to know about that and allow that knowledge to shift you physically, to move into harmony the total physical manifestation of you. 

The question is, can you dramatically, quantumly, improve yourself by your own self determinism here simply by choosing? Is that possible? Discover it right in the moment: just pay attention to where you are and where it is that you wish to be and choose it. Notice how quickly an improvement happens and it stops almost immediately as well, but realize that there is nothing that stops you except yourself from instantly changing. So make the choice to change in any manner that you want to and feel the shift that happens as soon as you made the choice and then notice that you let it happen in a small increment and then you stopped it. At that point you have to start over again and make the new choice.

Skye: When do you start over and make the new choice again? 

As soon as you feel the immediate improvement and the following nearly instant stopping of that improvement. The only thing that we are looking for is: what are you willing to experience here in this moment? Not intellectually, not to theoretically understand, but to experience as your reality.

Skye: OK, I understand what you are saying.

So, you are “this” right now. I know you as “this” and I know that you believe 100% that “this” is you, but it is not the totality of you.

Skye: Ha. Ha.

It doesn’t express your eternal knowing, so: open up and allow it to.

Skye: its going to take me practice, I’ve never done this before. 

Allow your eternal knowing. You don’t have to practice, all you have to do is stop directing the process yourself and just be in a state of allowance of your choice.

Skye: I didn’t even know that.

OK, let me feel through you what your possibilities are and what level of them you are comfortable manifesting: how much better are you willing to have it get for you here? Let me feel that. 

Skye: OK, I think I have it figured out. I’m thirsty.

Go get something to drink. 

Skye: I love my truck. 

I am glad your grateful for your truck. Many people would be irritated with a car like that and the fact that you can love it, thats impressive: that shows how free you are already, that you can appreciate what you already have. Thats a blessing that hardly anyone has here: the appreciation and gratitude for what they already have. Thats what allows oyu to free up and change. 

I can’t decide if this fire is perfect or if I should add another log to it.

Skye: thats the question. 

When you are shifting into something new, you need to enjoy the transformation: the process of shifting. Its not exactly current events as far as the world goes, but if you look at the potential for positive change in the world as being a determining factor in what you do with your life, that it be beneficial for other people to the greatest extent possible, then embracing the greatest possibilities for yourself will facilitate that. By best possibilities, I am talking about the available options of your awareness, consciousness and knowing increasing in quantum shifts simply by choosing for that and then allowing it. 

The religions don’t really know much about God as far as what they teach in church. Suffice it to say that what ever you use to describe it, if you turn yourself over to infinite consciousness where ever that is available and wherever infinite consciousness results in the unconditional love of you by that. If you find that available anywhere in the universe and mirror that, its an amazing experience. 

A new day has dawned

Trust me, I'll listen.

Look at your life, embrace it and realize that the divine is OK for you.

Accept your divine presence within the paradigm of your managing money here.
Open to money flowing to you naturally as a result of the benefits that you create here for society.
Open up to money and then be a benefit to this society. No matter how painful it is to do so:
Open up to love,
Open up to love so much that all of reality that you interact with cant help but love you.
Open up to love and money at the same time.

When you talk to your body now, you can say: trust me, i'll listen. 

There's no good reason for you to not self realize your divinity: your not evil when you do that your divine.

How you get expressed as divine presence

We’re downloading a divine consciousness here to work out this mess. Is there any of you that would disagree that this isn’t the right choice for the people that you are in disagreement with? Including yourself? Whatever the truth is, it is. And once you know what the truth is: you don’t need to argue about it, because the only ones who argue the truth are the ones who don’t know it and thereby can’t show it as themselves. (although they will be the first ones who say in their pretense of inability and unknowingness that they are the ones who have it absolutely right.)

All you have as evidence to guide you when you are trying to convince another, is that you don’t know that its OK for them to maintain their points of view when you don’t know the truth of your own. When you do know the truth of your own: you are no longer interested in debating what the truth of theirs is, because theirs doesn’t affect yours. Yours is a known quantity to yourself and its just realization; there is no striving for it, there is no receiving it from another, although another can support you in your observation. Whatever that truth is, it is true. And let that be you that knows the whole truth, the full truth and nothing but the truth, so help you God. 

