Part 3

Then get stuck in the next higher win until you are used to it and begin to wonder if it can get even better than that and you then popup to the next level of freedom and go wow, wow, it could get better than that and this is great and you just enjoy that wondrous freedom until it becomes you without your having any resistance to it and so on…

If you can get to a state here where you can create here in a beautiful, joyful manner, you are doing pretty well in this reality. So at least let’s allow ourselves to do that; to live beautifully, to communicate honestly, to choose to realize that any choice of less than the actual, factual truth is to demand that we maintain a consciousness of the value of deception as an aid to survival. That is a tough one to wear as your reality, it’s insufferable. All you can do there is suffer and create suffering for others from that state of consciousness.

Where is our inspiration, where is the salvation of our joys, the realization of our freedom from limitations and the embodiment of the truth of ourselves in this reality.

It is in the understanding and recogincation that it is OK for you to choose your path to freedom in your own way. “I want it to be OK for you that I have a way for choosing my own freedom and embodying that, living that and just having your blessing that that’s OK without feeling the need to fix me, alter me or fix me in another manner. Bill, I access states of being and consciousness that I have not even read about in any book, it’s my purpose to embody that fully here. There is no training for that, there is no training for that consciousness in this reality, it doesn’t exist. That’s what I am doing here, it’s not against anything, its inclusive of everything.

For me to look to another for help forces me to agree that my presence here and my beingness here is a problem that can be solved by somebody else and not by me. The only one here that is capable of solving my problems with my interactions with the reality here is me. Don’t take that responsibility away from me by saying that I can only get that in your religion. If I say that one group is the way to my truth then I have lost it. I want you to know me before you say who I am and what I need. We haven’t been properly introduced yet.

There is a possibility for us here in bettering things in the manner that we wish to. For that to occur in our relationship; is for me to allow your choices to be perfect and for you to allow mine to be perfect as well. Now that is impossible in this reality where one is right and the other is wrong, so you have to ask, what reality exists where we are both right? How do we access the state of consciousness between ourselves where we are not doubting the other person, we’re not wondering about what their truth is, we’re not second guessing the validity and accuracy of their choices from moment to moment about what could be done, what should be done, all of that stuff that we do constantly. What we are looking for is; how can we be better?

I know how I can be better and I am focused on that. When you feel like you can make a better choice for the improvement of my reality than the one that I choose, is to judge me in such a manner that I can’t be my truth around you. It is a weird concept isn’t it? In order for me to be my truth around you, I need you to let me be my truth and my truth is this; I am the one who knows it. I know better than anyone else what my truth is, so please let me be the decision maker in my life then on what truth is for myself.

B. So how can I discuss my truth without it disturbing yours?

I understand your training and belief system. There may be a point where I say; if there is someone in your group who can assist me on an issue I have, I have the next 3 days I can work on it and I welcome the assistance. That is a possibility, but I don’t want you to focus on that as a needed reality for me.

B. So how can I look at it like strawberry shortcake and say David I have strawberry shortcake and you will love it?

Here is what I want; I want for you to focus on your wish for me to be free, not on the process by which it is achieved. Wish for me the state that you want for me to experience, not the road that I walk on to achieve it.

B. That I have and I do want that to be the senior datum.

The only datum, because if you choose..

B. What about the strawberry shortcake thing?

You either eat it or don’t eat it yourself, but you certainly don’t offer it to somebody that doesn’t want it and you know they don’t want it.

B. You don’t want ______?

I want to make my own choice; I don’t want it to be pushed upon me. I know what it is; I have spent years learning the subject and I loved it, but I found a truth for myself that is beyond any others that I know of in this reality.