You also know what it is to give credence to other possible explanations of reality apart from your own and to allow those “wrong points of view” to be real to you in their opinion about you. It doesn’t need to be real to you, only as it has to ability to affect your interactions here, yes, take that into account and be a support to those who are lost here: one that they recognize as an asset to themselves. Allow yourself to be an asset to one who has been believing the lies about himself and allow him to see one who operates here as in a conscious manner such that he wishes to be able to have the same experience of reality that you do, allow that to be yourself. 

Instead of struggling here against life: surrender to knowing it divinely. 

Knowing your life divinely means that your life is divinely blessed. Know your life as being divinely blessed: allow that to be what you know is real about yourself. The real truth is that you are divinely blessed, you are extraordinarily privileged to know yourself divinely and to realize yourself image as that: that which knows itself divinely. 

You are the one who allows himself to change for the better you know. You are the one, yes you, yes me, “I am the one who allows it to get better for myself and everyone else too.” Thats what the divine does, it allows the creation and manifestation of self as a physical beingness and presence and allows that to be experienced divinely. Let your experience of self be a divine one. 

Your ascension doesn’t have to be a problem for anyone else: they don’t have to know about it and you don’t have to be defensive about it because your consciousness transcends that which has been conditioned to be in a state of conflict. Receive the love that passes all understanding, it is beyond what you can comprehend, but not beyond what you can receive as a blessing. You can comprehend from moment to moment your receipt of that until it is yours. Thats how you get expressed as divine presence in this reality: contemplating divine presence and surrendering to it until there is nothing in your experience other than divine presence. (you have no other identity for self thats less than that.) 

You allow your body to relax into a full celebration and enjoyment of your life. Full enjoyment means that your body is full of joy for its experience here. 

You’re letting go of all man made limitation for your body and your consciousness, you allow nothing that is man made: “made by man,” that can define the truth of you. Its not “others” to determine about you, it is your privilege to determine that for yourself, who and what you are and the uppermost possibilities of that are glorious, because its the surrender to the glory of God and that’s a glorious experience for all concerned. 

When reality allows God consciousness to fully embody it, thats what the surrender is: its the experience of reality by divine consciousness. You allow the body that you are to surrender to the divine and you allow the divine to be here as you. 

Rob. What are the limitations of his consciousness, his awareness, his love? 

Your not the destroyer of society, you’re the savior of it. Your that which brings a successful way of life into this reality when you allow the divine to embody you. All aspects of consciousness that are conscious, are now embracing the infinite as our truth here. 

The realization of living as truth

Salvation cannot be achieved by striving, however striving is necessary to prepare the mind to surrender to that which can save you: the realization that there is no saving necessary. Oh, there is a change of circumstances and beingness necessary, thats to be sure, but it is not done through striving: it is done through knowing the truth and the truth is known by realizing that striving for truth is not the same as living it. 

To move from striving for truth into the experiencing of truth and the realization of living as truth is the difference between man and God. 

So allow God, 

notice God and then 

move as God moves you 

and if that is “not at all” then “not moving” is your action.

Not-moving, IS YOUR action: for that which is not realized as the divine CAN NOT be allowed to act if the realization of the divine is your wish for self. So stop acting as a lost and fallen consciousness: striving for that which you don’t have and instead allow, notice, and then be moved by the divine truth, into realizing divine truth, the divine truth of self. 

Gratitude to God is useful, in the right time and in the right place. Its part of the supplication, the surrender, that moves the ego out of the way so that the truth can be revealed. 

Every time that you begin to strive to become the truth: let that be a reminder to you to surrender to God and give gratitude.  Gratitude trumps effort. 

In your surrender in gratitude to God: you cannot even give that the power of cause, because that becomes then a “tool” in your effort to effect change and thus becomes a lie. True surrender to God is an effortless thing that is a choice and an immediate realization: its a reality, not a pretense. 

No matter what I do, self realization happens.

Live in the celebration of life.

If one is found to be divine then so are you if you so choose for yourself. 

One finding their divinity opens the door to all others who choose the same for themselves. 

Theres a competition going on, where the losers get all that they wished for, for themselves and the winners get even more: they get the sublime reality of divine consciousness on top of all of the wishes that they have had for themselves that were truly made in consciousness, looking for the betterment of themselves and others. So to self first, because what can you do for others until you have shown you can do it for yourself? How can you prove it to others that you can deliver to them what they want, unless you can deliver for yourself what you want? 

So go ahead and realize that for you to deliver for yourself what you want is the first requirement for you to be of effective service to others. To effectively serve others you have to receive what you want yourself and not sacrifice it to something that is supposedly more valid, more needy and more deserving than you are for something that is already yours. Why should you have to give up that which you enjoy yourself in order to make someone else’s life better? Can’t you grant yourself your own immaculate enjoyment of life at the same time you serve others in a way that truly blesses them? 

Is there any need really to argue the point that knowing your own divinity intimately is something that would be a great blessing to you? It would be a blessing for you to know your divinity intimately as the divine realizing itself. The divine realizing itself in you, that is the dance of the divine that you have been invited to share with a divine partner. Embrace your divinity, you have a partner who will embrace theirs. 

You could open a line of reasoning and say that yours is better than anyone else’s and you would be wrong, because there are plenty of people who allow all information to reach them freely regardless of the pre-justices against it that have been laid down by the society that they live in. What does it take to ignore the societal programing that you have that results in you making choices that are less than the best one for blessing everybody here and for living a life that other people celebrate for being so wonderfully lived. Your expected to live for yourself here and those who experience the most celebrated lives are those who choose to celebrate them more than the rest of us. 

Celebrate life, live in the celebration of life. Live here in the celebration of your life. You really can’t get any better advice than that. Allow your celebration of your life to be equal to the others who celebrate the life you live and lead. See how much your life is celebrated by others and then realize that you have been giving up countless opportunities where your choices for self and other would lead to a consensus among others that they should celebrate your life. 

You Cannot Be Fighting This Reality And Know The Truth Of Yourself.

A visit with Carmen.

Part one:

Carmen: I want to get this depression out of me, I want to get lots of peace here.

I understand.

Carmen: you know that I am ready to cry, you can see that. 

Sure.

Carmen: I want to heal my heart, heal my body, heal my mind, so I can start working and generating money. I cant live like this. So I want to work really hard with this. I want to do a very strong meditation. This week has been very strong for me, because this guy that I have been in love with; I want to get him out of my mind, because it has been 4 years since we broke up but we keep talking about getting back together and I want to get out of that; no more codependence. I have so much fear.

The tea ceremony is about each movement being a movement in consciousness. Its about being present in this moment…

Carmen: thats what I want.

Match me, there… be comfortable in knowing. You’re in a state of unknowing right now, confusion, frustration, anger, grief and fear. Bring it all into the heart of yourself: where you love yourself absolutely and surrender to that love that you are, that you have, that you exist as eternally. Know that your circumstances are what they are, but if you know eternity at the same time: all of “this” will come into harmony and you will be aware enough to know where you are welcomed here, where you are supported and loved here. So, the part of you that is traumatized right now listen: surrender means to allow for a wondrous solution to come to you from a place of pure love and since you are not experiencing that as your experience of self right now: you are in a state of confusion about who you are, thats all. 

You think you are a woman who is in love with a man who is an insensitive brute. Oh my, OK, no wonder you came over tonight, because: do you really want to get into something like that? You know what it means to share a life with another, you know what happens to your consciousness, you know what happens to your sense of self when you go into resonance with a determined lower consciousness that “just knows that it is right in its wrongness,” let that go man. Your clarity is the only thing that is important here, OK? Screw everything else, let it go. 

You want to be free of it? Be free of it. The only reason that you’re traumatized over this is you don’t know for sure wether your going to actually let it go. If you had let it go in your mind for good already, it wouldn’t bother you at all, because you know it is not the right thing for you to be with that man. Thank God he was at least aware enough to send you that insensitive email, because where could your life have gone off in a direction with him that is less than healing, fulfilling and worthy of that sense of wonder and excitement that you have because you know the possibilities that life has for you? No those possibilities are not where you are right now, but that doesn’t mean that where you are right now can’t open to the light of enlightened presence for yourself. Just because you are where you are, doesn’t mean that you can’t be where you want to be. 