B. So you feel like I have been ramming --------ism on you?

By having an intention, belief and point of view of me being someone who could be benefited by it. Your good intention for me, your wonderful wish for me is the damnation of my reality into that state of being. How can I be free when you consider that of me? Why would you damn into the existence of this horrific hell, the one guy you know who knows how to get out of here as that freedom here that everyone desires. That’s where you’re from, that’s what you know me as on the other side, that’s what I know you as on the other side. We are here to allow out eternal truth to be true, but don’t decide what mine is for me. Allow me to express it so that you know who and what the possibility of this being that you are interacting with is. If you demand that I be identified, that I be classified, that you be able to look up a description of what I am in an encyclopedia and put that label on me so that you can talk to that label as something that has been completely defined and understood in such a way that it could not possibly have the truth of a transcendent reality come through him; why would you put that on me?

I know the answer to that, the only answer to that is I am not really giving you a chance to know where I am coming from. I don’t know why I said That with so much intention, force, effort and judgment on it.

B. It was perfect don’t worry about it.

All I am trying to communicate is what I know to be true, in a manner that changes you, only in the way that you choose for yourself.

B. It’s a very interesting subject you brought up. I’ve judged you and…

You are sitting around asking your questions, thinking somehow you are being your truth trying to figure out something here. You’re trying to have something here, you’re trying to process it, you’re trying to contextualize a truth into some sort of computer code so that you can file it away somewhere, instead of being open to the experience of what is.

B. Heavy evaluation, but I appreciate your view point Shh, let me have my reality for a second.

We are not talking about the way that things are, because the way that things are here, we are no longer interested in having them be that way and so to discuss something from the point of view that we are try to solve things from the level that they are being experienced on doesn’t work. We are looking at the possibilities of consciousness and conscious states of being and freedom that we all really exist as, while we allow the “us” that we are right now to receive the death of the false self, which allows us to realize our truth.

It’s much easier to pretend to be “me” than to experience any truth whatsoever.

B. David, was taking extreme offence that it was understood that he might benefit from __________ because that had as its primary assumption that David was broken and therefore I was granting his beingness as that of an imperfect being, which was an opposite core philosophy to what the granting of beingness that somebody is perfect the way that they are. Was that close David?

If you have an opinion, not even a judgment, if you just have an opinion that you know what’s best for somebody else, at least for somebody else who is devoting themselves to the awareness of the possibilities of consciousness are, what it is to be a free being and what it is to be the embodiment of an absolute state of existence, then for you to say; I think I can help, is not duplicating the postulate that I have for myself to be the embodiment of eternal truth. I know that’s a pretty big goal to have, but that’s the only one thing I am interested in.

B. But how would one say; hey you are a great body builder, but if you do this exercise a little differently you will get a better result.

You can’t say that to anybody that doesn’t ask for it and they will upon their observation of your reality being something that they admire where they see you and say; my God how did you do that? I wish I knew that. If you don’t get that reaction from somebody, then your opinion should not be volunteered, because they perceive you as having a lesser ability to know and understand their truth and what’s good for them. If somebody is on the path of truth by their own choice and acting with their own ability to observe, realize and consider and thereby choose what their reality is and is also happy on the path that they are on, then to wish for them something other than that; collapses them down into configuring their reality to the assumptions that you are making about them. What it does to me is it brings me into a reality, where in my interactions with you, I question who I am, what I am, what my problems are and then realize that “oh my God” I need help solving them and I do. When I enter this reality as that state of consciousness then yes I need the exact help you are wishing to give me.

If instead you say; David, what is it that is important to you, what is it that you want out of the life that you are living here? If you’re not willing to ask me that question before you decide what it good for me, then you are the one who is unconsciousness.

I am working a steep gradient and so there is a lot that I am out of control on, at the same time that I am looking to embody a state of beingness that I know is there for me too. What I try to do with some degree of regularity and with some degree of success is to leap off the cliff and surrender to whatever absolute truth that there is. This creates another level of experience for me of that reality and it becomes more of what is real for me. When I am in a mid-state of the freedom of that reality and restrictions and beingness of what I am here; it is exactly as you said it is unstable.

How do I embody the knowingness and consciousness of my truth when I am interacting with a reality?

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