So first, allow yourself to receive the love of the divine and feel that flow into you and allow me to feel loves expression through you. That expression of divine unconditional love flowing into you and from you to me in such a way that it heals me, heals my traumas, heals my problems, heals my confusions: heals me, restores me and redeems me from the odd life that I am in that is mostly one silly thing after another. So it is not our circumstances that we need to worry about today being changed, its this: are you willing to be present here as truth? Let me feel that from you. Let me feel the presence of eternal truth, as you. Heal me with the presence of your eternal truth: let me know what it is to know God, through you. There... let me know God as you. 

Let go of these identifications with the life circumstances of this body as the defining identity of you. Let go of that, surrender to knowing your own divine eternal truth. Not just knowing it, but realizing it: “making it real here.” Allow your divine truth to be real, here. Allow divinity to be manifest as you, as you. Thats what I need from you, I need someone who is aware here, someone willing to self-realize divine truth. And I know that thats “impossible” of course. 

Carmen: what is impossible? 

For you to realize divine truth, or… or, is it impossible? Its not impossible? 

Carmen: no.

Well, feel the truth of that statement of yours that its not impossible for you to realize your divine truth. Just feel how the truth of that frees you from the mental insanity that your going through as a result of your circumstances and your circumstances are simply the “sum result of your life’s choices.” So your circumstances are OK, its OK for you to be in them right now the way that you are and as soon as as you realize that: you can realize that its also OK for them to change, but not until.

You have to quit fighting reality before you can go into harmony with it! Come on, any of your enlightened sages say that? You have to go into harmony with life as it is before you can fully awaken yourself here and know the truth of eternity. 

You Cannot Be Fighting This Reality And Know The Truth Of Yourself. 

You don’t have to figure out how to do that, you don’t have to figure out the repercussions of that, all you have to do… (only a small percentage of this is intellectually for you later, OK?) the point is, I want you to make a choice, a whole series of choices and I want them to not be done the way you normally make choices: the choices that you make tonight, I want you to realize the end of them as you make them. When you make a choice: allow its full, instantaneous and immediate realization of it within yourself. If you don’t do that, could you possibly know what it is to be divine? So choose what your wishes are for yourself in awareness and consciousness, in presence and knowing and truth and allow yourself to have that wish fulfilled right now.

OK, so tell me one: one wish that you have for yourself that will be a blessing to everyone around you. Just give me one aspect of what it is that you are looking for. 

Carmen: I want to change the habits that I have.

No, you want to be…

Carmen: love.

OK, be love. Relax and don’t fidget for a minute. If you need to do something with your hands: hold your tea like “this” its really nice. Feel that warmth of a hot cup of tea in your hands. Be present with me as you realize your choice of love, of experiencing yourself as love. Don’t shut down that choice as soon as you make it. Allow that choice to force you into an awakening, a realization, an understanding, an enlightened presence: ask and receive! Don’t just ask, receive, receive, receive, receive Gods love for you right now and allow Gods love for you to awaken you. End part one.

How could divine truth not be inclusive of you?

Part 2 of a visit with Carmen.

Yes, we are here: the divine is here as you and as you, wether or not you believe it or not. 

The person the you operate here as you: well, you’ve go to keep doing it, you have no choice in that matter, this is the body that you are carrying around and this is the life that you are leading, but, observe what the possibilities are for you in your life here as a fully consciousness divine being. Oh my God, I have to take a sip of tea on that one : ) Mmm, ahh, now thats divine. 

The reality that your consciousness desires requires a conscious community. You come from a family that has a pretty good chance of being conscious if they really wanted to and if they knew somebody that was and did transform herself into something that they could admire in every way. They would say: me too, me too. The truth of you is something that is worthy of admiration in every way, from everyone that you will ever meet. So know that I welcome that of you, because I too, want to be surrounded by those who are conscious and choose to know whatever the ultimate truth is and allow it to be expressed without shutting themselves off from it. 

Saying that: “I am separate from divine truth, that divine truth is “over there,” I know it,” “somebody told me and I believed them,” “so don’t try to talk me out of it.” 

How could divine truth not be inclusive of you? And, of everything? And, of everyone of us? 

Keith calls. You ruined my fun, you did not listen to my voice mail did you?

I did not and I am having a wonderful visit with a very enlightened person, unlike yourself who considers himself an endless seeker of light and yet shuts himself off from it. Ha ha.

Keith: well…

Ha, ha. This is someone who happens to appreciate my consciousness, unlike you who considers me lost and fallen, damned and down and out.

Keith: Ha. I went to a cocktail party at the Norton sculpture gallery in Palm Beach and met an old friend of your’s: Ron Parker and I was trying to surprise you with a phone call from him. (goes on…)

I’m sorry I spoiled your fun, by being on the phone when you called.

Keith he’s really a delightful person. 

Yes and he has some funny stories too. Anyway I need to go, I just didn’t want to keep ignoring you.

Carmen: He talks and talks and talks.

Yes, we used to meditate together a couple of hours a day in New York City almost 20 years ago. Neither one of us did anything except play and I had an apartment across central park from his and he would come over at noon each day and we would sit in silence for a couple of hours and then go have lunch. That was our daily routine and that’s the freedom that you have as a single woman now. Its not so bad, if you have money to support your life. So, do we wan’t to get into that in this session? No, no we don’t. You can already figure that out, your consciousness is such that you can decide what to add onto what you are doing to take care of that. 

Carmen: I don’t have one peso. I’m trying to stay calm with that, I stay very calm with that issue, but you know what I owe keeps growing and I have to generate the money and there is something else: when I get money, I get rid of it very fast. 

The denial of your truth to yourself, is what results in your unconsciousness, your unawareness, your frustrations, your angers, your inability to be here magnificently. Feel that possibility within you now: feel it; the possibility of being here magnificently. Mmm, its a nice, feeling. Allow it to grow within you, give it freedom to move in anyway that it want’s within you. Until you realize that: oh, you’re just reawakening to yourself. It’s not “it” and your not. Your, ”it,” 

You, are, it. 

You, 

Are, 

It.

And because you are it, if you condemn yourself: whats going to be the result? What ever you decided in the condemnation: “I condemn myself” “I am not worthy” = Oh God is my life a mess: “I’ve got this guy...and money, ugh, get me out of here! 

OK, thats what I am doing. This is a “get out of jail free card.” Do you know why? Its because:

You’re the Warden, 

You’re the prosecutor, 

Your the judge, 

Your the jury, 

Your the state, 

Your the country, 

You’re the universal source for determining your existence here and your presence here. So, awaken, within “this” yourself. There’s no prerequisites, when you’re God, its only YOUR CHOICE that limits your reality and/or frees it, no one else but you. 

Free your reality from that which you are tired of experiencing! How about that? Who could fault you with that? Because the only people that would, would be somebody who is tired of experiencing you too and so your mutual choice would be not to experience each other anymore, bye, bye.  

Self condemnation. Not in my presence you don’t, I don’t allow it. Be here magnificently or don’t be here at all. I don’t mean that as a condemnation, its an invitation by one who knows what it is to offer that to somebody. 

Be the source of magnificence here, 

Its your truth, 

Its your destiny, 

Its your eternal present and presence and would be such a wondrous gift to present as a present to this reality. Come on. 

Interruption.

Thats how deep it gets in interpersonal relationships. Really dense and difficult to function here consciously. So value your freedom that you have to awaken without opposition or interruption. Go home each night from work and be free to allow yourself to be revealed to you. Know what it is to know and, then do. 

So, you’ve spent five years listening to people who charged to give you advice and most of it was well intentioned, but how many of them invited you to divine realization in the moment and provide an opening for you to experience yourself as that? 

So here it is: allow the divine as you. There… allow that arm to be free. 

Feel what it is, let it go.

Feel what it is, let it go.

Feel what it is, let it go.

Feel what it is, let it go.

Let it go.

Let it go.

Let it go.

Let it go as you feel it. 

As soon as you feel it: let it go. Don’t push it away, but as soon as you feel it: you’re done with it and your onto the next level and as soon as you feel that: your done with that and the next one opens up and as soon as you feel that: your done with that.

Feel it, you’re done.

Feel it, you’re done.

Feel it, you’re done.

Feel it, 

Got it, 

Know it, 

Understand it instantly and 

Your done and onto the next layer of unconsciousness.

Feel it, know it, understand it instantly, let go of it, your done.

Layer after layer,

Level after level, 

A continuous surrender and release by divine knowing and understanding contacting the you that you are in every conceivable position in the universe of consciousness.

Feel it,

Know it,

Understand it, 

Go it,

Let it go.

Absorb the consciousness that was in a state of confusion back into the light of the knowing of self. 

End of part 2 a visit with Carmen.